knowingmystance:
Shoot, I'll answer if I can
Okay, I feel like Columbo now.. "One more thing..." Just a few points I was wondering about.
Never mentioned it. I had a very pragmatic approach: I thought it would be easier to help her than suffer the consequences. In hindsight, I realize that it must have made her furious.
I'm trying to parse this. You say she was furious because you helped her finish college? In what warped calculus did she come up with this one?
A few months prior to our wedding, she met a guy (who seemed like a good catch but turned out the opposite) and they started having a LTA. It went on for about two years behind my back.
So, to be clear, the affair officially was over when you discovered you had an STD? Or before that? At some point, she appears to be realizing that her "big catch" wasn't really going to be caught by her.
Speaking of the STD:
The STD (which she knew about btw; get this: her reasoning was that she wanted to share his infection so they could be in the same boat; my health was not considered even for a second)
Wow! That is a quote that stays with you. Okay. Lots to unwrap there. You are saying she knew about his STD and willingly exposed it to herself for... what reason? So they didn't have to use condoms or something? She was willing to put up with a risk to her health, maybe a permanent risk, for this guy? On PURPOSE? Clearly she didn't care at all about YOUR health, did she ever address that fact in so many words? Was it an STD that stays with you forever? (I mean to say, I already consider this person you describe as borderline evil... this is moustache twirling, mega bad guy evil stuff).
If a grown, single man intrudes into a marriage and is willing to "share" the woman with her H and is not pushing for her to leave her H, chances are the guy is a sicko. Most probably he will be into stuff he's not getting anywhere else, otherwise it's simply not worth the effort and the risk.
I don't think that's a universal statement, although it seems appropriate here. My XW wasn't interested in long term relationships, she just wanted an "open relationship" and didn't bother consulting me about it. She could have cared less about what they wanted long term. In the end, the fact that all they wanted was a piece of ass was by inference, okay by her. I think that kind of cheater is fairly common, of either sex.
It turned out the guy was infatuated with me, not so much with my XW. I don’t want to go into too much detail, but what they did for sex was as nasty as it gets
Okay, there's another quote that is hard to ignore. He was infatuated with you how? Sexually? This seems like an odd tangent. Did you figure into his fantasies in some symbolic way, as a "cuckold" fantasy (I hate that phrase) or was it something more twisted psychologically? I am no authority on "lifestyle" activities and tend to defer to the people on here that are more knowledgeable than I. I'm not completely ignorant, however, and I don't need a fainting couch when someone spells something out for me. Did this "thing" involve inflicting pain, or was it degrading in other ways, as in making your wife into a submissive? "As nasty as it gets" is sadly a pretty elastic concept in this day and age.
Damn, that sentence about beach pictures and your sister's family really bugs me. I hope you've taken some steps.
I now know that my X was very unhappy with our life. She thought that by some miracle getting married would change everything, and I thought making an honest woman out of her would put an end to her frustration.
So how long were you dating before you got married? Why didn't she just call off the marriage, especially since she was deeply embroiled with another guy at the time? Has she admitted any of that? It seems cruel of her to marry you in any capacity. She should have said no, it would have been kinder. I realize Kindness isn't her thing.
I'm sorry this went long. Yeah, there was a lot to parse there. Do you ever hear any reports about how she is doing now? I know you say "Karma hit them hard" but there are no details. I don't normally indulge in schadenfreude but in this case I'll make an exception. Dayum.
Anyway, glad you are on the mend. I ABSOLUTELY understand what you mean by loss of concentration, and your troubles having a "Shelf Life" for everyone around you, including employers. I had to change jobs myself. You get it back. I found meditation helps, and diving feet first in meticulous little hobbies like painting miniatures. You'll get there. Best of luck.