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Maia's Withdrawal Survival Guide (repost for newbies)

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Nolimits posted 2/11/2013 19:35 PM

Thank you for this. I will have to read through it all again, perhaps daily, but it had me in tears and shaking. I was somehow under the impression that it was wrong to talk to anyone (even here) about some of those confusing feelings about OM. I feel like I've been cut open. For now I am looking around the room naming colors.

seluj61 posted 2/12/2013 18:17 PM

I love this. Thank you so much. It's been over 3 years now and I have struggled but finally am getting to the point I am able to function in the present. The book The Four Agreements helped me. I have been Christian all of my life but it took diverting from that faith to find the peace I needed,

Thanks Maia.

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Trying33 posted 4/24/2013 08:55 AM

Feel so comforted reading this. Wish I would've read it 3 months ago.

Still very torn between "it was definately real" to "it was an escape from my issues and my M and a fantasy".

At this moment in time I am in the acceptance stage. Got here relatively quickly although I do miss him terribly at times.

My self-respect and dignity is what has helped me stay NC. I've held on to it for dear life.

We call it "withdrawal" as that's exactly what it is. It somehow feels like a piss take to call it a "broken heart" as that would insinuate that the A is being romanticised. All I can say is it really felt like a broken heart at the time.

I wish I could talk about him but I can't. Seems like no-one really has the time to listen. Perhaps I come across as a victim. The whole process is so painful because there's no healthy outlet due to the shame and taboo of it all. Understandably so.

You wanna hear the biggest irony. The only person I'd really love to talk to it about is my H. He is my best friend after all.

Never really felt comfortable enough to express this before.

knightsbff posted 5/6/2013 23:24 PM

Bump for luckyllama.

luckyllama posted 5/7/2013 01:23 AM

Thank you, knightsbff. This is a lot to read but I will read through it all over the next few days.

Trying33: It seems I am in a similar place as you. I have had many of the same thoughts and feelings.

Maia posted 5/17/2013 14:50 PM


Maia posted 5/18/2013 13:13 PM

Trying and llama.

All of us have unlived lives. There is a well of desire and intention in us. That well is what you have to explore to heal. Don't be afraid of the pain. See it for what it is, a sign that there is something wrong. You and you alone have the power to find out what, and between you and that Life you are meant for? Is resistance.

Resistance can be internal or external. It can be an unverbalized thought, an echo really. "I can't change."

It can be a fight with a wounded,critical spouse that renders you hopeless.

It can be a trigger. A reminder of past failure. Those are the worst because along with it is shame.

You have to reject that stuff. All of it will cause anxiety and we turn to our addictions for solace. So that's why the new ways of soothing and getting help are so important. But knowing, "right now I am anxious and need love." Is much more hopeful than "I miss xAP"

It's ok. You do need real love. And it's your junkie mind that translates that need into this withdrawal. You need Life.


HowCouldI17 posted 5/21/2013 09:43 AM

Thank you so much for this guide Maia! I'm lost in what to do and fear. this was offered to me by my amazingly compassionate wife. With this as inspiration, I have some great resources to start.

BaxtersBFF posted 6/27/2013 07:18 AM

Bump for a new member

Jennifer99 posted 6/27/2013 10:11 AM

This is the most amazing post/guide - not just for my WH I think but for me in how I feel about him.

I am so impressed with what you went through and put together. I hope you are happy and doing well.

I don't think my M is going to survive H's EA that is over and he's stuck in depression and it took a year to get there!

Thank you for sharing this.

JustDesserts posted 6/27/2013 19:34 PM

Really helpful information in this post.

"It is also important to recognize that we feed our addiction with our minds. It is a bitch. An alki has to go buy and drink the booze; a junky has to score and shoot the dope, all we have to do is replay the past or fantasize about the future.

The above quote will be my fortune cookie wisdom for today. It was a very big cookie!

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DeMinxed posted 8/10/2013 20:14 PM

I read this and a quarter of the way through it I started crying because it is the most relatable post I've read so far (I'm still a n00b). This post will be daily motivation for me on my long journey that lies ahead. Thank you so much for this. You have no idea how much this has helped me. Knowing that there is someone out there who knows exactly what I'm going through feels so exhilarating. It gives me strength and reassurance that I'm doing the right thing.

I have cleaned out my playlist and placed sticky notes on my computer screen! I'm just so ready to remove the rose colored glasses that I've perceived my AP through for so long. This helps more than you'll know.

Thank you again. Thank you forever.

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