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New Beginnings :
No more Doom & Gloom

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 BigBlueEyes (original poster member #71441) posted at 11:52 AM on Monday, September 23rd, 2019

This is my new beginning,

This is my realisation that I have moved out of Infidelity,

(LIKE SERIOUSLY I'M OUT OF INFIDELITY)

I'm under no-ones thumb,

I'm in control of my life, for the 1st time in soooo damn long I am living MY life.

I posted a response on someone else's thread, then after rereading it I realised the words I typed I meant them, like really really meant them, I didn't have to go back over to auto correct, add in missed words, add in forgotten points, I didn't have to edit for absolutely anything as its my truth, Its my new beginning said straight from my mended heart.

Im not some weak, mild mannered, little scrap of a person anymore, I'm no longer a shell of my former self, I'm no longer the 1 in the corner saying nothing, I'm no longer trying to be as small as I can be.

I'm no longer that person who can be bullied or manipulated by anyone.

Now I'm Brave, BIGGER, outspoken without being brash or argumentative.

I don't stay in corners trying to be small, I'm amongst the crowd, talking, laughing, having an opinion, participating & conversing with EVERYONE.

Mentally & physically I am fitter, healthier, & stronger than I've ever been.

I'm comfortable in most situations now, I check for exits & escape routes etc but other than that I'm now relaxed in most situations.

I do make a point of not looking for ulterior motives in peoples actions & words as I don't want to become cynical or bitter.

I'm now happy & proud of the woman I have become

SI & its wonderfully insightful members have given me support, guidance, genuine warmth, lots of hugs & strength during my time spent here,

I truly wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for all of you.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to you all (you know who you are)

BBE's has become a force to be reckoned with

Me- BW, 47
Multi Dday's,
DB A's x 2 BFF
Multi ONS's, Online shit.
Serial cheat, Abuser,
D 18.02.20
Stay strong, just because it’s hard today, doesn’t mean that next week it won’t get easier!!

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WhoTheBleep ( member #49504) posted at 1:28 PM on Monday, September 23rd, 2019

Great update!! So happy for you BBE!

I believe we have two lives: the one we learn with, and the one we live with after that. --The Natural

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BearlyBreathing ( member #55075) posted at 5:02 AM on Tuesday, September 24th, 2019

This made me smile :-). Thank you!

Me: BS 57 (49 on d-day)Him: *who cares ;-) *. D-Day 8/15/2016 LTA. Kinda liking my new life :-)

**horrible typist, lots of edits to correct. :-/ **

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JanaGreen ( member #29341) posted at 4:42 AM on Wednesday, October 2nd, 2019

This is BEAUTIFUL!!!!

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DevastatedDee ( member #59873) posted at 4:25 PM on Wednesday, October 2nd, 2019

I love this!! It is absolutely amazing how different it is when you are out from under all that dysfunction and misery. People fear leaving, but there is so much beauty on the other side that you just don't see until you get there.

DDay: 06/07/2017
MH - RA on DDay.
Divorced a serial cheater (prostitutes and lord only knows who and what else).

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k8la ( member #38408) posted at 12:26 AM on Thursday, October 3rd, 2019

:hearts:

Many many :hearts:

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Maudlin ( member #70107) posted at 1:06 AM on Thursday, October 3rd, 2019

This is wonderful!

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Notriangle ( member #70597) posted at 5:30 AM on Friday, October 4th, 2019

BigBlueEyea,

You are a warrior now!!!

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Growingweary ( member #47279) posted at 8:14 PM on Friday, October 4th, 2019

Thanks for sharing BBE! It was very comforting to read your words.

Me: BW
Him: WH
M: 35 years
Confronted: 11/22/14

You can’t talk your way out of a problem you behaved your way into! - Stephen Covey

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crazyblindsided ( member #35215) posted at 10:51 AM on Tuesday, October 8th, 2019

People fear leaving, but there is so much beauty on the other side that you just don't see until you get there.

This was me for so long. My fear kept holding me back. The emotional abuse was too much. I feel like I'm clawing my way out right now but I'm going to get there. I'm a survivor.

I can't wait for my new beginning!

fBS/fWS(me):52 Mad-hattered after DD (2008)
XWS:55 Serial Cheater, Diagnosed NPD
DD(22) DS(19)
XWS cheated the entire M spanning 19 years
Discovered D-Days 2006,2008,2012, False R 2014
Separated 9/2019; Divorced 8/2024

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Mamabear1 ( new member #69040) posted at 9:03 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2019

Get it girl!!!!!!

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tushnurse ( member #21101) posted at 6:52 PM on Friday, October 11th, 2019

I see the blossom has felt the warmth of the sun upon her, and opened into a beautiful amazing specimen.

((((And Strength))))

Me: FBSHim: FWSKids: 23 & 27 Married for 32 years now, was 16 at the time.D-Day Sept 26 2008R'd in about 2 years. Old Vet now.

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Odonna ( member #38401) posted at 4:54 PM on Saturday, October 12th, 2019

So glad for you! You deserve it!

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