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Positive Reconciliation Stories


so_lost ( member #7726) posted at 4:05 AM on Monday, September 17th, 2012

It's hard to believe it's been 7.5 years since d-day...and I still remember my user name and password to this website!

We made it through the storm and now have two beautiful little girls...and are trying for our third!

Reconciliation is not easy and in fact I still struggle with his A and triggers. He's been completely remorseful and I've realized it's really up to me forgive and completely move on. I've held onto it for so long...and might need to hang on a little longer...but that's just me. Someday I'll hopefully let it go completely.

D-day April 2005, R.
Me-BS 37
Him-FWH 37, 8 month EA/PA with coworker. Married 2 yrs at the time.
2 kiddos after D-day, Married 11 years.

posts: 262   ·   registered: Jul. 28th, 2005
id 6021289

Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 4:06 AM on Monday, September 17th, 2012

Sending good thoughts for #3!

"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom

posts: 29076   ·   registered: Feb. 28th, 2011   ·   location: California
id 6021291

suem8 ( new member #36832) posted at 5:53 AM on Monday, September 17th, 2012

How do u do positive reconciliation.i know both me n h would like to fix but don't know how,he blames me affair due to feeling issues are3 year affair back n forth for 8 months,holidays together.he has lost our couple friends back on nov but if we get back together the backlash would be huge,as huge damage done.

I think he would like me to move back in family home and just carry as normal,but I don't know how we can do that.

Do we talk about affair,do I keep track of his whereabouts.whats best advice to move forward.

posts: 4   ·   registered: Sep. 15th, 2012
id 6021377

AFrayedKnot ( member #36622) posted at 3:13 AM on Wednesday, October 3rd, 2012

No one has posted here in a couple weeks. We are in the beginning of our first a season and R is going well.

Don't get me wrong there are at least moments in everyday that it hurts like hell but the intense rollercoaster swings have calmed down.

We are both working hard and that is why it is working. My WS is doing IC and vigilantly working a 12 step fellowship. We have been reading and working through books together: After the Affair, 5 Love Languages , How to Help You Spouse Heal from Your Affair, and The Marriage You've Always Dreamed Of. We pray together most mornings and inventory our day at the end of the night. WE COMMUNICATE!!!

I am not ready to(and probably never will)say that I am grateful for the A. But our Lives, Our Relationship, and Our Family is better than it has ever been.

[This message edited by Chicho at 5:31 AM, October 12th (Friday)]

BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"

posts: 2859   ·   registered: Aug. 28th, 2012
id 6044535

girlsbird ( member #30877) posted at 1:22 AM on Monday, October 15th, 2012

I originally posted this ion the reconcilation thread and then pulled it...I am reposting it here.

52 weeks ago today I married my WSO (anniversary is actually on Tuesday). I married him 12 days before the first antiversary of D-day. Although it has been quite the year both joyous and with the downs that go with this ride known as the rollor coaster I have no regrets. I have been blessed with a truly remorseful man and have learned alot about myself. Thank you all who have been there on my downs. I appreciate everyones stories and hope that we all find that peaceful and comfortable place that we as humans deserve. Thanks

Mr & Mrs Bird

D-Day 10/28/10..almost admission 7/10 Reconciled. I was the betrayed

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Tesa ( member #10002) posted at 9:48 PM on Monday, October 15th, 2012

On October 31, 2012 my husband (who was my WSO 3 years ago) and I will close on our dream home. When we met, after my 1st marriage ended, I never thought I would have the opportunity to build a home again. And, now each of our 5 children will have their own room and my live-in mother has her own apartment attached to the house too.

3 years ago, October 31 WAS our D-day. A day that I thought I would always remember with pain. Remembering his confession…

But, now, October 31 is OUR Celebration DAY!!

Here for awhile, still feel the sting from scars every so often.

Healed, healing, living...

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forever.haunted ( member #28645) posted at 11:51 AM on Sunday, November 4th, 2012

3 years past dday now, and what I used to think was impossible is now reality...

we are healed and stronger than before! My remorseful fwh has proven himself over time and I love him more than I did prior to the A because the aftermath of the A broke him down..he hit rock bottom and was forced to take a hard look at himself. He didn't like what he saw and he made a complete 180. He is a wonderful man now and I love him very much.


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Herzschmerz ( member #29805) posted at 9:22 PM on Tuesday, November 13th, 2012

I posted this in a thread below (about "why R?"). But, I'm reposting it here.

When D-Day happened over 2 years ago, I wasn't sure what I wanted. I had spent nearly 13 years with H, and we had just bought a home together a few months prior. I was scared of being alone, of starting over. And, despite the extreme hurt, I found that I still loved him and cared about him. Plus, I took my wedding vows very seriously, and felt like I needed to know that I tried everything in my power to save our marriage before I could feel at peace with walking away.

At the same time, because he had had an EA 10 years prior, I had always said if he did it again "I'd be gone". And I knew I didn't deserve to be treated that way. Having been through multiple affairs now with him, it was not lost on me that this was a pattern, and that I was taking a HUGE risk of being hurt again, by staying.

In those first weeks, I went back and forth from reading about how to save our marriage, to researching divorce attorneys, and even creating fake profiles on dating websites and researching apartments just to see what my options were (I never connected with anyone, and had no intention to -- I just needed to know that if/when I was ready to date again, I wouldn't be left with lepers and guys who live with their mother).

Every time I'd think to leave him, I'd freeze up. So, I decided to give myself time to not make any decision to stay OR go. I think I gave myself about 6 months, and then I would re-evaluate (H was not aware of this at all). This worked well to take off the pressure. I knew that, ultimately, I was in control if I felt it necessary to leave sooner, but I wasn't forcing myself to make a decision before I was ready.

Things seemed to be getting better. Then 3 months later, D-Day #2 hit. That apparently changed everything, for H (from what he told me). I was extremely cautious, waiting for the other shoe to drop -- not wanting to believe anything anymore. It was a dark time for me. But I didn't feel strong enough to leave, so I allowed myself to keep that 6 month "deadline". But I did get stronger in asking for what I needed and setting/enforcing my own boundaries.

Shortly before the "deadline" was up, H agreed to attend Retrouvaille with me. That changed EVERYTHING. It made H realize our MC was horribly destructive to our marriage (she had basically been avoiding the affair, and letting him sidestep fixing things by turning blame on me -- why I kept going, I don't know... maybe because I didn't know what else to do). He asked to fire her at our next session, which we did. And then, through the Retrouvaille post-sessions, we began the real process of rebuilding. H was a different person. And suddenly I felt like I really, really wanted to stay, to see where we could take this thing if we kept rebuilding like we were. It was the first time I felt real hope.

Now, 2 years later, I am glad I stayed. Our relationship is so different than it ever had been. H is a very different person too. He doesn't just say the "right things", he backs things up with actions -- actions that would be extremely difficult to fake. I've begun to trust again (though my heart is still cautious, and probably always will be), but he knows that trust was and is hard earned, and easily could be broken forever. We both agree that our relationship is exponentially better than it has ever been, and gets better all the time. And, now we have a daughter, who he loves to pieces, and I believe she's yet another motivator for him to stay faithful.

I move forward knowing that I'll never be able to control what H does. He may very well decide to hurt me again. But *I* will be okay; I will survive. I have choices, and I have power. And I have faith that all the work we've done will not be in vain. If nothing else, I'm really enjoying life again now, and I have a baby girl who is everything to me. So, I feel like so far I've come out ahead.

And, I think about how, had I left, I wouldn't have these things -- a beautiful daughter, a marriage that feels solid and happy, and all of the memories and things we have built together over the last 15 years. I may have ended up single for a long time. I may have ended up with a guy I thought was great, but who turned out to break my heart too. At least with H, he's the "devil that I know". And H has got a lot to lose at this point, whereas a new guy might not.

I don't regret my decision to stay one bit. It can get better. Doesn't mean it always will, and only you can decide if that's even probable for your situation. But if you want to try, and you think there's even a glimmer of hope, why not? At least if it doesn't work out you won't spend the rest of your life thinking "what if...?"

Me: BS (33)
Him: FWS (34)
DDay 1: 06/04/10 | DDay 2: 10/02/10
OEA plus another texting EA
Together 17 yrs, married 6
One beautiful baby girl together

Fully in R! (and successful Retrouvaille "grads"!)

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id 6099906

flup ( member #21259) posted at 4:00 AM on Monday, December 10th, 2012

What a great thread!

The last few years since dday have been better than ever. When we got married in 1998, I never really knew what being married was all about.

Now, whenever we can (and some times when we shouldn't) we snuggle in bed, entwined 'til noon, and luxuriate in the feeling of love.

That said, I still have thoughts that she did "that" with "them", but she has consistently refuted my triggers.

She recently was leaving early to see a friend in a nearby town in rehab, so the friend's house was empty. She left clothes to wear for the morning that included two pair of underwear... Which caused me to have a semi-major freak out.

She couldn't have been more supportive and helpful - she actually understood why I had triggered, and what was causing me anguish the night before.

I really think I'm back to 99.5% pre-A, now... It really feels great.

Me: BS 59Her: fWW 54

D-Day #1: 12 Aug. 2008. WW's 2nd affair w/college teacher.D-Day #2: 18 June 2009. Affair #1 with neighbor was fall of 2002 - while I was coping with the fallout from 9/11.

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id 6134604

Unagie ( member #37091) posted at 8:30 AM on Monday, December 10th, 2012

Flup your story is great, you have no idea how much I pray this will be us. Well actually you probably do know..

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LastChanceLarry ( member #37322) posted at 5:33 PM on Thursday, December 13th, 2012

This is such a wonderful thread, please keep the stories coming! I DO so love happy endings and many stories here have brought tears to my eyes. I am so happy that so many of you are doing this well and that the hardships i see every day on the forums really can be overcome!


I am humbled and filled with a sense of hope and strength, thank you.

D-Day: 8/27/12
Me: BBF (29)
WXGF: Confused26 (27) EA/PA with xBF, lasted almost a year. TT, blameshifting, gaslighting, & broken NC for 10 months.
DS: 3
Together 5 years

3+ years later and I am doing great! Hell of a ride but well worth it.

posts: 318   ·   registered: Oct. 30th, 2012   ·   location: New England
id 6139274

Morethanever ( new member #37609) posted at 3:01 AM on Saturday, December 15th, 2012

I have not posted anything on this site but instead have used it to validate all the feelings I have been going through. I am only 2 months out from D day. I thought I would not be able to figure out HOW to live again. My husband has been amazing. His 2 year off and on affair was ended abruptly after I found out and he has done everything to win me back. To my utter amazement, after weeks upon weeks of crying and hurt, a wave of relief came over me on Sunday (12/9). I suddenly had NO feelings of pain. NO feelings of emptynes.... Instead, I had hope and LOVE! I've loved my husband for 17 years and I didn't deserve to be put into this position, but I sure as heck am going to realize when my marriage has the potential to be better than ever! This week has been amazing! We talk and even joke about the ow, but it doesn't pain me inside. I am sad still, of course, but I KNOW we are going to be better than OK! I hope all of you get the chance to experience what I have felt this week. I don't know how long this will last, but I'm riding the high right now. I love my husband. And he has always loved me. Now we'll spend the rest of our lives faithfully loving each other!

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catlover50 ( member #37154) posted at 11:48 AM on Sunday, December 16th, 2012

Just wanted to share our recent experience.

Dday was less than 3 months ago and my fWH has been trying so hard, both to support and love me and to do the work on himself and his childhood that needs to be done. The topper was this weekend, when we performed together as Clara's parents in our local town's production of the Nutcracker. We danced and acted and had the best time. This is far outside my fWH's comfort zone, but we started ballroom a few years back (strictly to make me happy at the time) and have taken it to this level. I was proud for the whole community to see us on stage together as a loving couple.

Currently I am pain and anger free. I understand that we are not done with the work and I am not done with the pain, but we are in such a good place right now!

Dday -9/23/2012

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Trusttrusttrust ( member #37694) posted at 6:01 PM on Sunday, December 16th, 2012

Thanks for these posts. I love love love reading them.

Married 31 years
D-Day Sept 3, 2012
I thought we were in R. Now I am not sure.
Second D-Day August 5' 2013
No kids

posts: 99   ·   registered: Dec. 4th, 2012   ·   location: Virginia
id 6142769

Trusttrusttrust ( member #37694) posted at 8:58 PM on Monday, December 17th, 2012

I loved reading these posts. You all give me hope. Thanks!

Married 31 years
D-Day Sept 3, 2012
I thought we were in R. Now I am not sure.
Second D-Day August 5' 2013
No kids

posts: 99   ·   registered: Dec. 4th, 2012   ·   location: Virginia
id 6144116

PhoenixRising88 ( member #35214) posted at 8:18 PM on Thursday, December 20th, 2012

The one-year "antiversary" is this coming Saturday. If someone had told me a year ago that my H and I would not only still be together in a year, but still head-over-heels in love and enjoying each other, I'd have said they were full of it.

But it happened. First I was surprised and amazed we made it a week. Then before I knew it the weeks turned into months and months into one year. It's not been all "mai-tai's and Yahtzee", not by a long shot. There's been sleepless nights and difficult talks and gut-wrenching sobs, from me AND from him. But, it gets better. It truly does.

I have my best friend back. My H and I do everything together, willingly and joyfully, the way it was the first six years of our marriage. Our conversation and communication skills are off the chart now - We learned the hard way what happens when you don't communicate what you're feeling to your mate.

We've become much better at recognizing triggers and working through them together, even though some days it really, really sucks. Because to borrow the phrase from the hair color commercial - We're worth it!

So I would say to those new to the process - I know that where you are right now sometimes seems insurmountable; it felt that way to me when I was new in this. I would read the comments of those further along than me and think 'yeah right, no way in hell this will get better'. Don't give up. It's worth the effort.

Me: BS(45)Him: EX, aka "The Dink"(52). D-Day#1 12/22/11. D-Day#2 5/23/13. Divorced 1/10/14.

New chapter of my life- married 11/13/15 to the man I'd thought I would never find.

Throw me to the wolves and I'll return leading the pack.

posts: 443   ·   registered: Apr. 2nd, 2012   ·   location: North Texas
id 6148108

ImTheRealThing ( member #2524) posted at 8:03 AM on Tuesday, February 5th, 2013

Today has been 10 years since the d-day that brought me to SI. The spring and summer of 2003 was a very rough time, but things got better as time went on.

Many thanks to SI, to MH and DS, and the members who were here in 2003-2006 that were so much help. I learned so much from talking to all of you, and gained a lot of confidence in how to handle things during our recovery.

All those problems are in our distant past and we are doing really well.

Thanks again to SI!

Met in 1974. Married since 1979.
Reconciled and happy

"Some people call a willingness to work on things 'compromise'. I call it 'love'". - erzulie

posts: 1961   ·   registered: Oct. 27th, 2003   ·   location: Southern California
id 6205860

fireguy87 ( member #36992) posted at 1:58 AM on Thursday, February 7th, 2013

Wanted to give hope to those currently going through these hard times.

It's been almost 19 years since DDay and 18.5 years since R began. We have come a long way during that time frame.

At the time of the A, we had no kids, it was the 2 of us and we had only been married a few years. After 5 months of Hell on Earth, we managed to come back together.

Since then we started a family. We have 2 beautiful children whom we adore. We treat each other with respect and love. We are in our second home and life seems to be going great.

We still have our moments (the ones all couples have....disagreements and such) but we have never fought. We have learned so much about one another and we try to make sure we don't take each other for granted.

As far as the A is concerned, I forgave her completely. I will never forget about it, but I will not beat her up over it. She has apologized enough and has shown remorse.

So for those that are trying for reconciliation, yes it is possible and it takes hard work, but it truly can be worth it.

Full disclosure: I found SI during a google search for controlling mind movies. My wife has not done anything to cause me to come here after all this time. She does not know that I have come here as I don't want her to relive this either. I'm trying to personally handle some emotional issues that cropped up about 5 years ago when the OM got a job about 2 minutes from where I work. I ended up seeing him every single day. Well he no longer works there....thank god! However, this caused the mind movies to start all over in my head and I will be seeking help in the forums concerning this.

Also, any information I can give to help another couple survive and lead to reconciliation, I am happy to provide. Just ask....BS or WS it doesn't matter.

Me - FBH
Happened many years ago

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id 6209012

LA44 ( member #38384) posted at 10:09 PM on Monday, February 11th, 2013

Every day we are working to R. As crazy as it sounds, I think the A has literally SHOCKED us into reality and in the long run our marriage will be stronger then when we first said our now broken vows. We are reading books and doing the exercises in After the Affair, going to MC and IC. My WH has owned his behaviour from the moment I found out. This helps every single day. He is remorseful and full of regret. I am not sure when I will forgive him but I know I want too. And I know he needs to forgive himself as well. This all hurts so much and I know it will for a long time to come but my goodness when you set your mind to R over and above anything else, great things are bound to happen. I will post more positive notes as we go along and hopefully others can feel some of the same hopefullness that I do.

[This message edited by LA44 at 4:11 PM, February 11th (Monday)]

Me: 44
He: 47 WH
Married: 15 years
D Day: December 2012
Affair: Fall 2009 - Dec. 2011
R is not linear

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MoreWould ( member #37982) posted at 11:14 PM on Friday, February 15th, 2013

This is my story of a successful R. I believe it is the hardest, best road, but it’s not for sissies

My FWW and I were married in 1973, after being together a few years, and living together for one. When we got married, we made a wow to each other that even adultery was not necessarily grounds for divorce between us. We’d seen so many friends and friends’ parents break up over momentary lapses of judgment that we wanted to make sure there was another road for us to follow. Today, we call that R.

Almost 7 years to the day after we first slept together, the “Itch” caught up with her and I found a strange woman at my door informing me that we had both joined the same club, as the BS.

I was devastated, and confronted my WW that night. She denied it of course, but I only know one way to interpret, “They’ve been taking off work early and fucking in the afternoons.”

That led to a couple of months of TT and minimizing as the A continued and I dug the truth out of her. I thought a multi-month A that required planning and deception was well out of bounds of our vow, but I stuck it out and eventually got her to end it. I know this would have been a deal breaker for many, and it almost was for me.

She proved to be more emotionally detached than I knew, and refused to talk about it much, so it took me more years to heal than it should have, but we stayed married. We didn’t have Dr Glass, or SI or the internet and so we made a lot of it up on the fly, and in hindsight, we could have done our R a lot better. Lots of lumpy carpet in our house.

At her constant urging I finally had an “A of my own”, a ONS with the W of an associate. I guess my W thought getting even was part of the process. To me, it felt like more damage from her A, but at least the sex was good.

I recently found SI after getting triggered into excruciating flashbacks and have been going back and doing some of the work we should have done the first time. Later is harder, but it can be done.

SI has been a lifesaver for me, I’ve learned a lot and it is still sinking in. It’s getting better every day.

I thought I’d “affair-proofed” our M with my fidelity, attention, affection and support but I now see her risk factors were off the charts. Her FOO issues such that’s it’s likely I was making it worse by being such a good H. Wow.

I will never claim that our M is better than it would have been without our A’s, it’s not. My FWW says it was worth it, because she discovered that the grass isn’t greener anyplace else. Maybe that’s because she learned the lesson, and I paid the price.

I’ll repeat what I’ve said here before, the SI process is brilliant, but it is an ideal that does not have to be perfectly executed to have real value. Even half a loaf is a healthy meal. And it’s so good to know you’re not alone.

We’re about to celebrate our 40th anniversary. We have a couple of kids in college, a beautiful home, and some savings. Our friends see us as a model couple, and although we know better, we still love each other and I’m glad we’re still together.

[This message edited by MoreWould at 5:16 PM, February 15th (Friday)]

Me BH/WH, 63
Her WW/BW, 62
Her DDay Dec 1976 OMW at the door
My DDay, ~ 2years later, confessed ONS the next day
R via "Sweeping under the rug"
Still married, 40 yrs, mostly OK
2 kids, 24 & 20

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