JW...
Welcome to SI, Bro....but sorry youre here...
At this point in my WWs affair...I didn't believe a damn thing she said....and only half of what I saw....cheaters lie - its part of the dynamics of affairs...they will only admit to what they think you already know...then lie some more...
although we have not had sex since September
THIS is a HUGE RED FLAG....Sept was 3 months ago. I'd say yall have some marital issues BEFORE her affair...sex and intimacy are the glue that hold marriages together....your marriage was in trouble before she cheated on you....how are ya'lls (yeah...im from Texas too) communication skills? Your intimacy levels? Do you do everything you can to make her feel sexy, desirable, attractive, loved.....? Her going to bed at night alone while you watch porn and "handle it yourself" does NOT make her feel that way...
No, Bro....not suggesting her affair is your fault - just trying to figure out her "thought process" about her cheating. I believe that there are several "reasons" why women cheat.
1) they are "broken"...and seek outside validation from other men to fulfill their emotional needs to "feel good" about themselves. They indulge in "risk behavior"....compulsive behavior...one night stands, etc.
AND/OR ...
2). Their emotional needs aren't being met within the marriage. I believe that some women that feel "alone", "unappreciated or not listened to", "not heard", etc will cheat to have those emotional needs met....I think some women in "sexless marriages" (less that 10 times a year is considered "sexless") will seek other men to fulfill those needs...and by the time the H figures it out....shes checked out...
No...its not your fault shes cheating on you.....but she may have been sending "signals" that she wasn't happy....husbands sometimes don't see the "hints", or will ignore them... I do believe something, somewhere was "missed" - NOT handled properly....I did own part of my FWWs and my marital issues - the FWW owned all of her choice to cheat on me...
My advice....tell her what is acceptable to you...set your limitations...tell her....once. Then draw a line in the dirt - like Travis at the Alamo.....and back it up. If shes still dating other men...you have 2 choices: live with it, or don't. accept it or file for divorce. Then hit that 180 - hard...
You will not "nice guy" her back....crying and whining will not do it...its not sexy or attractive. You cannot fix this with a few trips to a shrink...or a weekend of make up sex...R is a long road...it takes time...a long time. It is not an 8 second ride (rodeo joke - get it)? And she has to want to firstand do a lot of things first (before your "give a shit" quits working)....true remorse, transparency, IC for pre-affair issues, etc.
R is possible....lot of shit has to happen first......dating others must stop first...My wife got out of her affair fog when I filed for D.....up until then she was humping my leg... and OM.. its all in my profile - feel free to look at it...
Until you get a "snotting, blubbering, crying, im so sorry I hurt you, mascara dripping off her chin" apology...you got shit.. hit that 180... laywer up....
JMO ...
keep us posted ...
Bufffalo
[This message edited by bufffalo at 6:42 AM, December 14th (Sunday)]