Topic is Sleeping.
qwert (original poster new member #57498) posted at 4:37 AM on Wednesday, May 4th, 2022
After five years, what’s it like today?
I needed to come back for more healing. In January, I was a mess again. I was not trusting. I was hypervigilant about my wife’s moods and her drinking. I was suspicious. I was angry—or an underlying thread of resentment for what she did five years ago and for what i am experiencing now. What was my wife doing—she was breathing and living her life. She was taking care of her parents in their 90s. It was just before the five year anniversary of d-day.
I am afraid to be fully vulnerable and commit 100% to our renewed relationship. I am afraid of another traumatic event. I am afraid of being happy. I just need to say it out loud. To acknowledge where i am today. Unlike prior to d-day, i will share these thoughts with my wife today. Prior to d-day, I kept a lot to myself. Prior to d-day, I detached with contempt. Today, I try to communicate the best I can.
Today, I want a better future for us. I want to be happy at the core. I want to be free from fear. I want to just be.
Want2BHappyAgain ( member #45088) posted at 2:02 PM on Monday, June 6th, 2022
Today, I want a better future for us. I want to be happy at the core. I want to be free from fear. I want to just be.
These are GOOD goals to work toward 
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What happened when you shared these thoughts with your wife?
A "perfect marriage" is just two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other.
With God ALL things are possible (Matthew 19:26)
I AM happy again...It CAN happen!!!
From respect comes great love...sassylee
Topic is Sleeping.
