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Iwasyoungonce posted 10/26/2019 21:28 PM

Can I just say that I kind of hate that I can't complain about my laundry list of a sh!t year without feeling like a pathetic little whiner?

And yet part of me wants to hand out pre-printed disclaimers to everyone that I come into contact with.

"Before you interact with me any further please be aware that I have all of this on my plate and therefore my tolerance for general stupidity is at -7. You have been warned. Proceed with caution."

cocoplus5nuts posted 10/26/2019 22:06 PM

Before you interact with me any further please be aware that I have all of this on my plate and therefore my tolerance for general stupidity is at -7. You have been warned. Proceed with caution."

🤣 I told some friends today that I could not take the stupid.

EllieKMAS posted 10/26/2019 22:17 PM

SOS - where you at?
Any of my women come to CO, I have a guest bed open for any of you any time...

IWYO - You should put that on a mug LOL

ETA - complain away! That's what we are here for!

And coco yasssssss. If it was even, I could not.

[This message edited by EllieKMAS at 10:19 PM, October 26th (Saturday)]

sickofsurviving posted 10/26/2019 22:35 PM

Ellie, I'm in Texas. It's only like 10 hours to Colorado Springs for me.

IWYO, if you do get that printed on a card, let me know. I'll go in halfsies with you. Ok, in all honesty, it might be too late. I completely lost my shit on my cable company today.

EllieKMAS posted 10/26/2019 23:57 PM

OMG this is why you need IRL support...

Batsy = friend who worked with xdouche but has 100% sided with me, she also knew skanklet
BatsyH = Batsy's husband
xdouche = obvs
skanklet = 19 yo slut AP

So my xdouche commented on a post on Batsy's sm. Well I guess skanklet has been sending Batsy friend requests, which B has largely ignored, but that piss her off so bad. Batsy and her husband want to find skanklet, but I keep telling them her retarded ass ain't worth getting trouble over.

Skanklet commented about how funny Batsy's post was and Batsy tagged her in the following response "I'd appreciate it if your home-wrecking ass didn't speak to me. You're nothing but a whore pretending to be a good person. Karma's a bitch." Several of xdouche's family members were also in the responses.

Then Batsy's H posted on his sm, "You are a grownass manbaby in your late 30's and your dirty slut is 19 and she used to blow your boss who is in his 60's - #winning".

I am dyin laughing but so incredibly touched at their blanket support too.

Today was a goooooood day!

AmIAnIdiot15 posted 10/27/2019 03:14 AM

Oooh Ellie, you have GOOD FRIENDS.

I'm at the very western edge of CO, if I come out your way I might take you up on the couch offer!

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 07:30 AM

I have absolutely no IRL support. Well, I guess that's not entirely true. My girls know, but I dont really talk to them about it. They are adults, but still the kids.

I have lived and worked in a semi for 4+ years. Not conducive to making friends. Oh, other trucker wives. But its superficial and on Facebook mostly.

I cant tell you how utterly alone I am. The other day, at bedtime, it occurred to me that I had not spoken 1 single word out loud, except to ask the dogs if they wanted to go outside.

I dont trust anyone. I never have. How could I? So I dont have "friends".

Oy vey! Sorry ladies. It's my first week separated and I'm kind of a mess. And kind of better.

cocoplus5nuts posted 10/27/2019 09:54 AM

OMG, Ellie! That is priceless! I love Batsy and BatsyH. We must add them to our list somehow.

I have one IRL friend who was very supportive. We don't live close to each other, but she was always available to call or text and was always positive.

SOS, have you looked into BAN meetings in your area? You might be able to find some irl support there. Get out and do something you enjoy. Check out Meetup for activities with other people with like interests.

I would love to go to CO! I've been to 4 corners. Does that count? Actually, I think we drive through CO, and maybe even stayed overnight, when we were moving once. We've taken 3 road trips across the country from coast to coast.

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 10:10 AM

I have only been off the truck for a week today. So I haven't checked any BAN or other social activities. I honestly dont know that I'm ready for people. I've been so isolated for so many years. Even before dday.

Being in that truck, while isolating, was awesome too. I have been to the lower 48. Just need Alaska and Hawaii. I have seen and done so many amazing things.

So many of the things we planned on when the kids were grown. Its bittersweet. It's part of what kept me immobile for so long.

Like I tell my girls when they call me heartbroken, the "almosts" are the hardest.

Lostheart8 posted 10/27/2019 10:21 AM

Good morning ladies.

Yeah, Iím watching peters actions. Heís number 36 of the dates Iíve gone on in the last 2.5 years. I have a system. Most dates never make it to number two. Iím pretty fussy (though I picked to fall in love with a big winner )

So Iím more excited about the fact he didnít didnít ask about my pussy, breasts and oral sex. Heís got a great job and kept his home. He told me his full name and where he lives. Thus I could google him and everything matched up.

Letís put it this way....itís a good start.

That all said....Iím definitely not ready for a relationship.

I disappeared from the thread because I had a bad case of sad, mad and disappointed related to douchebag.

You ladies get it....all the fucking feelings just come up and overwhelm ya.

Then I donít want to even see Peter. I want to hide.

That said...last night was the first night I got some decent sleep. Itís been almost two months of shit sleep. Waking with anxiety or bad dreams of abandonment. Or just general staring at ceiling.

Well, I have another date with Peter tonight. Heís taking me to the movies. That should get my mind off this fucked situation that I got myself into.

I do believe Iím finally over the idea of getting back together with ex. I feel the relief of never having to make it work out with him. No more lies. Fucker douchebag.

Thanks for listening to my rambles.

Ellie ... I love Monet as well. I have a membership to the Met museum in nyc. I go regularly and Monet is one of my favorites. I love the expressionist art. I go and sit and soak in the beauty. Art makes me happy too.

Lostheart8 posted 10/27/2019 10:24 AM

Big hugs sickofsurving. I fucking hate the plans that never will happen.

Youíre not alone.

[This message edited by Lostheart8 at 10:25 AM, October 27th (Sunday)]

EllieKMAS posted 10/27/2019 10:40 AM

SOS - that first couple weeks of S is really hard. Just keep swimming - I am 90days out today and things are WAY better. Still sucks, not gonna lie, but the pain is nowhere near as acute. And if you don't have IRL support, at least you have the womenz. I am so sorry you're hurting right now!

AIAI - fo sho! So long as you can handle my neurotic dogs LOL

EllieKMAS posted 10/27/2019 10:42 AM

Coco I def count the 4 corners

LH - yep, I get the feeling of wanting to go into a hole. It happens. But those days are getting fewer and further between for me thank goodness!

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 10:49 AM

Coco, I love 4 corners, too. It's such a different kind of beautiful. If you can, I definitely recommend Garden of the Gods. There is a reason they call it that. Lol. And...its just up the hiway from Ellie.

Thank you all for letting me crash your party. I really need the propping up so I dont cave.

EllieKMAS posted 10/27/2019 10:55 AM

SOS one thing I will say... the limbo is the worst. As much as D sucks, getting unstuck and finding a path forward (ANY path forward) was way better than the waiting and uncertainty.

I SO get the maybe not being ready for people... but I also think that complete isolation is counter-productive. Can you look into some CoDA meetings maybe?

I tend to isolate too, but have made it a point to get out of my house at least one day a week, just so I don't turn into a complete shut-in. So far it is working alright I think.

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 11:06 AM

Limbo has been hell. But it was that or a shelter. And the only people that think a shelter is better, haven't lived in one.

This broke me in ways I didnt know I could be broken. Which is really crazy considering my jacked up life. I'm getting there, tho.

The limbo was both emotional and financial. On dday I was on disability. I'm a pancreatic cancer survivor and cervical cancer. I dont have many of my innards left. Lol. So step 1 was being able to legally work. We own our truck, so I have no on paper experience for 9 years! Honestly working a full time job may be impossible for me health wise.

I guess we will see. I just know my first waking thought can no longer be I hate my life. He can stay a fucked up cousin fucker all he wants. I just am no longer willing to participate. I'll get there

[This message edited by sickofsurviving at 11:07 AM, October 27th (Sunday)]

EllieKMAS posted 10/27/2019 11:17 AM

SOS - honey you ARE getting there. And getting there is a long fucking hard slog. Sucks major ass. Just stay the course. Because the further you get from it, the better and more clear you will become.

Lostheart8 posted 10/27/2019 11:24 AM

Love ya Ellie .. read some of your threads on another post. Well said.

I might need reminding that this does get easier. Some days just seem tougher then others.

SOS - come and join us on our beach party. Being held right now. Have any requests? Mine was dart throwing at pics. Canít remember who, but a great request for a blow up unicorn.

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 11:28 AM

I'm lucky. I live 4 miles from 1 of my girls. She has been amazing. Makes me so glad I'm up here with her, rather than in between the 4.

She kidnapped me monday and we just hung out at the lake. And surprised me on her way home from work Thursday. This kid is my mini me. She had her own dday about a year after mine. She left him. It's easy to be with her. She doesn't expect me to be over it.

Ok, now that I'm not such a mess, who posted that amazing yarn a while ago? And where the heck do I get some? After my pancreas, I taught myself to crochet and sew. I'm actually trying my first cardigan now!

sickofsurviving posted 10/27/2019 11:32 AM

Thanks LH8. Right after Ellie's mountains, the beach is my favorite!

I would like to have a bonfire. If we are throwing darts at pictures of them, they must be flaming!!!

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