hikingout ( member #59504) posted at 3:10 AM on Thursday, September 23rd, 2021
It would have continued, I am 200 percent glad it didn’t but you are correct. However, I was not a good compartmentalizer and was already falling apart at the seems. My tendency to confess I believe would have still been compelled. I was very unhappy and blamed my marriage and this was an exit affair.
In the end I didn’t exit because I recognized that I wasn’t happy because I didn’t take responsibility for my own happiness or communicate. I had to re-evaluate my resentment. And in the end when I confessed it was because I wanted to see if the marriage could be saved after all. I would have understood if the answer had been no. Maybe not all perfectly but eventually because I became dedicated to looking at the darker sides of myself.
WW/BW BH/WH Turnthepage My Affair DDAY 9/1/2017- 2 month EA/PAHis Affair DDAY 10/10/2020 - 18 month A - EA?/PA