Oftencheatedon's experiences are her experiences. If that's the common situation amongst her friends, who is anyone to doubt her? If anything, I'd be curious to ask what her friends' descriptions are of the dynamics around sex in their Ms. Each person's story is revealing.
Like hikingout and others, I was the high drive partner in my M. I wondered a lot why my H lacked interest, especially since he used to brag about his sex life before me. Here's what I can guess:
1) He was emotionally troubled. Due to his mental illness and its symptoms, due to his own trauma and baggage, due to his experiences of our relationship (I'm thinking ours was offering him more stability than he was used to, so perhaps sex under those circumstances felt more vulnerable for him than he was used to or something to that effect). Those kinds of factors could understandably interfere with his mood.
2) He struggled with ED. Emotional baggage, mental health symptoms, anxiety, anger, excessive smoking of cigarettes (and later marijuana), and everything else that was going on caused trouble for him when it came to getting or sustaining erections. Which created a vicious cycle - anxiety/low self-confidence around his performance, causes more trouble, repeat.
3) His waywarding.
4) His use of porn, which began shortly after we got the OK to recommence sex, after we had our son. It was also around the time he had me and Lil Silver sleep on the couch and either began or ramped up his pot use. Stress over being a father, especially with all the past trauma there around not growing up part of a loving or stable family (no family at all, in fact), plus my changing role as a mother, plus preoccupation with our son... I'm sure porn was worlds different from us sexually, so he went with that because it was something he could enjoy with less anxiety.
5) Some turn offs about my body. Which is hard to know because those kinds of comments only ever came out when he was in a bad mood - otherwise, I would beg him to tell me if there was something different I could do, or something about me that was a turn-off that I could change, and he would say, "No complaints." But to this day, I think there are things about me that turn him off, and when I try to fix those things as best I can and ask for feedback, I don't get straight answers. (Though at the moment we're not in proximity with each other to have sex - anytime we are, however, we do. Married, after all).
6) His own past around sexual abuse (different things that happened in his life), and psychological abuse with a particular past lover. She was on his mind A LOT during our earlier years together, and I know it took him a long time to even begin to process what she had done to him (she was his teacher's aide in her 40s, very much married with 2 daughters his age, who had allowed him to move in with them, beginning his pot use and facilitating his drop out from his senior year of high school; they began sleeping together when he was 19 - meaning she preyed on him) and to reconcile that with his experiences (he'd felt it was consensual at the time and felt he was in love with her).
7) Anytime I nagged him about sex. As others have said, pressure = turn-off. I regret that I pressured him and over time have completely changed that about myself. But I wouldn't be surprised if anxiety still lingers around it for him.
8) My high drive intimidates him. He's accused me almost since the beginning of our relationship of sleeping with other guys (I haven't) because apparently my high drive means I must be unable to control myself. Or perhaps it makes him feel self-conscious or bad. Either way, he seems to have never expected me to remain sexually faithful to him since I've always had a high drive, even though I've NEVER ONCE even hinted to him that my high drive would equal some kind of excuse to cheat (because it wouldn't!). Or maybe because I have a drive, that means I have definite preferences and I know my own needs... maybe that's strange to him. He's resistant when I show him what I like, and he gets insecure when I tell him and then assumes I must have learned it with someone else as opposed to solo time and imagination (and magazines and sex guides, lol), and then it becomes a downward spiral...
So wow. Looking at all of that, I can totally understand why he had so many troubles around sex.
I'm still fairly high drive, but something has definitely changed. My own past history of sexual trauma dampened my drive, but not enough to cut it down completely. The biggest change, though, was the conviction that I am hideous and not deserving of sex. It's partially from his selfishness over the years and selfishness of past lovers of putting their needs first and acting like I had minimal to no needs because I am a woman; partially from my weight gain over the past 3-4 years; and most especially because of some of the comments my H had made over this time. He started out saying I am beautiful and that he prefers heavier women, like his past girlfriends - then he called me a pregnant fat-ass when he was unwell, which hurt - then back to compliments - then in more angry moments saying specific things about me physically that "have always" repulsed him (those things were brutal, detailed, and meant to hurt and embarrass like hell) - and a few times recently he let it slip that he wants me to continue looking like this so that no one else will be attracted to me.
My greatest nightmare is becoming like my abusers. I don't ever want him to feel like I assaulted him. I feel ugly. So I don't initiate, don't pressure, don't approach, don't dream of him wanting to meet my needs. I've only recently started masturb'ing again. Sometimes he tells me not to so I can "save it all for him" (only for HIM to masturbate, get off, and then lack interest when that aforementioned time rolls around). Oh yeah, and he's back to skirting boundary lines with other girls. I still have a drive, but it's an inhibited one now.
[This message edited by silverhopes at 12:16 AM, April 17th (Wednesday)]