It's pretty bad when even my PHONE seems to commit "infidelity" against me.
I spent a long long time researching different ones and finally found a rather unique one that had very special features I didn't think other phones had.
I spent a fair bit of money on it too. And it had to be shipped over from Europe. After being shipped to there from Asia that is. It was supposed to have the longest lasting battery in the industry as well as perform at a level that was above what I had experienced in phones before.
I spent no small amount of time getting everything set up and customized and synchronized so that "we" were a team. I had read up on the literature about how to tickle its buttons properly and get it to tickle mine in turn both before and after I finally got it and started getting familiar with it.
Turns out the battery isn't what it was cracked up to be and the phone display is "cracked up" due to the thing being a hell of a lot more fragile than I was expecting. Also, it doesn't synch or process like it is supposed to and was promised to before I said "I do" to financially committing to the damn thing.
And after investing a lot of time and trouble getting everything moved over onto it and integrating it into my world and me into its world of nuances to a certain degree... Then there came a time and halfway-ish "infidelity" on its part like it did yesterday.
Of course the phone had no choice in the matter unlike my very sentient and conscious and willfully violating and rebellious wife did... Over and over and over and over and over again.
But yesterday I was using speech to text with my phone just like I often do and am doing now... And after a very lengthy and deeply thought out post that I had composed which was very deep and personal and rather time-consuming and emotionally draining... It simply quit without warning and erased everything and shut down all communications and conveyances... Thereby wiping out the story of my marriage within a nanosecond of the AI of the software deciding to do so against my will and seemingly very reasonable expectations to the contrary.
And rather ironically, it did so as I was posting on this very thread about my wife's infidelity and abandonment without warning or even red flags or having any choice or remedy available at the time to avert or "undo" the loss of all of that that was invested by me into her and our relationship at the time.
And so it is, that I felt a very small measure of disappointment and having my expectations arbitrarily "opposited" and kinda shitted on electronically by my very own phone while speaking about my wife doing the very same thing sexually and emotionally and financially on a very very large and genuinely traumatic and and even death resulting, as well as life-altering scale.
So yeah I'm feeling kind of infidelity-sensitive right now, to say the least, and I didn't say vows to this damn phone, but much like it was with my wife 20 plus years ago, I felt that I really and truly need it around in spite of its spontaneous and arbitrary occasional abandonments and overall shortcomings and broken promises about its actual features and what it will or will NOT do.
Of course my stupid phone did not do anything morally wrong, and I do not love it nor does it "love" me. There are many many breakdowns my silly little analogy to be sure. Also my phone didn't go running away with other men to be sexually intimate with them either.
But since my phone did arbitrarily erase everything I initially invested into the first drafted post of mine on this thread, I thought it seemed almost poetically linked to the content/story I was writing about, and I also realized when I began to think through what I was going to post instead, that I didn't want to invest myself so heavily in terms of time and emotion and depth of content with so risky a "partner" as I had previously entrusted those conveyances to.
[This message edited by Cephastion at 6:18 AM, February 13th (Wednesday)]