I'm assuming you're masturbating and "faking" it in these BH filmed videos, is that correct?
No that was in videos I made of myself that I never sent.
I mean holy shit honey, what do you expect the man to do? Your story sounds incredibly and intentionally cruel.
I wasn't expecting anything from BH. I hid two sexting sessions from BH he knew about everything else when it happened, none of that seems to matter either. That is where my problem is. I have never been intentionally cruel or mean to BH. I have a ton of issues that I need to work through. Being able to show emotion other than anger is one of the big ones
it seems the faking it was more to hurt your BH and less to appeal to the AP.
Actually I faked it in my own videos not the ones done with BH because I can't masterbate I just end up more frustrated for the last 5+ years I cant seem to get any sexual pleasure without BH. The A proved it even more.
Are you sure you want to be with your husband? How the hell is he supposed to feel? You have an issue sending videos to this man when you had no issues faking while he's filming knowing you were sending them to someone else?
Yes I am sure I want my Husband. I don't expect him to feel anything good for me not now and maybe never. He may even chose to leave me for good and I'd deserve it. I never faked it while BH was filming me. There is more to the timeline, BH has all of it. I did not post it all here.
What the actual fuck is going on in your mind?
Even I don't know what is wrong with me. Hopefully I'll end up either alone or fixed.
What consequences do you think are appropriate in your situation?
For BH to run with the kids and never come back.
I'ma whole world of crazy and broken that BH deserves better than me.
[This message edited by WTDIEC at 1:31 PM, Monday, September 26th]