BigBlueEyes posted 9/23/2019 05:52 AM

This is my new beginning,
This is my realisation that I have moved out of Infidelity,
(LIKE SERIOUSLY I'M OUT OF INFIDELITY)
I'm under no-ones thumb,
I'm in control of my life, for the 1st time in soooo damn long I am living MY life.

I posted a response on someone else's thread, then after rereading it I realised the words I typed I meant them, like really really meant them, I didn't have to go back over to auto correct, add in missed words, add in forgotten points, I didn't have to edit for absolutely anything as its my truth, Its my new beginning said straight from my mended heart.

Im not some weak, mild mannered, little scrap of a person anymore, I'm no longer a shell of my former self, I'm no longer the 1 in the corner saying nothing, I'm no longer trying to be as small as I can be.

I'm no longer that person who can be bullied or manipulated by anyone.

Now I'm Brave, BIGGER, outspoken without being brash or argumentative.

I don't stay in corners trying to be small, I'm amongst the crowd, talking, laughing, having an opinion, participating & conversing with EVERYONE.

Mentally & physically I am fitter, healthier, & stronger than I've ever been.

I'm comfortable in most situations now, I check for exits & escape routes etc but other than that I'm now relaxed in most situations.

I do make a point of not looking for ulterior motives in peoples actions & words as I don't want to become cynical or bitter.

I'm now happy & proud of the woman I have become

SI & its wonderfully insightful members have given me support, guidance, genuine warmth, lots of hugs & strength during my time spent here,
I truly wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for all of you.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to you all (you know who you are)

BBE's has become a force to be reckoned with

WhoTheBleep posted 9/23/2019 07:28 AM

Great update!! So happy for you BBE!

BearlyBreathing posted 9/23/2019 23:02 PM

This made me smile :-). Thank you!

JanaGreen posted 10/1/2019 22:42 PM

This is BEAUTIFUL!!!!

DevastatedDee posted 10/2/2019 10:25 AM

I love this!! It is absolutely amazing how different it is when you are out from under all that dysfunction and misery. People fear leaving, but there is so much beauty on the other side that you just don't see until you get there.

k8la posted 10/2/2019 18:26 PM

:hearts:
Many many :hearts:

Maudlin posted 10/2/2019 19:06 PM

This is wonderful!

Notriangle posted 10/3/2019 23:30 PM

BigBlueEyea,
You are a warrior now!!!

Growingweary posted 10/4/2019 14:14 PM

Thanks for sharing BBE! It was very comforting to read your words.

crazyblindsided posted 10/8/2019 04:51 AM

People fear leaving, but there is so much beauty on the other side that you just don't see until you get there.

This was me for so long. My fear kept holding me back. The emotional abuse was too much. I feel like I'm clawing my way out right now but I'm going to get there. I'm a survivor.

I can't wait for my new beginning!

Mamabear1 posted 10/10/2019 15:03 PM

Get it girl!!!!!!

tushnurse posted 10/11/2019 12:52 PM

I see the blossom has felt the warmth of the sun upon her, and opened into a beautiful amazing specimen.

((((And Strength))))

Odonna posted 10/12/2019 10:54 AM

So glad for you! You deserve it!