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1 year, 9 months, 25 days of IHS.

This calculation from an online tool (I haven't manually counted it). It has been Hell. At first (when I left our bedroom and moved across the hall), I had some hope, that my WX would come through for me after so many years of marriage. But no, my WX would disappoint me big time. Everytime. Time after time. Everytime. I don't even know him anymore. So, anyways here we are after all this time - and my efforts to get away are dashed time after time. Every day I get up and prepare our marital home for showings to prospective buyers and to look for another home to purchase. I have found 3 such homes in the last several months and all 3 times my hopes to get out of here and away from my WX are ruined. No buyer for our marital home, prospective new homes don't pass inspection or financing. How much longer can this possibly go on. While it does go on I have to live with him - he won't leave. Even though he was awarded a large sum from my account in the divorce proceedings. My WX shows me in words, looks, actions every day that he doesn't care about me. I don't understand how this can be happening after my whole adult life being in love with him and working so hard every day to benefit him and our children. Why is this happening to me. Why can't I change it. Why does it take so long. WTF. I keep trying to get out of this. But I am still here months after the divorce is final, months after our marital home has been for sale. And every day the same result. Recently I was able to procure financing where I can purchase a new home before our marital home sells (I am not able to rent or move in with family/friends). But, there isn't much out there to buy in this real estate market. Every day for hours I look for a home and go view them. Every day, for hours I clean and prepare our marital home for the showings (WX) helps very little. Only to be disappointed again at the end of the day. Marital home not sold, new home not purchased. For the most part I am strong emotionally - but, I'm worn out with all this. I try to put on a strong front for my adult children. Today the same thing, tomorrow more of the same expected. Really upset as this 4th home that I tried to purchase today fell through. At the same time a prospective buyer who gave us an offer to purchase our marital home - his financing is not valid. I need some support tonight.

[This message edited by icangetpastthis at 12:26 PM, Friday, February 27th]