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Positive Reconciliation Stories


ckss4 ( member #43691) posted at 3:50 PM on Thursday, July 10th, 2014

Thanks for sharing your positive stories

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coping_girl ( member #8296) posted at 2:15 PM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014

I just want to say that reconciliation is incredibly difficult, but I'm optimistic to think we are a success story. You can see from my profile that my first D-day was almost 10 years ago! My second/lesser D-day was 5 years ago.

And it is probably only within the last two years that I would say things are really good again. After the second D-day, my husband went into a lot of very intensive therapy, at his choosing. Therapy in a way that had not occurred the first time. The first D-day we were reactive and bandaid mode - can we/should we save this marriage? By the time we got done with that, I think we were both too emotionally exhausted to do anything else. And that worked..... for a while. Until the old personal issues came up again, and it led to the second incident.

Anyway - I can't sugar coat this.... At ten years, I can still get sad, although very, very rarely. I don't really trigger like I used to, although I went through EMDR therapy to help with that. We can talk about it, refer to it, acknowledge that it happened without crying. But we don't, because we don't need to. We know it happened, and we know that it was a terrible thing.

But..... notice the "we" - We are definitely a "we"

We talk. We're not afraid to get our therapist involved at the slightest hint of something. He still sees her somewhat regularly (which is a good thing!) even though she has "graduated" him. It makes him feel better. We look at our friends and can see where they have weaknesses in their boundaries or in their marriages, and we, as a couple, decide whether to include them in our friend circle, or decide if it is not worth it. We try to keep our circle positive with people working on positive marriages.

But we are most definitely a team. And I think in comparison to a lot of people, we have a pretty good marriage, despite everything we have been through.

For those of you in the six month highs or the two year lows or someplace in between.... It can work, and it can be better than where the relationship is going. It is not easy, on either side and (I can't stress this enough) it takes A LOT OF TIME. I am not one for "forgiveness" on this item - but I am one for acceptance. I can't change what happened, and I can only control how I deal with it. Being angry all the time hurts me, not him. Being sad all the time hurts me, not him.

It is only now, after almost 10 years that I felt comfortable writing this. I'm pretty sure my H would be happy to see it, although I really doubt he comes back here anymore. I know I'm happy to write it.

posts: 1316   ·   registered: Sep. 23rd, 2005
id 6883832

looking forward ( member #25238) posted at 5:23 AM on Saturday, July 26th, 2014

More than 5 years since DDay #2; 27 years from DDay #1.....lived a lie all that time, from 1987 to 2009. My descent into alcoholism (sober 1915 days today), poor communication on both our parts, desperation on both our parts to keep the marriage together but without the truth.

We still struggle, but there are more happy days than bad ones. We both think of the past every day; but I hope this will lessen in time.

On Mother's Day, my H surprised me with a gift.

...and on our 42nd anniversary, we exchanged cards, and enjoyed lunch at our favourite restaurant the next day. This is us back in February at our favourite beach restaurant in Negril, our annual winter two week getaway.

.....and last night I booked our return trip next February.

[This message edited by looking forward at 7:12 PM, October 24th (Thursday)]

Together 56 years, Married 51 years. Sober since 2009. "You've always had the power, my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself." (The Wizard of Oz)

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Reallyscared ( member #43653) posted at 6:16 PM on Tuesday, August 5th, 2014

"Thank you all for sharing, it can feel like losing your mind at so many stages of reconciliation and doubt is so terrifying. "

I read this and it resonated with me. I am 20 months out from DD and got the truth all at once through his own confession. The days where it completely hijacks me and steals my days are getting fewer and fewer. I, too, have days where doubt and indecision about whether I'm doing the right thing seem to grip me but there are many days where I can see a light at the end of this terribly dark tunnel.

Hang in there everyone. Your stories inspire me and I hope to be in complete R someday and be a light for you all reading here.

Keep the inspiring stories coming!!


Me: 40
Him: 40, ONS
DD: Nov, 2012
Married 17 years, together 20.
"Sometimes we are taken into troubled waters, not to drown, but to be cleansed"

posts: 86   ·   registered: Jun. 7th, 2014
id 6898549

GodRedeems ( new member #44666) posted at 11:12 PM on Tuesday, August 26th, 2014

We are 20 months into our marriage renewal. It's not always easy, but it is always good. Every time she hurts, it provides an opportunity for me to lovingly put the pieces of her heart back together. IThankfully, God loves a prodigal and my amazing wife loving and graciously accepted me in spite of my betrayal. Some days might be one step forward and two steps back, but we work through it together.

Hang in there folks. Hearts can change. Love and trust can be restored. Like the mythological phoenix, your marriage can emerge from the ashes refreshed and recharged!!

*Please do not solicit your products/blogs.

[This message edited by SI Staff at 5:44 PM, August 26th (Tuesday)]

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Looking4myHeart ( new member #44746) posted at 7:48 PM on Wednesday, September 3rd, 2014

I have been reading threads on this site for several days, and this forum on reconciliation has been the most helpful and encouraging so far. I am so relieved to hear uplifting stories of people who have made it through the storm with their marriages intact. It is exactly the pick-me-up I've been looking for, seeing these stories and finding HOPE that maybe OUR marriage can survive.

I chose "Looking4myHeart" as a username, because I can honestly say that it felt like my heart was ripped out 2 years ago and I have been walking around like the TinMan aimlessly looking for it.

I won't go into a long-winded account of how our marriage self-destructed two years ago, but to keep it simple, my husband had a covert texting/flirting EA with a waitress at a place he frequently visited on the lunch hour. She pursued him with a vengeance, even after I found the texting evidence and the whole EA came to light.

Then 6 months ago, she stalked me and our daughters on Facebook and a whole lot of other clues came out, including a picture with my husband kissing her on the forehead, and the PA was revealed shortly after. Needless to say, the ugly truth all came out, and like MANY stories I've read here, when the affair is finally scrutinized in the light of day, and the guilt kicks in, the affair isn't all that 'grand' anymore. He ended it…not without some big fireworks when the OW made a huge scene in front of two of our kids, sadly.

Lots of hard, tearful conversations later, my husband and I are working on this and making significant progress. He has been so loving and caring these last couple of months. We are still separated (after him leaving in Oct 2013), but we see each other every day for the sake of our four kids. I will say he has been Wonder Dad since everything happened. He is trying so hard to make up for lost time. He tells me every single night before he leaves that he loves me, and his hugs are so very tender and genuine now. (For years I got an eye-roll and an obligatory hug…so his REAL hugs mean the world to me now.)

I have done sooooo much self-reflection in the last six months, read about a dozen books, went to counseling both with a marriage counselor and my pastor, went to doctor and in humiliating fashion requested STD testing and anti-depressants. Gotta admit, taking care of ME FIRST was extremely good advice. I've now lost 36 pounds and am finally back in the same fitness/weight range as my college years.

I know with faith and patience and lots of TLC and forgiveness, we will eventually have a healthy marriage again. I love my husband beyond words - never did stop or question loving him even at our lowest. It's been the most difficult tragedy we've ever faced (and believe me, we've had several other traumas/deaths that were NOT as hard as this betrayal) but I know with God's help and guidance, we are definitely going to survive.

THANK YOU so much, SI, for being here for all of us betrayed spouses. This website has given me an emotional boost - crucial to my maintaining some kind of optimism. God bless all you other ladies and gentlemen out there who are struggling - DON'T GIVE UP!

"Yet each man kills the thing he loves; by each let this be heard: some do it with a bitter look, some with a flattering word. The coward does it with a kiss; the brave man, with a sword." - Oscar Wilde

posts: 42   ·   registered: Sep. 3rd, 2014
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LA44 ( member #38384) posted at 7:55 PM on Wednesday, September 3rd, 2014

Great input CopingGirl and Looking Forward - and congrats on your sobriety too. That is wonderful!

Continued peace and growth and grace to all of you.

Me: 44
He: 47 WH
Married: 15 years
D Day: December 2012
Affair: Fall 2009 - Dec. 2011
R is not linear

posts: 3442   ·   registered: Feb. 7th, 2013   ·   location: Canada, eh
id 6933294

Rebuildingman ( new member #39861) posted at 6:36 PM on Thursday, September 18th, 2014

We are renewing our marriage vows tomorrow, which is our 27th anniversary. We have spent the last 14 months in counseling - both marriage and personal.

It has been a long but fruitful journey with lots of hurts but also lots of joy along the way.

Our relationship is the best its ever been and I personally have grown so much during this time that I can't even begin to describe.

We as a couple are blessed by God, our friends, family, and an incredibly caring group of counselors. I am blessed by the most wonderful woman in the world - my wife - to whom I am completely committed to in all ways for the rest of our lives.

I am a rebuilding man - a work in progress

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id 6950501

PainfulReminder ( member #41146) posted at 2:01 AM on Monday, September 29th, 2014

We are 1.5years past my full brutal confession. While many feel it is too soon to count as a success story we are our own people on our own timeline. Everyday he is still beside me, loving me, is a success story. Of course not having an affair is a better choice... If you went down that road full confession has an amazing power to it.

posts: 72   ·   registered: Oct. 28th, 2013
id 6962023

Shayna71 ( member #42105) posted at 8:37 PM on Monday, October 6th, 2014

1 year "Antiversary" and no tears...

I posted this in the Reconciliation general are first, but just realized, it really belongs here.

I was ready....ready for the emotional roller coaster to start up again, ready for the sobbing and the crushing pain, ready for the DDay anniversary devastation I have read SO much about on here. The whole week prior to DDay is really a mine field of mini anniversaries of "DDay precursors" and I was dreading it. I had talked about it with H numerous times, and in MC.

I had some trouble over the summer a few times(affair was late June until DDay Sep 20th)thinking about what was going on last year at that time. We have been working hard at R and I believe we are doing well. I haven't found one thing in the last year to make me think he isn't 100% in it, and he does everything he can to make me feel better.

SO I was really getting nervous, thinking about the date coming up. Weeks ago I started getting anxious. I began telling myself that rather than think about it as a reminder of what happened, I was going to try to use it as a "It's now been a YEAR, on WHOLE YEAR, every day on the calendar, since he was betraying me. After Sep 20th, I could say to myself "THIS time last year, the A was over. Then every day for the rest of time, I can look back and say "this day last year"...and there will be nothing to do with affair.

My H bday is the 17th and we were going to do something that weekend (20th, DDay). He suggested that instead we go visit our daughter at college. She is our youngest, and a freshman out of state. We were missing her, and so we went to visit for the weekend. I worried at first because I though I might be a total mess, and didn't want her to see anything. Then I thought that the 5 hour drive might be a good time for H and I to TALK. (The word "talk" now has 2 meanings at our house. The normal one, and the "you know what I want to talk about talk")

H admitted later that he planned the trip thinking that having something positive to distract me on this day would help, and I guess it did. I didn't even think about it being DDay until I had gotten up, gotten ready, and we were 30 minutes down the road. That probably wouldn't sound like any big deal to someone who has never gone through this, but to me that is monumental. I remember months of wondering if I would ever again be able to wake up and NOT think of the A before I even opened my eyes.

I though about "talking" on the way, but decided I really didn't feel the need so much, and I'd rather not get all upset before I saw my daughter. I did bring it up shortly before we got there, and we talked for about 15 minutes, but nothing major. I just didn't have the desire to delve into it.

So no tears, no sobs, no devastation. A sadness, and a desire to have the day be over. I think part of me felt like I was SUPPOSED to feel awful, and cry and fall apart. That seems to be what usually happens. But I didn't. The day passed. We had a really nice weekend with our daughter. It was non-eventful.


Me: BW 46
Him: WH 43
3 month EA and PA w/a mutual friend
DDay 09/20/2013
Married over 20 years
DS 25, DS, 18 DD, 17 (On DDay)
Currently in R

Why Repentance Is Necessary? Because Undeserved Mercy Empowers Entitlement/Sin

posts: 328   ·   registered: Jan. 17th, 2014   ·   location: Indiana
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sandrac ( member #45208) posted at 6:38 AM on Wednesday, October 15th, 2014

Since this thread is for positive reconciliation stories, I will leave the negatives for another thread. We have been hyper bonding for a month and this has brought us closer than we have been in years. My SO has also taken stock of all of his unfair treatment of me including his infidelity and has proven that he is on a mission to make it all up to me. He has been pampering and spoiling me. I've had foot massages, breakfast in bed, roses, and so on. He voluntarily gave me access to his call logs and is quick to embrace me when I have a crying spell. He has also cried with me and without me on occasion. Every morning he apologizes to me and tells me he will not give up until he has earned my trust and love again. For the first time in our ten years together, he lets me yell at him and express my anger without shutting me off. Previously he would just go to bed and leave me there with unexpressed anger. Now I get to shout and he listens, faces it with shame and regret.

posts: 168   ·   registered: Oct. 13th, 2014   ·   location: hollywood, Florida
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broken1873 ( member #44564) posted at 5:09 PM on Thursday, November 6th, 2014


You said you did EMDR, I am too doing that. I have extreme obsessive thoughts/visuals that just consume my every thought. Did you find it worked for you? I'm on session 7 and i don't find any difference yet. Of course I was hoping for a miracle but there isn't one. I'm constant anxiety medication to keep my calmer cuz these episodes hit so often.

Your story encourages me, I'm only 3 months out & I just feel like I struggle so much. We have good moments but always with anxiety. Some days are still horrible, crying, yelling, telling her I want her to leave. It's awful. I just want to be over the rollercoaster & hurt. I've read 4 books, seeing 2 counselors, taking anti-depressants & anti-anxiety meds, I don't know what else to do. I know i love her but have so much anger & hurt.

Partnered: 11 years
Me(female): 41
Her: 35
Dday: Aug 7, 2014 (one time event in June 2014)
Working on reconciliation.

Facing the most pain I've ever endured but will persevere no matter where that takes me.

posts: 371   ·   registered: Aug. 19th, 2014   ·   location: PA - Currently La La Land
id 7002204

donna3 ( member #44976) posted at 4:06 PM on Friday, November 7th, 2014


Good to read your post. Like you were, I am approaching DDay next week. Thinking it may be a rough week ahead, but hoping for the best. Our R is going well but I still have my really rough patches. fWH is doing everything in his power to make it up to me, but thoughts and images of 2.5 yr A still kicks me in the gut at times. I hope I can write a post like you - that things went OK, no major breakdowns. I am so willing to let go of the past but I just can't seem to forget. No IC, just reading a lot on the internet and focusing on the good. We have worked on our M and things are going really well. Better than in a long, long time. Like you, I want to get past the thought of, "last year at this time he was....". I hope that this is the case. Fingers crossed....

Healing,in R
Married 39 years now, grown children
DD: 11/14/13,EA PA,TT
DD2: 9/12/14 found out LTPA of 2.5 yrs
Age 62 Yikes!

posts: 649   ·   registered: Sep. 23rd, 2014   ·   location: Ohio
id 7003409

intheblinkofaney ( member #45537) posted at 5:11 PM on Friday, November 7th, 2014

New to the forum and I pray to be posting in this topic ! First MC session today together. He has been once on is own and once in IC.

4 weeks since DD

Please KeepPosting these positive stories , I really need them !

[This message edited by intheblinkofaney at 11:22 AM, November 7th (Friday)]

You and me, we made a vow
For better or for worse
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof is in the way it hurts
10-12-14 D-Day
3-24-15 Giving R a chance

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id 7003503

sadone29 ( member #38597) posted at 4:58 PM on Thursday, November 27th, 2014

I know we're not supposed to erase posts, but I do feel uncomfortable that I have a post in this thread.

I am so much happier and more at peace since our separation. I hope for whatever is right and best for healing for everyone.

DDay Feb. 28, 2013
"It is an act of self-respect and preservation to not forgive."
He finally moved out only because I became on obstacle in his new affair.

posts: 1002   ·   registered: Mar. 1st, 2013
id 7024215

tryingsodanghard ( member #43590) posted at 10:13 PM on Saturday, December 13th, 2014

We are about to close out our second year of R and domestic partnership. Not sure we'll marry again, seems so hollow, but taxes and health care and all...anyway, not sure.

WW and I were talking in bed last night, no sex, but lots of touching and hand holding. Uncharacteristically, she turned to me and told me she is fully aware of how lucky she and her daughter are to have me and how much she is thankful we are in R.

Her AP was a man from her past that has always known which buttons to push to get her loaded and in the sack, but he is gone for good, married to another idiot up north. Now she just has to do the hard work of changing her demeanor and behavior in public. Before the A, I thought nothing of how popular she was, how well-like by both genders, and her long term friendships with both. In light of the A, she can no longer behave like that, and it's hard (we're both heavily tattooed and stared at a lot) for her to lose that "Scarlett and her Suitors" feeling when we are out. Before the A I thought it was cute and funny, since she was going home with me. Now, of course, she can never behave like that again. And she's trying to be more stand offish and cling to her man in public. Her friends have commented on it.

I'll call that a win.

M in 2005
DS born in 2008
Me BH 52
She WW 42
1st D Day 5-2-2012
2nd D Day 5-4-2013
Separated 6-2012
Divorced 9-11-2012
"Reconciled" 7-1-2013
Finally called it quits 2-7-2015
7 y.o. son
15 y.o. xSD who hates ME now

posts: 147   ·   registered: May. 31st, 2014   ·   location: South
id 7041395

swank ( member #42835) posted at 1:50 PM on Sunday, December 14th, 2014

Yesterday, for reasons I can't comprehend, I went "pain shopping" and it ruined my day. But my WH was strong and stable and supportive. We talked a lot, he didn't get defensive, we both cried, he took full and total responsibility for what he'd done and acknowledged that he could never make it up to me but he would spend his whole life trying.

I felt and feel very grateful for that. It's not easy for him, either, and when he stays in control and expresses his remorse to thoroughly, I feel so much more hope for us.

posts: 182   ·   registered: Mar. 20th, 2014   ·   location: United States
id 7041836

CRazz ( new member #31621) posted at 4:12 AM on Thursday, December 18th, 2014

4 Years ago I made the biggest mistake of my life, and I've been working since then to become a better person and show my wonderful wife that she is the center of my universe! I am thankful for everyday I get to be a better person for her and myself.

I love you Jrazz.

[This message edited by CRazz at 11:17 PM, December 17th (Wednesday)]

Me(32): FWH
Jrazz(34): BS
DDay: Dec 17, 2010
Gorgeous, amazing DD3.5
R. Small steps forward is still progress!

posts: 31   ·   registered: Mar. 25th, 2011   ·   location: California
id 7046372

eachdayisvictory ( member #40462) posted at 9:10 PM on Tuesday, December 23rd, 2014

Not a lot of action in this thread. I wanted to read some positive stories, but have seen all the significant ones here already.

So, I want to add to it. It's tough to identify as a positive story, but I think most of us should be on here.

This week I have been incredibly ill due to a terrible reaction to antibiotics taken for strep throat. I have been vomiting and other unpleasant things while prepping for Christmas with a 3 and 6 year old. It's been rough. When times get tough like this, I find it harder to stay positive. I find myself drifting to thoughts of what my H was doing with another when I was sick like this before, or what it would be like if I was alone as a parent. I feel extremely emotional and seek out comfort.

So, here's my comfort for myself; I'm here, my family is here, we are making it, we are problem solving together, our children are well cared for, loved, and secure. I love and am loved. I say, (to myself mostly) stop questioning the love! Stop comparing, stop wondering if this love is right, what other feelings are possible. Just look at the love that lives in my life. It's beautiful, it's amazing, and it's real. It may not be full of movie-passionate making out while I empty my stomach into the toilet - but who the fuck wants that anyway. Not me.

I want to be with a partner that knows it all. I want to feel my own love expand as I care for my partner when he is unable to, and feel the love burst as we really, I mean REALLY, co-parent our children in an open, honest and tender way. The truth is, that's the love I live in right now, and I am so lucky to have it. So is my partner, so are my babies. My family is amazing, and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else on earth, not even as sick as I feel.

Mine is a real life love story. That's my joy today. Merry Christmas.

me, BW: 37
FWH: 38
together 19 years, M 13 years
Dday: Feb 2013
LTA for 2+years
children: 2 boys age 6 and 9

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id 7052534

iwillNOT ( member #40605) posted at 9:14 PM on Tuesday, December 23rd, 2014

Thank you to all who share here, it means so much to so many. I wish all of you continued love and happiness.

Me: BS, 46
Him: WH, 47
Together 24 years
4 amazing kids
Dday#1 2004, 3 years after EA/PA co-worker MOW
Dday#2 8-6-13, 13 months EA/9months PA with co-worker MOW - caught not confessed
Choosing myself daily and R almost every day

posts: 702   ·   registered: Sep. 9th, 2013   ·   location: Midwest
id 7052536
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