minusone ( member #50175) posted at 11:39 PM on Friday, June 10th, 2016
"I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better". Maya Angelou
Deeply Scared (original poster administrator #2) posted at 4:52 PM on Sunday, June 12th, 2016
Thank you everyone!!!
I finished chemo this last Wednesday and I have 5 more radiation treatment left. I was given a 1 week break from radiation due to the pain becoming almost unbearable and the condition of my skin, which is raw and terrible looking 
This coming Wednesday I will go in for another CT Scan to determine if the cancer has spread/reduced in size/stayed the same, etc. and determining what the results are is when we'll find out whats in store for us next. Judging from what I know...odds are I'll be going in for a second round of chemo. I will come that over the radiation any day. I hate radiation.
Thank you all so much for your continued prayers and good thoughts...I'm so deeply grateful to you all...truly, thank you. 
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)
My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.
Pentup ( member #20563) posted at 5:59 PM on Sunday, June 12th, 2016
Continuing to keep you both in my prayers. Thank you for updating. I pray that your skin is soothed and the cancer is gone!
Me- BS
Him- FWS (I hope- F)
Lucky2HaveMe ( member #13333) posted at 11:31 PM on Sunday, June 12th, 2016
Fingers crossed & prayers for good news with the scan. That radiation burn is PAINFUL. I hope you have found something that gives you relief.
Chin up!!
Love isn't what you say, it's what you do.
ThoughtIKnewYa ( member #18449) posted at 12:15 AM on Monday, June 13th, 2016
Sending positive mojo for your scan!
I'm so sorry about the skin, but glad they gave you a break.
woundedby2 ( member #18522) posted at 6:08 AM on Tuesday, June 14th, 2016
Sending you and MH much love and prayers. Mojo for excellent scan results coming at you as well!
In 2010 I divorced the NPD assclown who cheated on me with my best friend.
Everybody, soon or late, sits down to a banquet of consequences.
~Robert Louis Stevenson
ZenMumWalking ( member #25341) posted at 1:13 PM on Tuesday, June 14th, 2016
Scan MOJO!!!!! ((((DS))))
Me (BS), Him (WH): late-50's
3 DS: 26, 25, 22
M: 30+ (19 1/2 at Dday)
Dday: Dec 2008
Wanted R, not gonna happen (in permanent S)
Used to be DeadMumWalking, doing better now
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 5:57 PM on Wednesday, June 15th, 2016
Thinking of you and sending good news mojo. (((((DS & MH)))))
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
sisoon ( Moderator #31240) posted at 7:39 PM on Wednesday, June 15th, 2016
Likewise ... wishing you the very best.
fBH (me) - on d-day: 66, Married 43, together 45, same sex ap
DDay - 12/22/2010
Recover'd and R'ed
You don't have to like your boundaries. You just have to set and enforce them.
ThoughtIKnewYa ( member #18449) posted at 1:10 AM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
I've been thinking of you today and hope everything went well! 
Deeply Scared (original poster administrator #2) posted at 11:24 AM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
You all are so wonderful!! Thank you for thinking of us!!
I had my scan yesterday with my radiologist.
It hasn't spread which is great news! However it hasn't shrunk as much as they were hoping for either. So, I'll have 5 more radiation treatments starting Monday and then we'll go see my oncologist for the next plan of action. Which will mean another round of chemo with two different drugs this time.
At some point this month, we'll be going to MD Anderson to another oncologist for a second opinion on my treatments. During the biopsy phase MD Anderson did a 2nd opinion on the tissue sample and they did confirm the same diagnosis...so I feel confident in what I've been treated for is correct. Now I just want to make sure the actual treatment is the right course of action.
I'm very grateful it hasn't spread...just wish it would go away and I could have a day without pain or worry. And I'm always so fucking tired...I'm sick of that too 
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)
My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.
carriemcsky ( member #48473) posted at 11:35 AM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
Sending all kinds of prayers and good thoughts and mojo and positive vibes and wishes your way!
Me: BW, 51 (on DDay)
Him: WH, 55 (on DDay)
DDay: June 2015
DDay2: July 7,2015 Found out he was still in contact with OW.
Status: Trying to R
minusone ( member #50175) posted at 11:53 AM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
It is such a horrible road to travel. Sending you both lots of good thoughts, mojo and especially prayers!
"I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better". Maya Angelou
DragnHeart ( member #32122) posted at 12:19 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
You are an amazing woman! Sending mojo and love and prayers and hugs to both of you.
Me: BS 46 WH: 37 (BrokenHeart911)Four little dragons. Met 2006. Married 2008. Dday of LTPA with co worker October 19th 2010. Knew about EA with ow1 before that. Now up to PA #5. Serial fucking Cheater.
deeplysad ( member #16590) posted at 2:42 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
Me: BW - I'm much too young to feel this damn old
Him: FWH - Midlife crisis with a pathetic porn wannabe
D-Day: August 2004; Lots of false R until February 2005.
Pentup ( member #20563) posted at 3:12 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
It hasn't spread
And that made me literally yell, YEAHHHHH in my office!
You got this. You have the prayers of THOUSANDS and one of, if not THE best, cancer facilities for your treatment and care.
I'm sorry the road is long and bumpy. Just know that my prayers (and I'm sure many many others) are unceasing for your complete healing.
Me- BS
Him- FWS (I hope- F)
ZenMumWalking ( member #25341) posted at 3:40 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
It hasn't spread
YESSSSSSSS!!!!!! Thank you so much for this update.
Hang in there, and I'm sending you more and more tumor shrinkage MOJO and healing thoughts. I'm sorry you're feeling sick and tired, but keep resting as much as you need.
((((DS))))
Me (BS), Him (WH): late-50's
3 DS: 26, 25, 22
M: 30+ (19 1/2 at Dday)
Dday: Dec 2008
Wanted R, not gonna happen (in permanent S)
Used to be DeadMumWalking, doing better now
larkspur ( member #2140) posted at 4:05 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
DS, you can see I have been here a LONG time, but I rarely post as my situation isn't dynamic now. But, I wanted to wish you the very best outcome in your cancer treatment. I have a childhood friend who is going through this now, and it is a roller coaster. But, I hope next year will find you free and clear!!
Me 58. WS 52
1 special needs child, 26
Married 20 yrs D-Day 08/03/03 ; second round different OW- Feb-May 2007, 2009, and 2014
ThoughtIKnewYa ( member #18449) posted at 6:09 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
It hasn't spread which is great news!
That IS great news! 
MD Anderson is a great place! I know you're in good hands. I'm sorry you have to do more radiation, but I understand that it has to be done. Keep on AK-47-ing the shit out of it!
sisoon ( Moderator #31240) posted at 8:36 PM on Thursday, June 16th, 2016
Tired? DS, My sense is you get more done now than I ever did at my best, tired or not. Just sayin'....
I'm happy about the good part of your news, sad about the rest, especially the pain and the weariness/lack of energy and more chemo.
I hope MDA + your oncologist come up with a winning strategy.
fBH (me) - on d-day: 66, Married 43, together 45, same sex ap
DDay - 12/22/2010
Recover'd and R'ed
You don't have to like your boundaries. You just have to set and enforce them.
