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Ozzy1788 ( member #83108) posted at 2:55 PM on Tuesday, June 27th, 2023
No worries.
may we both find more peace in our lives
Absolutely. Onwards and upwards....
InkHulk (original poster member #80400) posted at 3:19 PM on Tuesday, June 27th, 2023
Thinking of just putting "I will Survive" on repeat for the day.
馃暫馃徎馃暫馃徎馃暫馃徎
People are more important than the relationships they are in.
emergent8 ( member #58189) posted at 6:21 PM on Wednesday, June 28th, 2023
How did it go InkHulk? Was it all Gloria Gaynor all the time?
I'm sorry, I know how difficult the antiversary can be - particularly the first one. I don't' consider myself an overly sentimental person and have never been big on dates/etc, however that first antiversary, and that whole season really, hit me like a ton of bricks. Trauma is trauma. Your body remembers. Be kind and gentle to yourself.
I recall you saying that you planned to make big assessments at one year. I know this is not where you planned on being. I imagine this makes it all the more difficult.
Strength to you.
Me: BS. Him: WS.
D-Day: Feb 2017 (8 m PA with married COW).
Happily reconciled.
InkHulk (original poster member #80400) posted at 10:53 PM on Wednesday, June 28th, 2023
Yesterday was mercifully anticlimactic compared to my anti-verary eve meltdown. Work has been productive and engaging, and I went to dinner with my team and then had a few drinks and went to bed. Wonderfully uneventful all things considered. Thanks for caring to ask.
Yes, my self imposed clock has wound down. As stated before, I鈥檓 keeping my cards close to my chest here right now, but yes, it is the time for decision making.
People are more important than the relationships they are in.
HeartbreakInHawaii ( new member #80401) posted at 5:53 AM on Thursday, June 29th, 2023
Shattered.
Used to be "I am shattered."
Now it's "I was shattered."
WontBeFooledAgai ( member #72671) posted at 6:26 AM on Thursday, June 29th, 2023
Time now for "We're not gonna take it anymore" by Twisted Sister
InkHulk (original poster member #80400) posted at 10:32 PM on Thursday, June 29th, 2023
Got home today, wasn鈥檛 expecting to see her at all but we had a short interaction. When she is kind and soft hearted to me, she is so desirable to me, even now. It takes mental effort to be like, "STOP, REMEMBER, RUN". But it feels like becoming deathly and incurable allergic to your child. You love them deeply but to be with them will kill you. I have to remember that thing I just experienced today doesn鈥檛 last and what comes with it is poisonous.
I get to spend the evening with my DD tonight, looking forward to that.
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People are more important than the relationships they are in.
Superesse ( member #60731) posted at 12:11 AM on Friday, June 30th, 2023
Read about Samson and Delilah....I guess she has that allure thing figured out, eh?
InkHulk (original poster member #80400) posted at 12:32 AM on Friday, June 30th, 2023
Samson and Delilah
Hoping for a happier ending than that story. 
People are more important than the relationships they are in.
Tempocontour ( member #65971) posted at 2:59 AM on Sunday, July 16th, 2023
I hope you are doing ok. Any update?
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