Because dinner was scheduled with WW’s friend from the PTA. The organization WW had a leadership role in along with her AP — which helped mask their affair. WW & AP also arranged social events without spouses with members of the PTA to have access and excuses for seeing each other.
I’m assuming that no one on the PTA ‘knew’ about the affair officially. PTA members attended PTA events and more than likely picked up on cues. But maybe not. You consider this friend .....not a friend of marriage ...correct? And time scheduled with this person that was affair adjacent is a statement. And that the fact that she doesn’t get that it’s not productive to socialize or hope for couples outings with this PTA mom because WW poisoned the well.
And she either sees it and ignores it to needle you or doesn’t see it and therefore you have a much bigger problem to deal with.
You have to disengage when you can, even if it seems like fleeing. It does neither of you any good. I called my H plenty of names, so I get it. However, it’s not productive and just like her childish behavior is hers to own, so is yours. It may be accurate, in your mind, but it sure ain’t the 180.
I can’t believe I’m advocating for more communication. It seems like you both are operating under expectations that are confusing each other. Do you each understand the limbo parameters ? Because there seem to be mixed messages, which is typical as you both try to separate to concentrate on yourselves. I would not have been able to let the PTA dinner stand either., so while I do believe you have to disengage, that’s bait not many could ignore.
What are each of your expectations on communication, sex, family time, support & individual socialization going forward? I think a strong third party can help sort these topics.....maybe again. If you’ve really already been down that road and been clear, I apologize. It must be exhausting.
My WW was on a PTA committee with AP and this friend. I have no issue with the woman—she’s a sweetheart—and I have no way of knowing if she was aware of the affair. The issue is that my wife spent months badmouthing me to her and I can’t fathom sitting down for a couples dinner with her and her husband and not being massively triggered. Maybe one day, but not now.
From my WW’s perspective, she’s trying to make friends and she is the easiest acquaintance to do that with. And she is trying to repair my reputation with her so her and her husband can be friends of our M.
I don’t have an issue with her going to dinner with her; I just had an issue with her doing it to get under my skin. But again, that’s on me—I should have just let it go. She told me an hour before I was planning to go visit the affair hotel and I was in a bad headspace—it was weak of me and I recognize it.
As for our communication, we’re still communicating a lot—not like before, but still way more than pre-DDay. The problem is she doesn’t stick to anything we agree to and she does things like last night specifically to get a reaction out of me. It’s not like I can re-establish ground rules and she’ll magically start following them. She is very uncertain right now and acts erratic as her anxiety builds. She is constantly looking for me to validate and comfort her and not getting it.
Another example from last night is she went through some of the texts she sent me from her work trip and pointed out all the times I was being cold or not engaging with her.
She mentioned how nice her hotel was and suggested we go together; I responded by agreeing it was a nice room. She told me how carefully I chose that response and how it hurt her that I didn’t agree we could go there together. I told her future vacations with her aren’t on my mind; and at that point, she had just told me she read my thread again and I was disappointed in her.
She mentioned how she sent love to me and the kids before her flight home and I didn’t respond back with an "I love you"—I instead wrote "Have a safe flight!" Again, love wasn’t on my mind.
I told her that if she was going to keep looking for validation from me, she wasn’t going to find it—and that her key goal in IC should be to work to find internal validation instead. She told me she understood, but I know she didn’t.
I’m married to a teenage girl and I’m the parent who keeps trying to explain to her what it means to be an adult—the teenage girl just thinks her parents are jerks until she grows up though.
[This message edited by Drstrangelove at 1:23 PM, Saturday, June 25th]