Five years ago, I discovered this site. Five years ago my world shattered. Five years ago, this site saved me.
I'm single, I have my kids half the time. I miss them but enjoy my free time. I've learned to live on my own. I can afford it. And I don't make much money. Turns out, his spending habits were irresponsible and selfish (What? A cheater? Irresponsible and selfish?) So, tuck that fear in your back pocket if it's holding you back.
But, this is the kicker... I'm about to live my greatest dream. And it never would've happened if I had stayed married... if none of that had happened five years ago.
You know how people say they want to buy an island in the Bahamas? Just sail away and live there, maybe with some family and a few friends? That's, like, the ultimate dream, but no one actually gets to do it.
Well, it wasn't my ultimate dream. Mine was always to live on some land with horses. And just like most people realized they would never own that Bahamian Island, I never in a million years thought I would own a horse, let alone live somewhere I could keep one.
Five years ago, my world fell apart. I needed something to do to keep myself active so I didn't go crazy on the days I suddenly had free time with no kids. So, I started volunteering at a barn. I started learning how to train horses.
Two years ago, I finally bought my first horse. Then I bought a truck. Then I bought a horse trailer.
Six months ago, I bought a few acres. Next month, a custom made double wide trailer will be delivered and built on it. I'm working on having the pasture fenced right now. I have NO IDEA what I'm doing, but one thing I've learned since my world fell apart is that there are so many kind people out there who are willing to help, willing to answer your questions, and they usually fall right into your lap just when you need them.
This summer, I will move into my new home, and bring my horse home to live with me. I'll get to see him every day. Ride whenever I want. Watch the sunset over the trees and listen to nature instead of the freeway a few blocks away from my old house. My kids will climb trees and catch fireflies, and roast s'mores, and muck stalls (LOL). I will live my ultimate dream.
I did it all on my own, and it never would have happened if my world didn't fall apart five years ago. So, keep your chin up.
Story kept vague because WH is a snooper.
--Multiple affairs, multiple DD's, long separation, even longer divorce, divorce final, young children from the marriage, one child from before marriage.
