STBXH,
I walked outside to call my mom before I lost my shit on you during this IHS. You stay locked up in your room on the social media site that caught your serial cheting ass again--our sweet daughter saw and was devastated asking ME why you stay addicted to your videos of 30 somethings.
How the fuck do I explain your addiction to ego kibbles and the patrolling of these previous AP's pages looking to see if they have replaced YOU!
I wanted So badly to take a large brick and hurdle across the room and demand to know what the fuck your actual problem is. Instead I paced the yard beyong fucking angry.
Our son sits in the room next to yours looking SO dam sad, you can't and won't talk to him, throw a dam ball or even watch TV with him--you just sit night after fucking night locked away on your social media site ignoring my precious kids ALL while proclaiming you WANT custody of THEM!?!?!?
Instead of being angry I should be THANKFUL--you are showing them day in and out what matters most--the next AP you can con into bed.
I HATE you for spending time, money and all your energies on only what is serving your pathetic narc self.
You've dumped our kids already and you're STILL in the house! You throw them an occasional love you but your so far removed from actually knowing them WHO they are and how badly they are hurting to even give a shit.
I'm doing EVERYTHING for them, running them to every outing, practice, making their meals, getting them up for school while YOU sit in your fucking room self-absorbed.
Your divorce papers state you're a PROPER parent?!?!?!? A proper parent who serial cheats on their mother, didn't give a rats ass you were ruining their family and lives--I get you had no real parents, grew up in a horribly abused home SO why the fuck could you not give them better then what you had and experienced.
I cry everyday, my beautiful son is so devastated, I go into his room early in the morning to look at his precious baby face wondering why they weren't ENOUGH. The utter sadness written all over his face, the pain is unbearable.
While I'm writing this tears are streaming down my face NOT for me but for my son and our daughter, I blame MYSLELF! I saw who you were early on, I excused the little red flags but it was too late to end it. We had these two beautiful children--everything you begged me for, a biological connection you were missing, these two incredibly amazing children YOU didn't deserve.
I HATE you--I HATE you for hurting me, but I'll recover, they WILL NOT, you will always be the negative self-centered narc that uses & hurts them.
I am going to make this divorce the worst experience of your existence. I'm going to take every precious dollar I deserve for our kids and leave you in ruins. You claim you work yourself in pain, through injury to do all this great financial providing for us "ungrateful" people, well NOW is going to be the time to pay the piper.
My mom says go easy on you financially HELL NO!!!! I'm going to fully use the post-nuptial and use it to hurt you in the same way your cheating has hurt all of us. The ONLY thing that matters is MONEY? That's why you've stayed so long.
I'm going to drag your cheating ass into a hearing on the post-nuptial and BLAST your nasty serial cheating ass--I'm going to annihilate your fake "good" character--oh and the new judge over our case HATES cheaters. I'm going to sit there with my impeccable reputation, not ONE fucking iota of ever have done anything in the way of being unfaithful with all MY friends and family sitting there behind ME!
You have not ONE person, family member or even friend in THIS WORLD to support you--you will be sitting there on the stand like the world's biggest loser who serial cheated the whole marriage and I'm going to sit there in all of my morally correct glory waiting for the wrath to desend upon this earth and take it's demon back to hell where you belong.
I have taken years of the random sneaky shit being done to me, peeing in my mouthwash, pissing and cutting up my clothes, tracking my car and when I ASK you, you just act innocent--well guess what, I KNOW IT WAS YOU! Your sick and evil, sadistic, pathetic, your a buliemic that throws up to stay thin enough for a new OW--your aging, balding, wrinkled, poor business man, uneducated, self-absorbed and washed the fuck up. I beg you to find a cute 30 something OW and let her take your remaining money and dump you. You have ZERO worth to give a person, you've cheated on EVERY woman you've ever been with and I hope justice will be served at your expense one day preferably soon! Better get a pre-nup this time, but oh wait, you'll have to since you'll be left decades behind financially for retirement.
I will shine and continue to live morally correct. I will live everyday being the GOOD example to our kids, I WILL BE the reason they succeed and prosper I WILL dedicate the next years to THEM while you waste your time on energy on worthless women.
You walk around the house like you have no care in the world--happy, upbeat like you are so innocent in all of this fuckery. It is all a facade just like you! The charm that landed you the OW, it doesn't last. I've read all the texts--you are pathetic, you tell them how they don't have time for you, you don't think they LOVE you, your so fucking transparent, your non-existent self-esteem showing through.
All I can hope and pray for is that I drag this divorce so far down the road that it STOPS you from having anymore kids to hurt and ruin. Likely my intentions for spending the last 15 years married to YOU. The older I can get your dumb ass, hopefully I can stop you from spreading your evil onto another innocent child. But knowing your recklessness with birth control you likely will have another child, cheat on their mother and the cycle will continue.
You tell all the OW your sterile from chemo from your supposed brain cancer just to fuck them without protection is literally the MOST disgraceful thing I have ever heard in my life. Your disgusting 
I can only pray you get what you deserve from the higher powers and I can exact enough revenge here on the earth to leave you in shambles financially since that is really the only thing that matters to you.
You tell the OW, you're divorced, rich, you gave me money and a beach condo?!?! It's my dam condo, bought and paid for by ME, my hard work and business. You tell the OW you're so rich, what a joke, after this you'll have nothing left to wow them with, the beautiful house we live in, YOU'LL be paying the mortgage for 7 more years while I LIVE in it and you'll be in some sad rental.
The JOKE will be on your NEXT wife, you'll slap her with a pre-nup, convince her to quit her job to keep her financially controlled just like you did me early on, have her birth a couple of kids for you and then not give her a dam dollar for anything, JUST like you did me. This poor next wife is screwed, you'll make her so dependent on her weekly allowance for gas & groceries just like you did me (before I started my business) and she'll be forced to put up with your cheating and name calling. She'll "think" she's marrying a man who's going to take care of her, I mean right?!!?!? That's how you got the OW into bed, by telling them you're going to take care of them and their other kids financially. You're just looking for a maid and cook like you did me for years!
Let me tell you ONE thing though, I've been preparing for this divorce since I caught you on Craigslist almost 15 years ago looking for women while I held OUR precious newborn daughter in my arms in the other room. I fucking hate that having that beautiful baby in your life as a new father WASN'T enough to stop your addiction to women and cheating.
I have been the BEST mother in the world to our kids, for an asshat who had an abusive mother that ditched him, you would think that would be appreciated! Oh HELL no, it wasn't enough to stop you. It's always been your needs, wants and desires before anyone else.
So continue to drive your fancy sports car speeding down the road like your somebody special, looking for admiration and attention. You're just a low rent, serial cheater, soon to be twice divorced with middle age barreling down on you. You can't escape what you've done, you can't run and hide, compartmentalize it forever, justice will always be served one way or another. It might not be mine to serve but it will be served one day.
[This message edited by Crazytrain101 at 4:33 PM, Friday, September 30th]
