Topic is Sleeping.
gmc94 ( member #62810) posted at 5:24 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
TX1995 - thank for the podcast list.
I'm thrilled to see that the addicted mind's relational trauma team have a podcast - so that's pretty high on my infidelity listen list.
I listened to podcasts ALL the time before dday, but then pretty much stopped as I could not concentrate. I should trie it again.
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies
SisterMilkshake ( member #30024) posted at 5:50 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
I would give a lot to be able to rock that hairstyle, EllieKMAS. I would want it to be purple or a deep scarlet, too. Alas, I am too old and my hair is too thin. I would, unfortunately, look like an escapee from a locked memory care facility. I so envy the young un's who can rock those buzzed, mohawk, or half buzzed & wildly thick curly/wavy on the other side do's. I am not a big fan of piercings and tattoo's for myself. If others want to, that is their choice. Tattoo's are too permanent, and SOME piercings are just, imo, ugly. Especially lose huge ear lobe enlargement type. But, everyone, be yourself, don't let anyone tell you how you need or should look. ETA: Oh, yeah, forgot. They can all go fuck off!
[This message edited by SisterMilkshake at 1:20 PM, August 28th (Wednesday)]
BW (me) & FWH both over half a century; married several decades; children
d-day 3/10; LTA (7 years?)
"Oh, why do my actions have consequences?" ~ Homer Simpson
"She knew my one weakness: That I'm weak." ~ Homer Simpson
Chili ( member #35503) posted at 7:13 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
Hey now - this is actually the look I think I'm going for every day:
an escapee from a locked memory care facility.
And Psssst:
Fuck.
2012 pretty much sucked.
Things no longer suck.
Took off flying solo with the co-pilot chili dog.
"Life teaches you how to live it if you live long enough" - Tony Bennett
SisterMilkshake ( member #30024) posted at 7:27 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
Hey now - this is actually the look I think I'm going for every day:
an escapee from a locked memory care facility.
My poor dear MIL. She was fastidiously groomed and always dressed so nicely, could tell she always put effort in. Always jewelry and lipstick, manicured nails and nicely coiffed hair. She was then diagnosed with Alzhiemers. You wouldn't recognize her as the same women. When we would visit her we were so sad to see how she had deteriorated. Her appearance would be so appalling and humiliating to her. 
FUCK ALZHIEMERS!!!!!!
[This message edited by SisterMilkshake at 1:28 PM, August 28th (Wednesday)]
BW (me) & FWH both over half a century; married several decades; children
d-day 3/10; LTA (7 years?)
"Oh, why do my actions have consequences?" ~ Homer Simpson
"She knew my one weakness: That I'm weak." ~ Homer Simpson
cocoplus5nuts ( member #45796) posted at 9:06 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
Waywards tell themselves whatever they need to in order to justify their shitty behaviour.
Yes, they do. I believe my fch was unhappy. I don't believe our M was the primary problem. I think it had to do with all the deployments he was sent on. We had been married for almost 14 years when he cheated, but had lived together maybe half that time.
Me(BW): 1970
WH(caveman): 1970
Married June, 2000
DDay#1 June 8, 2014 EA
DDay#2 12/05/14 confessed to sex before polygraph
Status: just living my life
Chaos ( member #61031) posted at 9:10 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
I am chiming in with a few things:
I ❤️ My hairdresser.
APs can FUCK Off
Someone remind me that I need to cool off because I don’t want to get banned from Wayward.
BS-me/WH-4.5yrLTA Married 2+ decades-2 adult children. Multiple DDays w/same LAP until I told OBS 2018- Cease & Desist sent spring 2021 "Hello–My name is Chaos–You f***ed my husband-Prepare to Die!"
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 10:00 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
Maybe my pending tattoo should say. Fuck off
I could make it pretty.
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 10:09 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
TG - put it in a different language - takes it from vulgar to "fancy".
Italian - vaffanculo
Swedish - dra åt helvete
French - Va te faire foutre
German - Verpiss dich
Spanish - Vete a la mierda
Swahili - kutomba mbali
Czech - do prdele
Or hell, just get a whole sleeve of it in every language you can!!
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
SisterMilkshake ( member #30024) posted at 10:26 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
Fuck yeah, you could, Tallgirl. Have you ever seen The Sweary Colouring Book? They have a beautiful "fuck" design. There a bunch of swearing coloring books that can give you inspiration for your Fuck Off tattoo.
BW (me) & FWH both over half a century; married several decades; children
d-day 3/10; LTA (7 years?)
"Oh, why do my actions have consequences?" ~ Homer Simpson
"She knew my one weakness: That I'm weak." ~ Homer Simpson
Chaos ( member #61031) posted at 10:57 PM on Wednesday, August 28th, 2019
OMG. This weekend’s toast can include a design Tallgirl Tattoo theme.
We can design Fuck Off fancy tattoos while toasting.
BS-me/WH-4.5yrLTA Married 2+ decades-2 adult children. Multiple DDays w/same LAP until I told OBS 2018- Cease & Desist sent spring 2021 "Hello–My name is Chaos–You f***ed my husband-Prepare to Die!"
TX1995 ( member #58175) posted at 12:19 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Yes, I agree. They all seem to say the same thing. There really is a cheater's handbook it's AMAZING. My WH says he wouldn't have even said our marriage was anything but good before he had his A. HE was just unhappy about one thing (he thought we should have more sex and that because we didn't have it daily that he "deserved" it, because having sex was the absolute only way he ever saw my love - don't mind all of the other shit I did over 20 years or times I TRIED to connect with his lecherous ass).
GMC - Glad you found some podcasts to try. I too LOVED that the Addicted Mind therapists teamed up. They even do a weekend intensive for couples which is on my maybe list of things to do...
Ellie - I LOVE that you have an amazing new haircut. I've always want to dye mine blue. I should. I don't know what I'm scared of.
SMS - I agree. FUCK Alzheimer's. My grandfather had it and it was heartbreaking. He kept forgetting that my grandmother had passed and was always looking for her. 
Also, everyone in my family is getting a sweary coloring book. Those things are AWESOME!
I've also been pondering a tattoo. Blue hair, tattoo, don't care! Fuck off is straight to the point TallGirl! But it does sound nice in other languages. I can't think of what I want to permanently be on my body, and imagine it will take a while to find the right thing...
Had my consult with the neurofeedback guy today. I'm going in next week for an EEG and starting the therapy that following week. He says roughly 85% of his patients see a huge POSITIVE change - and then warned me that some people get divorced after they have clarity. I said that was fine - as long as there is clarity! Crossing my fingers for some peace of mind. What a FUCKING miracle that would be.
And Fuck Wednesdays.
I'm the BS. WH had an EA/PA with a cOW. DDay was 4/17. Working on R. Married 15 years and together 20 at DDay.
DDay #2 and #3 6/19. Grew a conscience and admitted a full blown physical affair.
Current and forever status is reconciling. I don't
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 12:21 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Lol. A toast to the winning design!
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 12:24 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Where do I get a sweary. colouring book!?
What a great gift. Seriously. I have one or two people on that list already.
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 12:40 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
check 'adult coloring books' on amazon. I bought one for my friend for christmas... it's pretty awesome.
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
gmc94 ( member #62810) posted at 6:14 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Oh my FUCKING god! I googled those books - and bc I figured out how to post photos....
I know what folks are getting for xmas!
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies
gmc94 ( member #62810) posted at 6:18 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
And in honor of Chaos:
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies
Scoobydoo ( member #70007) posted at 7:11 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Fuckety fuck FUCK!!!
Hey Ladies I’m still here, still surviving, still keeping on keeping on!!
Today is judgment day,
FUCK I feel so sick 🤮
I FUCKING hate Thursdays!!!
I have a wicked hair cut...Bob cut, higher at the back than the front, & dyed Deep Garnet, I FUCKING love it 😊
My nose is pierced..little studded diamond 💎
I’ve also got loads of Tattoos, 11 up to now, with a full leg piece in progress of butterflies & elephants, having a waterfall done on Friday 13th...super excited 😆 never been a lover of art but I do love body art 😘
On a side note...I’m not sure of the protocol so I’m just going to put it out there,
A very kind & very generous sole donated anonymously for me to be upgraded on SI, for me to change my username 😊
I’m in absolute awe of this perfect stranger that has done this for me, I cannot tell you how much gratitude I have for them,
I’m so bloody humbled someone would do this for me,
I can’t express how grateful I am.
So from the bottom of my heart
Thank you so very very much whoever you are 😘
Toooo many Dday's over 27 yrs,
Separated from Scooby 'Dum' 19/08/2019
Before you diagnose yourself with depression, or low self esteem,
First make sure you are not surrounded by an Asshole/s.
gmc94 ( member #62810) posted at 7:33 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Hey Scooby - I'm so glad to hear from you!
What a wonderful gift (and now I wish I'd thought of it myself!)
sorry it's judgment day - but do your hair toss, check your nails and walk your fine ass... well, you know.
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies
Scoobydoo ( member #70007) posted at 10:08 AM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
Thank you gmc,
Nails...check
Hair toss...check
Fine ASS...CHECK CHECK CHECK
I'm ready for today to be over & its only 10 am here 
Toooo many Dday's over 27 yrs,
Separated from Scooby 'Dum' 19/08/2019
Before you diagnose yourself with depression, or low self esteem,
First make sure you are not surrounded by an Asshole/s.
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 12:39 PM on Thursday, August 29th, 2019
I looked at Fuck off tattoos on google. If we could get a fab design it would go like gang busters. Saw only one creative design. So off to the colouring books. Hahaha.
A disturbing number of people tattooed their forehead. A word over each eyebrow. Hmmmmmm. You could say fuck off with a look and emphasize it with an eyebrow lift. Lol. This kills me.
I like the German version. Packs a punch.
Good luck today scooby. Thinking of you. Just think of the fuck off tattoos and eyebrow raise like a mad woman whilst flashing those nails during your hair toss and shaking that booty.
Thinking of doing all that at once makes me giggle. I’d crash into a wall and would look like I was having a body spasm. Elegance isn’t natural for me. My natural state is going to the grocery store with my shirt inside out, which may have allegedly happened earlier this week. If that happened I may have noticed 3 hours later.
Have a good fucking Thursday girls.
Topic is Sleeping.
