You're at it again, blaming everyone else for not welcoming you, blaming all the paperwork on your school admin, blaming your lack of control in the classroom on the kids. COMPLAINING ABOUT A CHEATING LYING CRIMINAL TREATING YOU LIKE SHIT.
Also, WTF? Feeling hurt that he fucked off before you could DECIDE to tell him to fuck off? Call the whambulance. I don't have a fiddle small enough to play for you.
What is there to decide?
What planet are you living on where there's a discernment process for whether you should be fucking a LYING CHEATING CRIMINAL?
Also, what HF said, 100%- OBS is not some footnote on your sordid "fling" with "POS" as I shall refer to him.
Are you so attached to your precious "victimhood" that you can't even fathom living without it?
It's so much easier to sit in your misery, blaming everyone else for YOUR pain. Time to grow up, put on your big girl pants and DO SOMETHING about the sorry state you are in.
And this is coming from someone who has been there, done that, been the OW and lived to tell the tale. I also DID THE WORK and GOT OFF MY SORRY ASS and GOT INTO IC! Until you start doing that, you are going to have to wake up to the knowledge that YOU NEED TO START POSTING IN WAYWARD SIDE as you are officially an OTHER PERSON. AN AFFAIR PARTNER. AN UNREMORSEFUL OTHER WOMAN WHO IS PEEVED THAT SHE DIDN'T GET TO DUMP AP FIRST.
Do you realize how fucked up that is? You HATED it when R would make out and go behind your back and treat you like shit. YOU CHOSE to do that SAME THING to another woman. YOU brought that into her life (likely not for the first nor the last time, but...). YOU DECIDED TO CONSPIRE WITH POS TO DESTROY HIS WIFE YET AGAIN.
When are you going to be sick enough of your own self that you're going to get off your ass and do something about it?
Your covert narc behaviors and tendencies are triggering enough to me that I am going to tune out from your posts.
I wish you the best, but until YOU can wish yourself the best, I'm not going to waste my time or energy on you.