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ZetaCephei ( new member #79378) posted at 8:54 AM on Tuesday, October 12th, 2021

I was told by a counsellor just last week, that I have no business being angry at or hating the MOW, because she didn't do anything to me. WTF? She had a LTA with my husband for 9 years, she did everything she could to break us apart, except telling me the truth, she had sex with my WH in my kid's old bed and after D-day, when he broke it off with her, she drove across town to his office to have sex with him, so he would change his mind, all of these because she, i quote "wanted some real passion in her life" but "she didn't do anything to me". I said to the terapist that a decent person just doesn't do any of that to another human being and the answer was, that by these standards, there are very few decent people left in this world. So, you think I am going back to IC with him?

I hate the AP and nothing can change that. I won't act on it, I do not follow her in real life or on social media, but I hate her and if I run into her by chance, I will tell her everything I think about her. And I tell that to my husband as well. It saddens him, when I say she is a bad person, because that also means he is as well, but it is what it is. He must accept what he did and live with it.

It doesn't mean I am less angry at my WH. I know it was his decision and if he had boundaries, nothing she has done would matter. But there is enough anger and hate in me for both of them.

Funny thing is, that even though she wasn't the only one, he had another LTA simultaneously, I don't hate the second one half as much. Maybe I am still in shock and the hate will come later, but now I mostly feel sorry for her for wasting 5 years of her life and first real relationship on him.

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 csaiht (original poster member #77335) posted at 4:48 AM on Friday, October 15th, 2021

I take great satisfaction in knowing she is still alone all these years later. My dislike of her hasn't hampered my life one little bit.

Me too. My xWH's long-term AP is miserable, alone, and now at 50 years old had to move back in with her parents because of some serious sudden health issue. I'm glad she's suffering. I hope she suffers every day for the rest of her miserable life.

So, you think I am going back to IC with him?

Terrible! I hate that there are so many shitty therapists out there. I'm glad you're not going back.

I hate the AP and nothing can change that. I won't act on it, I do not follow her in real life or on social media, but I hate her and if I run into her by chance, I will tell her everything I think about her.

Same. I don't follow them on social media or any of that. I don't even think I'd recognize them if I saw them in person, but I bet they'd know me (they were stalking my social media for a long time and I had no idea).

It saddens him, when I say she is a bad person, because that also means he is as well, but it is what it is. He must accept what he did and live with it.

I can't even imagine realizing you're such a shitty person. My xWH said the same thing, "I'm just as bad, I did it too." Yep, you are, you piece of shit. He didn't protect us, didn't respect us, didn't love us the way he should have.

Me: BW Him: xWH
both in late 30s
Together 19 years, married 12
young kids
Dday 1 - Feb 2020 PA
False R for 8 months
Dday 2 - Oct 2020 Discovered a 9 year long PA/EA & other EAs
Separated - Aug 2021

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