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[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 6:55 PM, Sunday, December 8th]

Good for you on making a healthy and bold decision! Your friends are going to want to know why you're splitting up, so, yeah, tell them. As far as your partner goes: play stupid games, win stupid prizes. He wasn't concerned about your well-being while he was sexting up other people. He has shown you exactly how much your relationship meant. Believe him. His well-being is no longer your concern, and that's on HIM, not you.

If he feels all alone, he can always hit up his sexting partner, right?

So you don't think telling them tonight is too soon?

Yeah, he says he probably has some sort of mental illness, sex addiction, poor impulse control, etc, and goes on about how what he's done and the consequences of it didn't make him happy. I keep telling him I hope he works it out with his IC and can come away from it a better person 🤷‍♀️

He's said he'll pay for anything I need, that I can stay in our apt as long as I want, that he'd give me rides even when I move out, which is nice I guess

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 2:06 PM, Thursday, April 6th]

If you are certain in your decision, no, tonight is not too soon. It's never too soon to start the rest of your life.

If you are wavering in your decision, then you may want to wait.

My WH also has blamed his mental health for his multiple, multiple EAs/PAs. Well, your partner can work on fixing his shit, and maybe, just maybe, You'll take him back someday. BTW, we ALL have mental fuckery going on, and we don't all use it as an excuse to stab our partners in the back.

He's doing and saying all those things to make himself feel a teensy-tinesy bit like less of a shit, not out of altruism.

He's said he'll pay for anything I need, that I can stay in our apt as long as I want, that he'd give me rides even when I move out, which is nice I guess

If you are really firm in your "I don't give third chances", then I think it's better to detach, if possible I suggest you decline his offer to ride with him in the car and find your own place as soon as possible, tell close mutual friends and family first, also don't forget to get tested for STDs, serial cheaters lie a lot. Keep posting frequently.

I'm just riding a wave of emotions. I truly wanted to be with this man forever. He's been hysterically crying and it's taking all of my willpower not to break down.

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 2:57 AM, Tuesday, April 18th]

Hi, on my way to bed, but just some food for thought...

He's shown you repeatedly who he is, please believe him.

He's crying for himself. While he was sexting or whatever else he was doing (could have been having sex, remember cheaters lie), he never gave you a second thought.

Move on with your life, there's a faithful man out there somewhere.

He's a master manipulator, don't fall for it.

Lean on family and friends now, you need their support.

Please get tested for STDS asap.

Did he cry and sob years ago when you discovered he cheated? If so, he then got comfortable enough to do it again.

Soooo…..fast forward — you have forgiven him (yet again) and it’s 3 years later. Do you think it won’t happen again? Once he gets comfortable enough he could re-start the cycle.

I think you are doing the right thing. Detach. Move on. Stop worrying about him and who his friends may or may not be.

He has to face the consequences.

Good morning everyone, still having such an awful time. WH slept on the couch, I in the bed. This is destroying me inside.

He's been constantly ranting about not knowing what's wrong with him, why he'd throw away everything he had with me, and for what? That I was perfect. He thinks he's sick, that something is seriously wrong with him mentally.

This morning he again cried about how terrible he is. I'm still saying we're going to separate, but it will take a little time for me to get all of our finances and things in order. I had asked in my first post, but where should I even go from here? Again, we share finances, share a car, share an apt with really good rent. I have no family here.

He begged me to go to couple's therapy with him. I've agreed for now. He's begging to help him with these addictions, that they aren't him deep down.

I haven't told our friends yet. I wanted at least one night to collect myself the best I can. I told my work and took a personal day today. I'll be telling our mutual friends tonight. I'm still so lost and confused.

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 3:00 AM, Tuesday, April 18th]

He wants you to help him?!

How is he going to help you after everything he’s done?

He can let you move on with your life and stop subjecting you to infidelity.

He’s manipulating you and he thinks he can get away with it… because he go away with it before.

If he loves you as much as he claims…and he’s as f’ed up as he says he is, he won’t ask you to stay in the relationship - even while he purportedly works on himself. He’s not a safe partner - as he has well demonstrated. If he doesn’t know why he does what he does then he cannot make any guarantees that he won’t do it again. He wants you to hang around, in that kind of dynamic, while he tries to figure it out? How is that in your best interest??

The logistics of the separation are something he should both be helping to resolve AND minimizing the peripheral effects on you. This is his fault AND he loves you madly, right? If those two things are actually true for him then making things as easy (and safe) for you as possible should be his top priority. His actions NOW matter just as much as his actions prior and his professed intentions for future actions.

He has earned his current (and appropriate) consequences. He doesn’t get to side step those by leaning on the past structures of the relationship he just blew up. THIS is how you demonstrate true remorse. Everything else is just "Hail Marys" in an attempt to save his own skin. Ask him to actually pay the consequences of his own actions and THEN judge his sincerity of remorse.

@truthsetmefree: Thank you for your response. He has been offering to basically cut off his arms for me if I need it. He's fine with me staying in our apt as long as I need to.

Ask him to actually pay the consequences of his own actions and THEN judge his sincerity of remorse.

This really means a lot to me. As of right now, I've told him multiple times we are separated, we are not a couple.

I'm going to continue forward separating my life from him the best I can. Opening my own bank account and paying half of our bills from there. Getting my own phone plan, etc. I'll be keeping an eye on what he does in the meantime. I'm still very bummed about having to maybe lose our apartment. We got an amazing deal on it. Not to mention rent is insane EVERYWHERE anymore. Moving back with family isn't really an option right now. They're too far away.

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 2:09 PM, Thursday, April 6th]

Why would you want "one last couple's therapy session?" He's fucked up. You're not.

He can go alone and explain how he blew up the couple.

I'm not really sure, but I don't really care. We'd be using a video chat session so it's not like I have to go anywhere. I'll humor him.

WG, I highly recommend that you search around a little for Regret vs Remorse. What you're seeing is regret because it is all focused on HIM. HE needs you to go to therapy with him. HE needs you to help him through this. HE needs you to tell him what to do to make things right. It's not focused on YOU and your needs. In fact, he's outright ignoring what you need by asking you to help him thus catering to HIS needs. He's still first and as long as he keeps the focus on himself, he will choose HIM over you when the time comes and future temptations arise.

Are you familiar with the 180? Follow it. No more talk of anything but what needs to happen to get YOUR needs met for space and separation. Can you stay somewhere else temporarily just to be able to breathe a little better without him pleading and coercing you into fixing the broken relationship?

He’s fine with you staying in the apartment as long as you need while he is also there?. Why are YOU looking to basically have to couch-surf?? HE is the one who should be doing that.

Ask for what you need so that this minimally affects you in terms of the logistics. He just blew up your life. What is the restitution for that? Not that he’s just had another affair - "I don’t know why I did that. Something must be really wrong with me. I’ll see a therapist and won’t do that again. I PROMISE!"

No. He needs to make whatever he can RIGHT NOW better. No promises…direct sacrifices RIGHT NOW. Sleep on a friend’s couch, take the bus. Accept the consequences and not ask you to also share the load (beyond what he has already put on you.)

My guess is he’s likely not going to want to do this. But you also need to see that instead of just hearing his lamentations about the past and future. He’s evidently good at appearing to be remorseful. Put him to the real test.

@nekonamida & @truthsetmefree

Unfortunately there is nowhere either of us can stay. I'm definitely not on the couch in this situation, he is.

I told him basically what you have told me, that I need direct sacrifices NOW to make my separating my life from him as easy and painless as at all possible. I don't want to hear him crying about what he'll do in the future..

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 2:58 AM, Tuesday, April 18th]

I don’t think he will be a good partner for anyone. This behavior is so entrenched in him that he’s right when he says he is screwed up. He most definitely needs a therapist who deals with sex addiction and he needs group therapy to keep him in line but that is a terrible struggle because it is an addiction much like alcoholism. I know you love him and I think he probably loves you but you cannot fix him. It’s going to take him years.

You have to protect yourself because you know that this is what he does. He might be able to stop for a year or two but I’m guessing this is not the second one he’s done. I’m guessing it’s been going on because that’s what addicts do.

Every time you tell her you cannot take it back so be cautious about how you go about this. If this is a true addiction you don’t want to shame him anymore than he is already shamed. I would suggest you and he decide how you’re going to present this to your friends. At some point he might want to open up to others but you don’t have to. Take the highroad in this one. Just take care of yourself.

Thank you for your reply. I haven't been shaming him, it's not who I am inside. Just hurt. The way I plan to present it to our friends is that he's cheated on me twice, and after I forgave him the first time, I told him this was his second chance. He blew it. I truly want him to grow and become better.

[This message edited by WonderingGhost at 2:58 AM, Tuesday, April 18th]

Are the hotels and motels all booked too? He can't afford a $50/night room for a few days?