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Echoing what Pentup said. I love being part of a large online community, but sure wish I could help in real life sometimes.

I'm holding you all in the LIGHT.

((((DS & MH))))

I'm so sorry for your pain. I hope they can get that good med matchup going for your soon. Keep resting, FUCK CANCER and AK47 that shit!!

((((DS & MH))))

Thinking of you, DS, and hoping they can do something about the pain soon.

Hang in there, MH.

Just checking in. Hope you called your Dr about the pain.

(((DS and MH)))

Wrapping you and MH up in prayers and love.

(((DS and MH)))

Sending love, healing thoughts, comfort, and anything else that helps to both you and MH. Love you so much!!!!!!

Continue to hold you in my prayers.

Sending you peace and strength, light and love. You are in my heart every single day. Like ScaredyKat says, I wish I could do something real to help.

Still come here often. SI helped to give me the strength to reclaim my shattered life & start a support group for other SA partners. We pay it forward.

Have so much respect for you & MH. Holding you in the light.

(((DS and MH)))

I truly hope that you pain is under better control by now. You and MH are in my thoughts and I continue to send healing mojo in a southwesterly direction. Cancer s*cks so bad.

You wrote of a concern regarding your two blood transfusions, and the hope that the blood came from a nice person and not some crazy animal abuser. Good news, I'm in the pool of candidates: after a lapse of nearly 10 years, this summer I felt a call to start back to my old American Red Cross routine of blood donation. My blood type makes me a very popular donor . So I'm a crazy dog lady who pretty much cares for all creatures, and I've donated several pints thus far. I don't know how much blood you got in your transfusions, but it likely came from a similar caring person who would join me in saying I hope the transfusions help your body AK-47 the damnable cancer!

((((DS)))) ((((MH))))

I think you can be confident that it was someone who donates thinking about the people who have done the same for their family and sending good vibes to whoever is receiving it.

meant to add, or at least I know that is what i do when I donate. And you know I'm crazy about my dog.

Think about you daily, hope is week has been much better!

So here we are:)

This past Tuesday when we met with my main oncologits, he had some really good news and some really terrible news.

We'll start with the good because then I can talk about the bad and then circle back around to having hope. Because that's what I need most now is hope and a miracle

I've been accepted into the MD Anderson trial drug program. Excellent news...we have an consultqtion appointment this Thursday...this is going to be a huge day.

What we're counting on is finding a trial drug that matches my strain of cancer. There are basically 3 options we have here.

1. The best. We meet and we're presented with a drug that matches my cancer..we can start right away!

2. There is a drug that s a match, but it's in Germany and won't be here for another 2 weeks...come back then. Ok...still hopeful and ok!

3. There is no match for my type of cancer...we will call you if something become available.

If we are me with option 3. I will die. Without successful treatment I will die within a matter of months. At that point, we go where ever I need to go....if it's a treatment in China...we'll fly there. I don't care....I just know that this can't be it.

This type of news is something that is not even in the releam trying to explain the feelings behind such a powerful statement. It's a fact and I have no choice then to face it. I hate every fucking second of my life right now. How I wish it was different.

MH and I are so connected...we have had the most beautiful, deep and bonding talks, every day and every night....just sentences pouring out of us with how lucky we are to be here with each other. How lucky are we to have this time to really cherish each other and know that no matter what we will love each other forever and ever.

I couldn't ask for a better husband. He never says no to me...just is living is life right now to make sure I"m comfortable and not in need. Last night, the pain was so bad in the middle of the night..MH got up and came and sat on mysids of the bed and just stroked my arms. For over an hour he just sat there quietly..doing what ever he could do to help. Unbelievable and unconditional love.

I'm so scared of what's happening to us...but I have to hold onto hope and love.

Please pray that there is a trial drug for me. I need that most. Prayers for a scientific match.

AK-47 THIS SHIT!!!

I am praying with all my might that there's a match for you!!! I wish I could hold you both so tight. Yes you'll AK47 this shit! I know you will.

(((((DS & MH)))))

Sending huge mojo for Thursday. ((((DS+MH)))

((DS&MH)) still sending lots of prayers, good thoughts and mojo.

Please send all your good thoughts and mojo and prayers and love and energy for DS and MH. They sure need them and lord knows they deserve them.

Love you guys.

((((DS & MH))) every single shred of mojo and healing energy I have is being sent to you, along with lots and lots of love.