Topic is Sleeping.
BetterTimesAhead (original poster member #70001) posted at 8:59 PM on Tuesday, February 22nd, 2022
This one feels different. On the other two I was upset and angry. Today I am just sad. Sad for what will never be (and in retrospect, which never would have been anyway). Sad that my plans turned out like this. Sad that I didn't see him for who he was before getting to this point. Sad that I still have to see his face every day and be reminded about what he's done and that he continues to be unremorseful. Sad that it is difficult to start healing with his face in my face every day. Sad that my son has to deal with all this too. Sad that STBXH is not the person I believed him to be. Sad that today does not even register with him even though it was the day my world imploded. Just all around sad.
On the plus side he is at work so I don't have to see him for the rest of the day. Of course it doesn't stop the texts but I can ignore those. Tomorrow is a new day.
Me: BS - 56 Him: WH - 57 DDAY: 2/22/2019 - Three year EA and PA Filed for D 9/2021 - signed the papers 8/2023 - time to rebuild***************An apology without the action to back it up is just manipulation.
Want2BHappyAgain ( member #45088) posted at 1:38 PM on Wednesday, February 23rd, 2022
Tomorrow is a new day.
Yes it is 
. These antiversaries are milestones that we can't forget...but you have survived another one (((HUGS))). Here's to the NEXT one finding you HAPPY .
A "perfect marriage" is just two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other.
With God ALL things are possible (Matthew 19:26)
I AM happy again...It CAN happen!!!
From respect comes great love...sassylee
Shehawk ( member #68741) posted at 3:26 AM on Thursday, February 24th, 2022
"Tomorrow is a new day."
I wish for peace and healing for you.
I think it is natural to feel the emotions you described. We loved the spouses we thought we had married. Then they became unrecognizable to us.
Today is a major 3 year
anti Versery. for me as well. I am so sorry for what he put you through.
I told someone today that what WH and his adultery co-conspirators did to me still hurts.
I have learned to take exquisite care of myself. I make sure to rest, eat well, pray, meditate, drink water, exercise...whatever I can to take care of myself especially around anti verserys and anniversaries.
I am kind to myself and do not judge myself for having these sorts of feelings.
And I surround myself with people who support and do not judge me.
"It's a slow fade...when you give yourself away" so don't do it!
cbgrace1980 ( member #64109) posted at 7:12 PM on Friday, February 25th, 2022
In time, the pain will fade. I am sorry you are going through such a hard time. We are here for you anytime you need to vent. Sending you a hug.
BetterTimesAhead (original poster member #70001) posted at 10:52 PM on Saturday, February 26th, 2022
Thank you everyone. It has passed and I am focusing on getting through my D. Extra difficult since he won't move out of my house. It is costing more than I'd hoped and the end is not near. Trying to look past it to a better future even though having to see his face every day is just a reminder of what he did.
Many hugs to everyone still having difficulties with all cheating and divorce bring.
Me: BS - 56 Him: WH - 57 DDAY: 2/22/2019 - Three year EA and PA Filed for D 9/2021 - signed the papers 8/2023 - time to rebuild***************An apology without the action to back it up is just manipulation.
Topic is Sleeping.
