Living in hopeville.
Read it’s not a friendly town for me
Told me he’s not happy; hasn’t been for ....years,....
Took him that long to verbalize.
Found out a girl he took a liking to.
“They hugged. “
Then confessed to “kissing”
then confessed to ...well.
The truth trickles.
He wanted to separate :
he wanted divorce..,,..convicted in his choice.
I found apt.
N started packing. Getting ready for move.
Then .
Found condoms.
He said it that’s “where it was going”......but “it didn’t get there”
25 years together.
22 years married
8y/o adopted daughter
4 moves in 4 years.
Not a happy marriage x 5 years.
I didn’t cheat.
I was in same unhappy place.
Just never imagine it would come to this.
I’m 4 weeks into new apt/ true physical separation.
He is on my mind constantly.
I’m owning up to my failures.
Yes. It’s been a rough ride for history’s sake - and I had resentment. Poor communication anger blame selfishness
Him. “It’s all your (my) fault”
He is “tired of being blamed for our failures. “......
I could give more history.
It’s both of us.
But.
I didn't cheat.
I didn’t walk away physically.
I guess he equates him moving on to us being broken.
He has “no hope”. “No desire”........
And he says “I’m not with her “......and “does it matter if I’m with her or some one else “,,,,,
No parenting plan. No legal separation
No attorneys as of yet.
Part of our marriage issue: he never plans for tomorrow.
So I’m riding that.
Yea. N his dad passed away 6weeks ago.
He didn’t need nor want me there.
That was my father in law. For 22years.
I now know what a slug feels like when sprinkled with salt.
Yea. Hopeville sucks.
Don’t pass go.
Do not collect $200.00
I know.
It’s time to move on to where -ever -ville .
Hour by hour
Breath by breath.
This is suckville.
This is the town NO ONE EVER WANTS TO VISIT. A