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36yearsgone (original poster member #60774) posted at 6:07 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
For me, Infidelity is like Bamboo.
Bamboo is one of the fastest growing plants in the world. Once species of Bamboo can grow nearly 36 inches in a single day. During the Vietnam War it has been alleged that Bamboo was used as a form of torture and execution on soldiers capture by the Viet Cong.
A soldier would be tied up and stretched over some freshly cut and sharpened bamboo. Then the soldier would be left to his fate. Within a day, the bamboo would pierce that soldiers flesh, eventually leading to death.
Infidelity does the same thing. On D-day, the victimized spouse will also find themselves pierced through the heart. The rapidly growing infidelity-bamboo will torture you, and without intervention may lead to the death of the marriage. It is a horrible way to watch something as precious as a formerly committed relationship die. The scars are long-lasting and the pain can also last forever.
What is infidelity like for you.
Pardon me for the painful analogy, but I had time to reminisce this morning and for some reason that illustration popped into mind.
To what would you equate infidelity?
If you are absent during my struggles, don't expect to be present in my success.
Thumos ( member #69668) posted at 6:11 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
A radioactive dirty bomb
The initial explosion kills thousands of innocents in a horrifying sudden impact.
The toxic radioactive material then poisons a location for thousands of years.
[This message edited by Thumos at 12:12 PM, October 22nd (Thursday)]
"True character is revealed in the choices a human being makes under pressure. The greater the pressure, the deeper the revelation, the truer the choice to the character's essential nature."
BH: 50, WW: 49 Wed: Feb.'96 DDAY1: 12.20.16 DDAY2: 12.23.19
hikingout ( member #59504) posted at 6:26 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
8 years of hard work - WS and BS - Reconciled
siracha ( member #75132) posted at 6:31 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
It is the maggot on a corpse . A sign that something is very unhealthy ...usually dead
WilliamM ( member #60910) posted at 6:48 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
Broken ribs. Infidelity is like having broken ribs.
99problems ( member #59373) posted at 6:54 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
Infidelity is like a dog turd on the Thanksgiving table.
No matter how you dress it up, garnish it, etc., it still ruins the meal.
Got me a new forum name!<BR />Formerly Idiotmcstupid.<BR />I am divorced, so not as much of an idiot now- 4/15/21,
3rdstrike ( member #71471) posted at 7:24 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
^^^^^
All of the above with Shari Lewis and Lamb Chop in the background singing "The Song That Never Ends" over and over and over and over.....
Me 49 BH
Her 48 WW Married 26 yrs
2 teen daughters
2 EA's
1 EA turned PA lasted one year.
DDay 18 May 2018, Filed Jan 2020
She thinks time, rug sweeping and being nice will make it go away.
The1stWife ( Guide #58832) posted at 9:42 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
It’s like liver and bacon.
It’s smells bad. It tastes bad. Your mother forces you to eat it b/c she believes it is healthy so you choke it down. That’s like false reconciliation.
It never gets any better. You suffer through it. That’s continued living in limbo.
And eventually you abandon ship and walk away and never eat it again. That’s living in reality and realizing you no longer can swallow the lies and crap. And the bad taste of disrespect is never going to go away. You decide to quit eating the crap meal of infidelity disguised as liver & bacon.
[This message edited by The1stWife at 3:46 PM, October 22nd (Thursday)]
Survived two affairs and brink of Divorce. Happily reconciled. 12 years out from Dday. Reconciliation takes two committed people to be successful.
36yearsgone (original poster member #60774) posted at 10:10 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
The1stWife :
Excellent illustration. Love bacon, hate liver.
If you are absent during my struggles, don't expect to be present in my success.
Chaos ( member #61031) posted at 10:44 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
Emptiness.
It is walking around knowing your soul has been sucked out of you by the one who was supposed to hold it most dear. It is knowing you are a shell of your former self. It is feeling hallow at all times. It is being constantly haunted by the ghost of their secret life. There is a great void in me. In many ways I walk alone - because during the A there was an entire world going on I had no idea existed.
As maudlin as all that sounds [and it feels worse when it feels at all] that empty does not define me. It does not own me. I am not responsible for it's existence. I am not consumed by it. I am not chained down by it. It simply is. That is not to say it will always be.
And while I won't accept it - I won't pretend it doesn't exist either. I don't nurture it. I don't use unhealthy means to try to fill it. I don't force things in its space just to say I did.
Emptiness.
BS-me/WH-4.5yrLTA Married 2+ decades-2 adult children. Multiple DDays w/same LAP until I told OBS 2018- Cease & Desist sent spring 2021 "Hello–My name is Chaos–You f***ed my husband-Prepare to Die!"
LadyG ( member #74337) posted at 10:55 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
My WH did a lot of gutter crawling, so it’s like living with a parasite infested sewer rat.
You know that the rat is somewhere scurrying around your Beautiful home at night while you sleep, spreading disease but it shocks you to the core when you come face to face with it.
September 26 1987 I married a monster. Slowly healing from Complex PTSD. I Need Peace. Fiat Lux. Buddha’s Love Saves Me 🙏🏼
20yrsagoBS ( member #55272) posted at 11:03 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
BW, 54 WH 53 When you lie down with dogs, you wake up with fleas
Thumos ( member #69668) posted at 11:28 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
Adultery is abuse, as I've noted elsewhere.
"True character is revealed in the choices a human being makes under pressure. The greater the pressure, the deeper the revelation, the truer the choice to the character's essential nature."
BH: 50, WW: 49 Wed: Feb.'96 DDAY1: 12.20.16 DDAY2: 12.23.19
AbandonedGuy ( member #66456) posted at 11:37 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
It shares a lot in common with the praying mantis mating ritual.
EmancipatedFella, formerly AbandonedGuy
landclark ( member #70659) posted at 11:44 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
It’s like a constant nagging pain that never goes away, no matter how much Tylenol you take.
Me: BW Him: WH (GuiltAndShame) Dday 05/19/19 TT through AugustOne child together, 3 stepchildrenTogether 13.5 years, married 12.5
First EA 4 months into marriage. Last ended 05/19/19. *ETA, contd an ea after dday for 2 yrs.
WasSheWorthIt ( member #69354) posted at 11:50 PM on Thursday, October 22nd, 2020
It's being stabbed through the heart by the person you trusted most in the world. The shock and pain never truly leaves you but you learn to live with the scars.
EmbraceTheChange ( member #43247) posted at 12:14 AM on Friday, October 23rd, 2020
For me it was falling in a snake pit/ being in the bowels of the world.
I went from blowing raspberries on my baby's belly and having nice people as friends to smokes and mirrors, lies, deceit, gas lighting, under hand shit.
My world literally turned upside down. On dday, the life I knew went BANG. Suddenly I had to fight for custody of my own kids, had no idea if my WH would cut the money to pay the mortgage and the rest, he had no interest in the kids AT ALL ot me. He wanted to be a bachelor again and I was in bis way. Conveniently the OW was only replying to the text and email that I saw, she was a friend, nothing had happened (only 2 walks.
If the OW hadn't texted at the wrong time... the affair would have carried on until she could leave her OBS and then my WH would have left me because (list of crap that didn't please him ie wrong jokes etc). He would have played the "wife is awful" to explain his departure. He would not have seen the kids much neither. Cleaning diapers were not part of his fantasy with living with the OW and neither was it hers. Instead the plans were brought forward and he still left. No idea why the OW didn't shake up with him after all. No idea if it's because I caused so much shit at work for her and WH and she didn't want to be landed with a scorned furious ex wife in the background. It was much better when she could shake my hand, hold my baby, introduce her kids to mine (so they could be friends - didn't know this part) and have a laugh in my back, with WH.
Some people are just NASTY and the best thing is not having them in my life.
I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination
NotMyFirstRodeo ( member #75220) posted at 2:31 AM on Friday, October 23rd, 2020
A way to express true disgust for someone without speaking the words to their face.
Every lie we tell incurs a debt to the truth. Sooner or later that debt is paid.
Vomitousmass ( member #62687) posted at 5:02 AM on Friday, October 23rd, 2020
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Shehawk ( member #68741) posted at 3:24 PM on Friday, October 23rd, 2020
Abuse that many seemingly decent people ignore or tacitly support.
"If he deliberately hit me in the face in front of you while I was sleeping and you were watching, would you tell me I caused it and I should not hold him accountable...not demand the truth of what happened... that it was just a mistake?"
Me
"Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed"
The Rose
"It's a slow fade...when you give yourself away" so don't do it!
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