stubbornft ( member #49614) posted at 6:14 PM on Tuesday, August 22nd, 2023
I keep feeling like maybe there’s hope for us- but then I go back and reread the texts and communications I have from his infidelities that occurred December ‘22 through May 2023 and all the pain comes back. I’m not sure if it’s good to look at these and remember or if I should stop and just focus on one day at a time.
I don’t think one day at a time is a good idea. Accepting the reality of what happened is wise. It sounds like that may be why you are rereading those texts. I wish I could describe the unknotting of my stomach, the unclenching of my jaw, the heaviness that left my heart when I finally ended it once and for all with my terrible addict ex. It’s the most sinister of deception and abuse. I’m so sorry this happened when you were pregnant. I hope you can get out while your child is so young.
I wish you peace and the kind of life you DESERVE.
Me: BS 40 Him: WS 51 He cheated with massage parlor sex workersDday 01/19/2021
Kicked him out in 2021 - life is better on the other side. Moved on with the help of a wonderful therapist.
NeedingGrace ( new member #83260) posted at 10:53 PM on Sunday, September 3rd, 2023
Thank you so much. I needed to hear that. There is so much grief, mostly for the future my daughter and I were robbed of. I am hoping happier days are ahead for us as we get more and more distance from him.