Lionne ( Member #25560) posted at 2:55 PM on Tuesday, September 20th, 2016
Echoing what Pentup said. I love being part of a large online community, but sure wish I could help in real life sometimes.
I'm holding you all in the LIGHT.
Me-BS-65 in May<BR />HIM-SAFWH-68<BR />I just wanted a normal life.<BR />Normal trauma would have been appreciated.
ZenMumWalking ( Member #25341) posted at 3:46 PM on Tuesday, September 20th, 2016
((((DS & MH))))
I'm so sorry for your pain. I hope they can get that good med matchup going for your soon. Keep resting, FUCK CANCER and AK47 that shit!!
((((DS & MH))))
Me (BS), Him (WH): late-50's
3 DS: 26, 25, 22
M: 30+ (19 1/2 at Dday)
Dday: Dec 2008
Wanted R, not gonna happen
Used to be DeadMumWalking, doing better now
sportsfan ( Member #9918) posted at 1:11 PM on Thursday, September 22nd, 2016
Thinking of you, DS, and hoping they can do something about the pain soon.
Hang in there, MH.
Pentup ( Member #20563) posted at 7:08 PM on Thursday, September 22nd, 2016
Just checking in. Hope you called your Dr about the pain.
Him- FWS (I hope- F)
little turtle ( Member #15584) posted at 3:03 PM on Friday, September 23rd, 2016
Failure is success if we learn from it.
Abby ( Member #5526) posted at 10:08 AM on Sunday, September 25th, 2016
Wrapping you and MH up in prayers and love.
Kodi ( Member #16237) posted at 4:55 PM on Monday, September 26th, 2016
MissesJai ( Member #24849) posted at 5:20 PM on Monday, September 26th, 2016
Sending love, healing thoughts, comfort, and anything else that helps to both you and MH. Love you so much!!!!!!
My Life is Mine!!!!
Don't settle for no fuck shit....
scarredforever ( Member #23875) posted at 1:58 AM on Wednesday, September 28th, 2016
Continue to hold you in my prayers.
"Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it."
Together 35 years
6-5-06 Day of Reckoning
Familiarity breeds contempt.
CheaterMagnet ( Member #33581) posted at 2:28 AM on Wednesday, September 28th, 2016
Sending you peace and strength, light and love. You are in my heart every single day. Like ScaredyKat says, I wish I could do something real to help.
If Happy Ever After did exist, I would still be holding you like this.
All those fairly tales are full of shit.
One more fucking love song I'll be sick. ~ Maroon 5
Twentyplus ( Member #39593) posted at 3:57 AM on Wednesday, September 28th, 2016
Still come here often. SI helped to give me the strength to reclaim my shattered life & start a support group for other SA partners. We pay it forward.
Have so much respect for you & MH. Holding you in the light.
"But we must supply our own light." - Stanley Kubrick
MadeOfScars ( Member #42231) posted at 5:10 PM on Wednesday, September 28th, 2016
"Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t.” - Steve Maraboli
sad12008 ( Member #18179) posted at 7:27 PM on Thursday, September 29th, 2016
I truly hope that you pain is under better control by now. You and MH are in my thoughts and I continue to send healing mojo in a southwesterly direction. Cancer s*cks so bad.
You wrote of a concern regarding your two blood transfusions, and the hope that the blood came from a nice person and not some crazy animal abuser. Good news, I'm in the pool of candidates: after a lapse of nearly 10 years, this summer I felt a call to start back to my old American Red Cross routine of blood donation. My blood type makes me a very popular donor . So I'm a crazy dog lady who pretty much cares for all creatures, and I've donated several pints thus far. I don't know how much blood you got in your transfusions, but it likely came from a similar caring person who would join me in saying I hope the transfusions help your body AK-47 the damnable cancer!
You can't fill a cup with no bottom.
Pentup ( Member #20563) posted at 9:21 PM on Thursday, September 29th, 2016
I think you can be confident that it was someone who donates thinking about the people who have done the same for their family and sending good vibes to whoever is receiving it.
meant to add, or at least I know that is what i do when I donate. And you know I'm crazy about my dog.
Think about you daily, hope is week has been much better!
Him- FWS (I hope- F)
Deeply Scared (original poster Administrator #2) posted at 12:59 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
So here we are:)
This past Tuesday when we met with my main oncologits, he had some really good news and some really terrible news.
We'll start with the good because then I can talk about the bad and then circle back around to having hope. Because that's what I need most now is hope and a miracle
I've been accepted into the MD Anderson trial drug program. Excellent news...we have an consultqtion appointment this Thursday...this is going to be a huge day.
What we're counting on is finding a trial drug that matches my strain of cancer. There are basically 3 options we have here.
1. The best. We meet and we're presented with a drug that matches my cancer..we can start right away!
2. There is a drug that s a match, but it's in Germany and won't be here for another 2 weeks...come back then. Ok...still hopeful and ok!
3. There is no match for my type of cancer...we will call you if something become available.
If we are me with option 3. I will die. Without successful treatment I will die within a matter of months. At that point, we go where ever I need to go....if it's a treatment in China...we'll fly there. I don't care....I just know that this can't be it.
This type of news is something that is not even in the releam trying to explain the feelings behind such a powerful statement. It's a fact and I have no choice then to face it. I hate every fucking second of my life right now. How I wish it was different.
MH and I are so connected...we have had the most beautiful, deep and bonding talks, every day and every night....just sentences pouring out of us with how lucky we are to be here with each other. How lucky are we to have this time to really cherish each other and know that no matter what we will love each other forever and ever.
I couldn't ask for a better husband. He never says no to me...just is living is life right now to make sure I"m comfortable and not in need. Last night, the pain was so bad in the middle of the night..MH got up and came and sat on mysids of the bed and just stroked my arms. For over an hour he just sat there quietly..doing what ever he could do to help. Unbelievable and unconditional love.
I'm so scared of what's happening to us...but I have to hold onto hope and love.
Please pray that there is a trial drug for me. I need that most. Prayers for a scientific match.
AK-47 THIS SHIT!!!
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)
My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.
DragnHeart ( Member #32122) posted at 1:32 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
I am praying with all my might that there's a match for you!!! I wish I could hold you both so tight. Yes you'll AK47 this shit! I know you will.
(((((DS & MH)))))
Me: BS 44 nowWH: 35 almost 36 (BrokenHeart911)Four little dragons.Met 2006. Married 2008. Dday of LTPA with co worker October 19th 2010. Knew about EA with ow1 before that.Full disclosure March 8th 2019 four AP's.
FaithFool ( Member #20150) posted at 2:08 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
Sending huge mojo for Thursday. ((((DS+MH)))
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
minusone ( Member #50175) posted at 2:18 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
((DS&MH)) still sending lots of prayers, good thoughts and mojo.
"I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better". Maya Angelou
metamorphisis ( Member #12041) posted at 2:28 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
Please send all your good thoughts and mojo and prayers and love and energy for DS and MH. They sure need them and lord knows they deserve them.
Love you guys.
Go softly my sweet friend. You will always be a part of who I am.
inconnu ( Member #24518) posted at 3:12 AM on Monday, October 3rd, 2016
((((DS & MH))) every single shred of mojo and healing energy I have is being sent to you, along with lots and lots of love.
There is no joy without gratitude. - Brené Brown