...it comes to mind at least once a day, EVERY. SINGLE. FUCKING. DAY.
Every single day, for ten years? Do you think it's possible that your wife is a constant trigger?
I rarely think about it. I don't want to think about it. I don't give a shit anymore. I'm divorced. I'm not suggesting you get divorced. I just know that my Ex was a constant trigger and now she's not (just to occasional one).
I used to have infidelity dreams. They varied, however. Some dreams were about her cheating again and being absolutely callous about it. Some dreams she cheated again and was just soooo very sorry. The best dreams, I have to admit, were about ME cheating, having an affair, and thoroughly enjoying every moment. In fact, those dreams put me in a good mood all day long. Of course, all of these dreams were my subconscious telling me it was time to move on.
This whole decade thing is probably a trigger in and of itself. We humans live by the calendar. We count shit. Your brain is clearly attaching importance to this ten-year antiversary.
"A thousand injuries I had borne of Fortunado, but when he ventured upon insult, I vowed revenge."
That's my memory, not a direct quote. I'll look it up after posting.
Either way, one of my favorite short stories of all time.
ETA: "The thousand injuries of Fortunato I had borne as I best could, but when he ventured upon insult I vowed revenge."
[This message edited by Unhinged at 3:57 PM, Wednesday, August 3rd]
Married 2005
D-Day April, 2015
Divorced May, 2022
"The Universe is not short on wake-up calls. We're just quick to hit the snooze button." -Brene Brown