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Stevesn, I never thought about telling her what she did broke something inside of me and that I built walls up to protect myself, very good point! I guess I was only thinking of her explaining her part to me and not thinking of telling her what happened to me inside as the result of her infidelity.

I’ve read enough on here to realize IC would help me sort this out but she’s not big on any type of therapy. She would go if I pushed it but what would her attitude be when we got there?

Yes, if we don’t do anything then things will stay exactly the same, she’s probably fine with that because I don’t think she completely understands how bad this hurt me. That takes us back to what you said about letting her know her actions broke something inside me!

HouseOfPlane,

Nice to have another aviator on here!
Freespotting sounds very intriguing! Therapy I can do myself anytime and anywhere means I can start right away and go as long as I want or need to. Thanks so much for letting me know about this!

Sounds like you had a similar experience getting hit with emotions and feelings that you thought were in the past and never coming back only to haunt you years later. Boy do I understand!

I do believe what you wrote below,

"I’m a firm believer that why while your wife can help you, the true answers are within you".

Thanks!

DobleTraicion,

Yes, we do have a lot in common! This is one of the big things that helped me when I found this place. The peace of knowing someone else has been through what I’ve been through and that they understand exactly how I feel! It’s comforting to me!

That’s great that you found someone who you can trust and who understands you. I don’t think I could ever trust another woman because I can’t go through that pain again, too much hurt!

I understand about not getting the resolution I desire, it’s been 33 years living the same way, why should she think it will ever be different.

I have accepted that I chose to stay with someone who hurt me in the worst possible way, I just don’t think she realizes the pain she caused and that’s partly on me for not showing her.

When she said she wanted a chance to tell her side of the story it made me wonder how could she have any remorse if she needs to explain to others why she cheated on me. Very confusing!

Your comment below is true but it still stings. I am hoping we can have a better relationship but that means things need to change!

"That continuing to stay with her is a tacit admission on your part that it is also "good enough" for you (can be tough to swallow).

Yes, I will continue to post on here and I sincerely appreciate everyone’s kindness and help!

BTW this 60 something is fine being coached up lol

[This message edited by 31RS at 12:57 AM, Sunday, August 9th]

I just don’t think she realizes the pain she caused and that’s partly on me for not showing her.

Most prbably not, and again, she may not have the capacity to do do.

Its been discussed here many times that a severe empathy defecit on the part of the wayward just ends up prolonging tbe pain in tbe betrayed, particulaly if tbe betrayed is hoping for that empathy to help them heal.

I think youd agree by now that the probability of getting any measure of that is pretty low at this late date. In all fairness, she may have internal hang ups such as the fear of letting that pain, guilt and hurt in as she doesnt think she could handle it, so she just walls it off. This too has been talked about a lot around here.

If a fuller measure of healing is to be had for you, it is going to have to happen on your side only. This is one of the reasons that Im encouraging you to seek IC. Yeh, even us 60 somethings can benefit from being "coached up" in this regard

[This message edited by DobleTraicion at 12:33 AM, Sunday, August 9th]

DobleTraicion, you make a very good point, she might not have the capacity to understand the pain she put me through.

I never considered the possibility of her having a severe empathy deficit either.

One thing I have learned here at SI is the BS heals the BS and IC can definitely help.

I don’t expect a lot of questions answered but I’d like to be able to sit down and have a civil discussion about what she did and our relationship moving forward. I don’t expect her questions to heal me I just need for her to tell me her story. I won’t judge her, it’s been way too long!

BTW, This 60 something doesn’t mind being coached up lol.

[This message edited by 31RS at 12:59 AM, Sunday, August 9th]