Topic is Sleeping.
Groot1988 (original poster member #84337) posted at 2:07 AM on Thursday, June 13th, 2024
All I hear is " run forest run!"
Kidding. 
Yes I do and it’s a lot of different feelings that I think I suppressed for a long long long freaking time and my therapist thinks the A brought out a lot of those feelings and I agree.
I spent a lot of my time at the gym tonight and I make sure after sessions I don’t come straight home. Thank you for the check in and the advice, I’m going to go at the pace that I can handle but friend, I see why they say 2-5 years to heal. Hell a whole year or more will be spent on just my own healing. 
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Married 5 years (together 11) Four children Me Bs 36Him WH 35- 4 month PA Dday Oct 6- lots of TT final disclosure Jan 16.
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InkHulk ( member #80400) posted at 2:23 AM on Thursday, June 13th, 2024
I spent a lot of my time at the gym tonight and I make sure after sessions I don’t come straight home.
Mad mad respect for tackling this stuff and the intelligence choices you are making like hitting the gym.
Thank you for the check in and the advice, I’m going to go at the pace that I can handle but friend, I see why they say 2-5 years to heal. Hell a whole year or more will be spent on just my own healing.
Oh, hell yes it will. And that is ok. You are where you are and you are going to value yourself and bring health back for your own joy and your children’s joy. You are going to model to your children self investment and self love. You rock!
People are more important than the relationships they are in.
Copingmybest ( member #78962) posted at 10:05 AM on Friday, June 14th, 2024
Groot, glad you are diving into your healing. My therapist eased me into the EMDR and we would just work on small snippets of things. That worked well for me but like you mentioned, it brought back memories of my teenage self and how I lacked self esteem and confidence as a teen. Then I learned how that carried over to my adult life. We worked through all of this and it made me realize I was living a lie. I was actually a great person with great integrity and morals and that is something that is attractive in a person. I now see my value and worth. Hell, last Sundays session my therapist actually got me to admit that I can meet my own emotional needs. I don't need my wife for that. As soon as those words came out of my mouth I about shit. But what's crazier is I now believe those words as well. You'll get there Groot. It's not easy but the results are very empowering.
Topic is Sleeping.
