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Infidelity, my B.I.L, my sister and a house move

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 Bulcy (original poster member #74034) posted at 9:48 PM on Tuesday, July 4th, 2023

Some of you may be aware that while on holiday in Germany with my BIL we hired a prostitute. This was hidden from my BS until 2022. The infidelity happening in 2006.

I told my sister about elements of my infidelity in 2018 and until 2021 she was supportive and gave me her time to speak and release some of my frustrations during my false R. My sister did not and does not know about the incident in Germany. Since I told BS about this incident, I have barely spoken to my sister. One reason being an argument with BIL and also (more recently) embarrassment and shame for my actions and the huge impact this could have on my whole family.

My BIL is abusive, I've witnessed intimidation and psychological abusive behaviour. This being directed at my sister, my wife, my nephews, my mother, me and so many others. He is, in my mind, unstable. He took a baseball bat to a car parked outside his house. He pinned another guys against a wall and had to be pulled off of him because of a minor RTA.

Something I am working on is what to do with this. Do I or don't I tell my sister? What will be the repercussions of this? How will BIL react to this? How will family react? The questions go on and on. This is something that needs addressing and this will happen with the support of IC and BS.

This post is basically a recent update. A few weeks back I got a text message from my sister on my birthday. A brief exchange of How are you? etc and she then told me that they had sold their house and were moving. Moving about 20 miles away. I am absolutely blown away. BS and I have no idea what the fuck we're gong to do. I've put us in a position that is causing a great amount of anxiety, stress and upset. We talk on here about ripples following the infidelity. this is a tidal wave. I have been compartmentalising this and hiding it away. I am working on my ownership of my infidelity. This is a struggle and I have not reached out for the support I can get. I feel such guilt for the hurt I have put on my BS. The damage I've done to her emotionally and physically. Neither of us are well at the moment and we're just about functioning. I try to face this every day but I'm not doing it well. I have been selfish with this particular act. I have been too scared to even contemplate the fall out. Now it is right on top of us. More shit to deal with because I've acted in so many despicable ways. I don't know how to process this.

WH (50's)

Multiple sexual, emotional and online affairs. Financial infidelity and emotional abuse. Physical abuse and intimidation.

D-days 2003, 2017, multiple d-days and TT through 2018 to 2023. 28 years of destructive and health damaging choice

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DaddyDom ( member #56960) posted at 8:47 PM on Wednesday, July 5th, 2023

I wish I had some good advice for you. I don't.

One thing I learned along the way through R is that I cannot, and must not, take accountability for other people's choices and actions. Some might refer to that as "emotional blackmail". A good example of this that we see sometimes on SI is when a WS tells a BS that if they leave, the WS will kill themselves. Then the BS is stuck with the notion that they are somehow responsible for what their WS does if they leave. But that's not true, and it's not fair.

If what you say about your BIL is accurate and true, then he is already a threat and a danger to his wife and kids. Yeah, opening this can of worms could set off a shit-storm, and I can see how you might have reservations about that. No one wants to think that maybe their actions caused someone else to do something horrible, or get innocent people hurt. But again, we cannot control others. Your sister is currently making the decision to stay with him, but she's doing so without all the facts. Let me ask you this... suppose that your BIL's infidelity (the trip with the prostitute) suddenly comes to light, and he mentions to your sister that you were involved and knew all along, and chose not to tell her. How do you think she would feel about that? How would she view your reluctance to say anything to her? Would she see it as love for her, or CYA for yourself? Now, compare that with saying, "Sis, I know this is gonna hurt, but I love you enough to risk your anger so that you can have the truth...". One outcome just reinforces that you are an untrustworthy liar. The other option makes you someone who did their best to do the right thing, even when it meant throwing themselves under the bus. Who do you want to be?

There is a time when the truth needs to come to light. You've been lying to everyone for a long time, and this is just one more. Ask yourself this... what are you most afraid of? What your BIL or sister might do? Or how you will feel about what they do?

FWIW, this might be something of a blessing if things go wrong. When you say they are planning to "move 20 miles away", do you mean 20 miles away from where they live now? Or 20 miles away from you? I am assuming the latter. If so, then if things go wrong, it will be MUCH easier for your sister to come to your place for safety, or for you to go to her if she needs you. Just a thought.

I'd like to see what others have to say. There is no "right answer" to this one. IMO, by coming out and telling your sister the truth, you are opening the door to healing your relationship with your sister. And by proxy, perhaps your own marriage as well. Remember, what your wife wants to see is you "owning" your decisions. They don't have to be decisions about HER. She just needs to see some integrity from you, and a willingness to take the heat. It's not about punishment, it's just accountability.

Me: WS
BS: ISurvivedSoFar
D-Day Nov '16
Status: Reconciling
"I am floored by the amount of grace and love she has shown me in choosing to stay and fight for our marriage. I took everything from her, and yet she chose to forgive me."

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