Topic is Sleeping.
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 10:06 PM on Monday, September 9th, 2019
Help oh help..... I am at work crying in my cubicle. Just took my anti anxiety meds so hoping they kick in soon. He went to house to pack up his stuff, and as I knew he is not able to take all of it in one trip. So he informed me that he will be back next month for the rest of his stuff and his cat (The Stig) 
(side note: it truly is his cat, and I won't try to keep him. But that effing prick has not even asked about Stig once while he's been gone and Stig has totally been bonding with me).
It's not so much all of that, just the fucking tone in the text messages is so cold and dismissive. Like he is SO ANNOYED to have to meet up to sign shit. (Mind you I have done ALLLLLLLL of the work on the D papers. If I left it up to him I'd still be married 10 years from now.) Please send me good vibes. I do NOT want to be a wreck when I see him tonight. Gonna try to get my cries out in the car on the way home.
Leaving here in a bit, so will prob have everything signed and done within a couple hours.
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
northeasternarea ( member #43214) posted at 10:33 PM on Monday, September 9th, 2019
EllieKMAS, (((Hugs))) Hope all goes smoothly.
The only person you can change is yourself.
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 10:41 PM on Monday, September 9th, 2019
Big good vibe hugs Ellie!!!
AmIAnIdiot15 ( member #71023) posted at 11:52 PM on Monday, September 9th, 2019
You are a rock Ellie! You can do it! Get your tears out, fix your face, and for as long as you're face to face with him he means NOTHING to you. Fall apart after. We'll be here.
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 12:48 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Thinking of you Ellie. I know you got this
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 1:29 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
I made it through the 30 minutes it took to notarize and sign everything. Only teared up once. Super resting bitch face.
As soon as I hit the car?
I swear at least 8 of the 20 lbs I've lost in the last six weeks have been tears.
One more day - go file tomorrow and then this shit is DONE.
And sad fact, I will miss The Stig way more than I will miss the asshat. I still have him for at least a few more weeks. But am happy to report that asshat is indeed staying down in the town where his parents are. Glad of that.
And I changed my name back on Facebook tonight. Much as I hate my dad, I always liked my maiden name and I'm NEVER changing it again. EVAH.
Thanks for the good vibes gals! I felt them for sure!
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 2:21 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Well done Ellie. !!
We knew you could and would.
Tears in the car are totAlly normal.
Big hug
gmc94 ( member #62810) posted at 2:47 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Ellie - You done good.
Grieve for as long as you need.
and
FUCK.
M >25yrs/grown kids
DD1 1994 ONS prostitute
DD2 2018 exGF1 10+yrEA & 10yrPA... + exGF2 EA forever & "made out" 2017
9/18 WH hung himself- died but revived
It's rude to say "I love you" with a mouthful of lies
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 3:11 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Fuck fucketty FUCK!! 
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
Tallgirl ( member #64088) posted at 3:23 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
AmIAnIdiot15 ( member #71023) posted at 4:06 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
That's our girl Ellie! Nice work staying strong. Don't give him any satisfaction. :)
BigBlueEyes ( member #71441) posted at 11:11 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Good for you Ellie,
You bloody ROCK
👏👏👏
Me- BW, 47
Multi Dday's,
DB A's x 2 BFF
Multi ONS's, Online shit.
Serial cheat, Abuser,
D 18.02.20
Stay strong, just because it’s hard today, doesn’t mean that next week it won’t get easier!!
BigBlueEyes ( member #71441) posted at 11:16 AM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
My youngest son went to a motocross meeting Sunday
Big championship racing so lots of stalls ,merchandise etc
He bought me home a 🧢, now I’m a little to old to be wearing caps now...but I may have to wear this 1 occasionally as it’s black with
“NEGATIVE FUCKS TO GIVE”
(in big block colourful letter across front & the peak)
I very nearly wet myself laughing so hard with him 😍🥰😍
I fucking LOVE it 😊
Me- BW, 47
Multi Dday's,
DB A's x 2 BFF
Multi ONS's, Online shit.
Serial cheat, Abuser,
D 18.02.20
Stay strong, just because it’s hard today, doesn’t mean that next week it won’t get easier!!
cocoplus5nuts ( member #45796) posted at 1:04 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
((Ellie)) You got through it. Ypu are badass!
LOL, BBE. Love that your son got you that hat.
Me(BW): 1970
WH(caveman): 1970
Married June, 2000
DDay#1 June 8, 2014 EA
DDay#2 12/05/14 confessed to sex before polygraph
Status: just living my life
Chaos ( member #61031) posted at 3:23 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Bad Ass Ellie!
BBE - that is an awesome hat.
Oh - and FUCK!
BS-me/WH-4.5yrLTA Married 2+ decades-2 adult children. Multiple DDays w/same LAP until I told OBS 2018- Cease & Desist sent spring 2021 "Hello–My name is Chaos–You f***ed my husband-Prepare to Die!"
EllieKMAS ( member #68900) posted at 3:27 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
BBE - that hat is awesome!!!
Welp, that was depressing. Took less than 15 minutes to undo 9 years together.
As we were leaving the courthouse he said, "I know this hasn't been easy, but thank you."
For. fucking. what. I wanted to ask but didn't. I started crying and just power walked to my car and didn't say anything to him.
Just for today I am giving myself permission to be a hot mess.
"No, it's you mothafucka, here's a list of reasons why." – Iliza Schlesinger
"The love that you lost isn't worth what it cost and in time you'll be glad that it's gone." – Linkin Park
Chaos ( member #61031) posted at 3:36 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
I'd have contributed to your bail had you told him to Fuck Off and tripped the jerk.
You have every right to be a hot mess today. You need a blanket, some wine and chocolate.
Hugs.
BS-me/WH-4.5yrLTA Married 2+ decades-2 adult children. Multiple DDays w/same LAP until I told OBS 2018- Cease & Desist sent spring 2021 "Hello–My name is Chaos–You f***ed my husband-Prepare to Die!"
Drkenn ( new member #71527) posted at 3:48 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
I’m so happy to have found this site. I’m one month post-discovery and still reeling. You all have made me laugh, given me wisdom and given me hope.
AmIAnIdiot15 ( member #71023) posted at 5:00 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
I'd contribute too! I'm in Colorado, should be able to get to where you are to bail you out in six hours or less.
You should thank HIM for not wasting another day of your life.
Stupid selfish jerk. And I think you should keep the cat. Catnapper!
AmIAnIdiot15 ( member #71023) posted at 5:01 PM on Tuesday, September 10th, 2019
Drkenn, welcome to the thread! I'm an newcomer as well, but these ladies have been so helpful to me.
Topic is Sleeping.
