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For Those Who Found Out Years Later

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somanyyears ( Member #26970) posted at 6:02 PM on Monday, June 7th, 2021

..I feel your pain..

and after 34 years...? makes you wonder if any of your life was real... or mine for that matter.

smy

trust no other human- love only your pets. Reconciled I think!
Me 74 Her 70 Married 49 yrs. 18 yr LTA with bff/lawyer. Little fucker died at 57.Brain tumor!

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Unsure2019 ( Member #71350) posted at 12:17 AM on Tuesday, June 8th, 2021

Shellshocked2021,

Sorry you’re here. It’s a tough one to find out all these years later. This particular forum doesn’t seem to get a lot of traffic. You may want to re-post your two most recent posts in the JFO section. I think you’ll get a lot more constructive advice over there.

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Shellshocked2021 ( New Member #78901) posted at 10:04 AM on Tuesday, June 8th, 2021

Thank you.

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icangetpastthis ( New Member #74602) posted at 4:27 AM on Tuesday, June 29th, 2021

I'm still processing. It has been traumatic for me after learning the just of it last March. I would have left him all those years ago in our only car with our unborn first child. To my family in another state - all done with him. Bizarre. My whole life would be different now.

M = 43 yrs
DDay = March 2020
Me/BS = 62
WH = 64
Working on reconciliation, one day at a time.

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trustedg ( Member #44465) posted at 9:40 PM on Wednesday, July 7th, 2021

Icantgetpassed-

I am the same way, had I found out while it was going on I would have left him. My life would be different, I often wonder how different?

Me BWHim WH DDay 12/2012Married a long time, in R

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Underserving ( Member #72259) posted at 2:04 AM on Wednesday, August 4th, 2021

I’m super late to this, but I also agree I would have LIKELY left my husband if I had found out when it was active. I obviously can’t say for certain, but there just wasn’t anything to fight for then. It’s quite a mind F isn’t it?

I too wonder what life would be like if I had discovered it back then. Maybe I’m alone in being partially grateful it happened the way it did. Not for my husbands benefit, but for mine and my children’s. It’s quite strange to be in this situation.

BW (32)
Found out 3 years post end of A
D-day 12-9-19
Meh-ing through R

Infidelity brings out the cuss in me. I’m not as foul mouthed in real life. ;)

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SisterMilkshake ( Member #30024) posted at 2:21 AM on Wednesday, August 4th, 2021

I found out post 6 years after FWH ended it. I often feel as though if I had found out whilst it was going on I would have left. You wanna fuck someone else, be my guest, but I ain't gonna be around for that and I ain't competing for my own husband.

However, I am surprised that I reconciled with a man that had a LTA. Go figure.

BW (me) & FWH both over half a century; married several decades; children
d-day 3/10; LTA (7 years?)

"Oh, why do my actions have consequences?" ~ Homer Simpson
"She knew my one weakness: That I'm weak." ~ Homer Simpson

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iamanidiot ( Member #47257) posted at 1:16 PM on Wednesday, August 4th, 2021

My life would be different, I often wonder how different?

Yes. This is true. Absolutely. For sure.

Life could have gone either way. It could have been much worse, could have been better.

I will never know.

For me it is not worth knocking myself out about.

I didn't know then, but I did the best I could to live under the those circumstances. Despite not knowing what she was doing.

I was either treated like shit or I got the cold shoulder. It was awful. And all the time everybody else got her full attention, the BIG smiles, hugs, kisses etc...

Six years after her first A started and about 5 months after the last one ended, she finally got her head unstuck, turned herself around AND we finally had a fair chance at a life together.

The years thereafter were not easy for her.

She went to confession, put up with living with me & my suspicions, living with her own guilt & her past.

That past obviously bothered her.

Thirty years later she finally slipped and said something. DDAY for me was not a straight confession. I had to coax it out of her over 3-4 days....Probably will never know everything as she was far too embarrassed.

However, during those 30 years, she knuckled down and became the best wife/mother/lover/partner that she could be.

I was one of the lucky ones, I survived.

Me BS,57 Her WS,55
2 LTA & 2 ONS 30+years ago
D-day 27/12/14
At least I still have my sense of humor.
I need it.
Coming to grips with it all
3 Adult children
Still married

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InShock25yearslater ( New Member #79366) posted at 5:52 PM on Monday, September 6th, 2021

I recently posted on another forum. It was suggested I post here. I apologize for the long post. I am new and not used to all your abbreviations yet.

I don't know where to begin or how to explain the horrors of the past 3 days. My husband had a one night stand 25 years ago with a 22 year old bartender. He was 34 at the time. It was 5 months after we got married!!! I was 30 at the time. He never told me about the affair! He has sworn on his children's heads he has never had an affair.

Fast forward to a month ago. His new daughter now 25, took a 23 and me DNA test. Her parents (divorced since she was 2) never told her her father was not her biological father. She contacted his niece and daughter (from a previous marriage) via Facebook prior to contacting my husband. My husband was contacted very shortly after them. He told his daughter and his niece to keep quiet since he hadn't told me yet. 3 weeks later he decided to tell me. He said he wants a relationship with this girl! That he feels guilty for not being there for her growing up. He has talked with her over 12 times in the last 3 weeks - all while I was unaware. We have two children together ages 22 and 24 both girls.

I have not eaten or slept for 3 days. I'm horrified on so many levels. He lied to me for over 25 years! He had sex with a 22 year old when he was 34. Our youngest is now 22! I cannot imagine this happening to her. How can he justify guilt when he was not told about this child? How can he feel guilty over the child and not his family of 25+ years??? I am shaking and crying all day long. I do not know how to feel anything but despair. My life has become a Jerry Springer show and I cannot find my way back to sanity.

I told him he was not the girls father but mainly a sperm donor unbeknownst to him. He does not know how I can be so cruel to an "innocent child". How am I not innocent? How are my girls not innocent? How could he tell other people he loves to carry his burden for him for over 3 weeks! My husband is not a terrible person. However, he has issues. He is a functioning alcoholic and was raised in an abuse family. HOWEVER - he has experienced nothing but love and support for the past 30 years!!

Is it wrong of me to ask he cut off contact? I feel guilty but it is not something I can deal with! Why should I have to deal with her? I told my children about the affair together via FaceTime because I was afraid of her contacting them or someone else confronting them. I told them to protect them! My husband told me it was because I needed to be in control and have them tainted against him. That honestly was NOT the reason. Someone needs to care about the repercussions of his actions!

I am in so much pain. I am humiliated. My heart is broken. My life it broken. He doesn't want it to come out. I feel like I just want to rip the bandaid off and try to move forward. His job is in Germany. I am in the USA. So we are currently separated by an ocean he cannot leave. He will not come home until May, 2022. I was flying over to see him on the 12th of this month but now have cancelled. My family is very close but I have not told anyone. I am truly struggling to get through the day. I need to talk with someone who understands. Please anyone out there that could even possibly identify with these chain of events!!!!!????? How do you make sense of a life you never knew was yours??

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Underserving ( Member #72259) posted at 10:35 PM on Tuesday, September 7th, 2021

I’m hoping others come along and offer their words of wisdom. I only had a 3 year gap between the A and discovery, so I am unable to relate to a 25 year one.

Firstly, I am so sorry you find yourself here, and experiencing such a horrific shit show. All affairs suck, but there is no doubt that the conception of a child from one is one of the worst possible outcomes. You have a living breathing reminder of your husband’s unfaithfulness for the rest of your lives. A reminder you are only just now aware even existed.

There is absolutely no judgement in you not wanting him to have a relationship with the girl. Others who have been in this situation chose not to have physical contact with the "other child" as it’s called around here, from the day they are born. Some have found a way to be involved with the child and make it work. It’s not a situation I envy and certainly not one I’m going to tell anyone what they should or should not do. Fortunately the girl is an adult, and you have no financial obligations to her (there’s been some betrayeds whose income was taken into account for child support for the OC.) All that to say, I have no real advice, but wanted to offer some support that your feelings of not wanting him to form a relationship with her are normal and completely valid.

Finding out years later is an absolute mind fuck. Your brain does not understand that this happened 25 years ago. It’s like it happened last week. Then there’s feeling like 25 years of your life has been a lie. You weren’t given the opportunity to make the decision if you wanted to stay with an unfaithful man or not. Instead, you were kept in the dark about who your husband really is for decades. It’s a lot to process. I’m so sorry you are experiencing it.

The pain does eventually subside. I know it feels all encompassing right now, but you will see brighter days. Your situation presents you with quite a few obstacles, but they’re not ones you can’t overcome. I hope you stick around and keep posting.

Wishing you the very best.

BW (32)
Found out 3 years post end of A
D-day 12-9-19
Meh-ing through R

Infidelity brings out the cuss in me. I’m not as foul mouthed in real life. ;)

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InShock25yearslater ( New Member #79366) posted at 1:39 AM on Friday, September 17th, 2021

Thank you @Underserving. I appreciate the kind words and support. It is truly a mind fu*k. I am doing my best to hold it together. Unfortunately, ignoring the OC right now for my mental health. I have to deal with me first. I have to get to some semblance of sanity. I know there is more to come. I am doing my best to be strong and prepare myself with my emotional armor. Again, I appreciate your being there for me and commenting.

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Marlita ( Member #72286) posted at 4:39 AM on Friday, September 17th, 2021

I feel like my messages are falling on deaf ears….

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Underserving ( Member #72259) posted at 10:02 PM on Wednesday, September 22nd, 2021

You have ZERO obligation to the OC. You are right in focusing on your own mental health and well being.

How are you holding up?

BW (32)
Found out 3 years post end of A
D-day 12-9-19
Meh-ing through R

Infidelity brings out the cuss in me. I’m not as foul mouthed in real life. ;)

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