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“You’re Wondering Now” by the Specials

“You're wondering now

What to do

Now you know this is the end

You're wondering how

You will pay

For the way you did me in

Curtain has fallen

Now you're on your own

I won't return

Forever you will wait

You're wondering now

What to do

Now you know this is the end”

ETA: Lest there be any confusion, I’m hearing this as directed TO a betrayer. Not words I could sing.

[This message edited by JBWD at 9:30 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)]

The National "About Today"

I first heard this song a few weeks after D-Day. It stopped me dead in my tracks. I instantly thought "this is what he must feel." I replayed it ten times just crying in front of my computer. I put it on my playlist and listen to it about every day.

[Verse 1]

Today

You were far away

And I

Didn't ask you "Why?"

What could I say?

I was far away

You just walked away

And I just watched you

What could I say?

[Chorus]

How close am I

To losing you?

[Verse 2]

Tonight

You just close your eyes

And I just watch you

Slip away

[Chorus]

How close am I

To losing you?

[Verse 3]

Hey

Are you awake?

Yeah, I'm right here

Well, can I ask you

About today?

"Better Than I Used To Be" by Tim McGraw

I know how to hold a grudge

I can send a bridge up in smoke

And I can't count the people I've let down, the hearts I've broke

You ain't gotta dig too deep

If you wanna find some dirt on me

I'm learning who you've been

Ain't who you've got to be

It's gonna be an uphill climb

Aww honey I won't lie

I ain't no angel

I still got a few more dances with the devil

I’m cleaning up my act little by little

I’m getting there

I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see

I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get

But I’m better than I used to be

I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground

I’ve got a few old habits left

But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get

Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust

But put some faith in me

And someday you’ll see

There’s a diamond under all this dust

I ain't no angel

I still got a few more dances with the devil

I’m cleaning up my act little by little

I’m getting there

I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see

I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get

But I’m better than I used to be

I ain't no angel

I still got a few more dances with the devil

But I’m cleaning up my act little by little

I’m getting there

I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see

I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get

But I’m better than I used to be

For the other half of the sky

Woman, I can hardly express

My mixed emotions at my thoughtlessness

After all I'm forever in your debt

And woman, I will try express

My inner feeling and thankfulness

For showing me the meaning of success

Woman, I know you understand

The little child inside the man

Please remember my life is in your hands

And woman, hold me close to your heart

However distant don't keep us apart

After all it is written in the stars

Woman, please let me explain

I never meant to cause you sorrow or pain

So let me tell you again and again and again

I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever

I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever

I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever

I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever

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I owe her everything for giving me the gift of R...... I cry everytime it plays on the radio.

[This message edited by MrCleanSlate at 10:37 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)]

Tears... stupid radio...

ETA I can barely get through a trip to the market as they tend to play fairly maudlin and emotional tracks for some reason.

[This message edited by JBWD at 11:32 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)]

MrRiver and I had a get together a couple of years ago with friends, some drinking, just having a good time, when this song came across the playlist. We looked across the room at each other, smiled and raised our glasses, it was like our own private moment to say

"we got this." Now we feel that it is our secret song.

Here's to Us - Halestorm

We could just go home right now

Or maybe we could stick around

For just one more drink, oh yeah

Get another bottle out

Lets shoot the shit

Sit back down

For just one more drink, oh yeah

Here's to us, here's to love

All the times that we fucked up

Here's to you, fill the glass

'Cause the last few days have kicked my ass

So lets give 'em hell

Wish everybody well, here's to us, here's to us

Stuck it out this far together

Put our dreams through the shredder

Let's toast 'cause things got better

And everything could change like that

And all these years go by so fast

But nothing lasts forever

Here's to us, here's to love

All the times, that we messed up

Here's to you, fill the glass

'Cause the last few nights have kicked my ass

If they give ya hell

Tell em to go fuck themselves, here's to us, here's to us

Here's to all that we kissed

And to all that we missed

To the biggest mistakes

That we just wouldn't trade

To us breaking up

Without us breaking down

To whatever's comin' our way

Here's to us, here's to love

All the times that we fucked up

Here's to you, fill the glass

'Cause the last few days have kicked my ass

So lets give 'em hell

Wish everybody well

Here's to us, here's to love

All the times, that we messed up

Here's to you, fill the glass

'Cause the last few nights have kicked my ass

If they give ya hell

Tell em to go fuck themselves, here's to us, here's to us (Go fuck themselves)

Here's to us, here's to us

Here's to us, here's to us

Here's to us, here's to love

Here's to us, wish everybody well

Here's to us, here's to love

Here's to us, here's to us

JBWD,

I hear you!

[This message edited by MrCleanSlate at 1:01 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)]

Little Big Town - "Sugar Coat"

***You must watch the video***

Strange posting this in the wayward forum but it tells a great story. A bit old fashioned in its approach but I think everyone can recognize the pain.

I turn the bathroom light on

To take my makeup off

Look at myself in the eye

And wonder why I wear it anyway

Another car drives by

I wonder where you are

The kids are all in bed

And everything but you is in its place

From the street view looking in

It's pretty as a picture

A home sweet home

Sometimes I wish I liked drinking

Sometimes I wish I liked pills

Wish I could sleep with a stranger

But someone like me never will

Sometimes I hardly can stand it

I just smile with a lump in my throat

Sometimes I wish I could bear it

Didn't have to wear this sugar coat

Passed down from my mom

She wore it so well

She'd rest it on my shoulders

Say it's colder out there than you think

Would I recognize myself

Would anybody else

If I took the damn thing off and burned it up

Sometimes I wish I liked drinking

Sometimes I wish I liked pills

Wish I could sleep with a stranger

But someone like me never will

Sometimes I hardly can stand it

I just smile with a lump in my throat

Sometimes I wish I could bear it

Didn't have to wear this sugar coat

Oh, this damn sugar coat

And one of these nights I'll meet you in the driveway

And tell you to go to hell

Go to hell

Sometimes I wish I liked drinking

Sometimes I wish I liked pills

Wish I could sleep with a stranger

But someone like me never will

Sometimes I hardly can stand it

I just smile with a lump in my throat

Sometimes I wish I could bear it

Didn't have to wear this sugar coat

This damn sugar coat

Oh, this sugar coat

This damn sugar coat

Sam Smith “I’m not the Only One”

You and me we made a vow

For better or for worse

I can't believe you let me down

But the proof is in the way it hurts

For months on end I've had my doubts

Denying every tear

I wish this would be over now

But I know that I still need you here

You say I'm crazy

'Cause you don't think I know what you've done

But when you call me baby

I know I'm not the only one

You've been so unavailable

Now sadly I know why

Your heart is unobtainable

Even though lord knows you have mine

You say I'm crazy

'Cause you don't think I know what you've done

But when you call me baby

I know I'm not the only one

I have loved you for many years

Maybe I am just not enough

You've made me realize my deepest fear

By lying and tearing us up

You say I'm crazy

'Cause you don't think I know what you've done

But when you call me baby

I know I'm not the only one

[This message edited by Thanksgiving2016 at 6:40 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)]

I have a couple, but this one really spoke to me after dday. Ironic, I really hated this song when it came out, the radio played it to death.

Now, I'm Mr. Brightside...

Coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep

And she's calling a cab

While he's having a smoke

And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now

Let me go

And I just can't look, it's killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep

And she's calling a cab

While he's having a smoke

And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now

Let me go

'Cause I just can't look, it's killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibi

But it's just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside

I never

I never

I never

I never

Looking for a Good Time

David Nail

If heavens where your soul gets fed

The your hell is an empty bed

But it's never hard to keep it full

There ain't too many arms you have to pull

'Cause you think that you're getting love

But they know they're just getting some

And deep inside you know it's true

But you don't dare believe it, do you?

Do you?

You just lay it down like a quarter on the railroad track

If it sticks to the wheel you're never gonna get it back

It won't do you no good to change your mind

'Cause it already feel off somewhere down the line

Now all the boys call you when they're looking for a good time

Looking for a good time

These days they call it casual

Well, that just means they'll leave when they get full

Yeah, they say you're cool 'cause you don't care

But in the morning you always cry if they're not there

And you think if they could only see you now

But I swear they'd do it anyhow

'Cause they'll say anything to play the part

But they don't give a damn about your heart

Your heart

You say, "I love you" and you swear you didn't mean it

'Cause you both agree this would go nowhere

Someday I hope that you get tired

Of waking up with the thieves and liars

Maybe you'll go searching for the truth

The kind that ain't written on a phone booth, no, no

Love the way you lie by Rihanna and Eminem

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright, because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife, in my windpipe

I can't breathe, but I still fight, while I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right, it's like I'm in flight

High off of love drunk from my hate

It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer

I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown

She resuscitates me, she fucking hates me,

And I love it, wait

Where you going, I'm leaving you

No you ain't, come back

We're running right back, here we go again

It's so insane 'cause when it's going good, it's going great

I'm Superman, with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane

But when it's bad, it's awful

I feel so ashamed, I snapped, who's that dude

I don't even know his name, I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again, I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright, because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe, when you're with them, you meet

And neither one of you, even know what hit 'em,

Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills, used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick, of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em,

Now you're in each others face,

Spewing venom, and these words, when you spit 'em

You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em,

Throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments, when you're in 'em

It's the rage that's the culprit, it controls you both

So they say it's best, to go your separate ways,

Guess that they don't know ya 'cause today, that was yesterday

Yesterday is over, it's a different day

Sound like broken records, playin' over, but you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance,

Life is no Nintendo game, but you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave,

Out the window, guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright, because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things, did things

That we didn't mean and we fall back into the same patterns

Same routine, but your temper's just as bad, as mine is

You're the same as me, but when it comes to love, you're just as blinded

Baby please come back, it wasn't you,

Baby it was me, maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now

Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity, in my voice when I talk,

Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the dry wall

Next time, there will be no next time

I apologize even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games, I just want her back, I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'm a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright, because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

"All you had to was stay" by Taylor Swift

People like you always want back the love they gave away

And people like me wanna believe you when you say you've changed

The more I think about it now the less I know

All I know is that you drove us off the road

All you had to do was stay

Had me in the palm of your hand

Then, why'd you had to go and lock me out when I let you in

now you say you want it

Back now that it's just too late

Well could've been easy

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

Here you are now, calling me up, but I don't know what to say

I've been picking up the pieces of the mess you made

People like you always want back the love they pushed aside

But people like me are gone forever when you say goodbye

all you had to do was stay

Had me in the palm of your hand

Then, why'd you had to go and lock me out when I let you in

now you say you want it

Back now that it's just too late

Well could've been easy

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay (stay, stay, stay)

Let me remind you this was what you wanted (oh oh oh)

You ended it

You were all I wanted (oh oh oh)

But not like this

Not like this

Not like this

Oh, all you had to do was stay

Hey, all you had to do was stay

Had me in the palm of your hand

Then, why'd you had to go and lock me out when I let you in

now you say you want it

Back now that it's just too late

Well could've been easy

All you had to do was stay

Hey, all you had to do was stay

Had me in the palm of your hand

Then, why'd you had to go and lock me out when I let you in

now you say you want it

Back now that it's just too late

Well could've been easy (all you had to do was stay)

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay (oh)

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay

All you had to do was stay (ooh)

If We’re Honest

by Francesca Battistelli

Truth is harder than a lie

The dark seems safer than the light

And everyone has a heart that loves to hide

I'm a mess and so are you

We've built walls nobody can get through

Yeah, it may be hard,

but the best thing we could ever do,

ever do...

Is bring your brokenness, and I'll bring mine

'Cause love can heal what hurt divides

And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest

If we're honest

Don't pretend to be something that you're not

Living life afraid of getting caught

There is freedom found when we lay

Our secrets down at the cross,

at the cross

So bring your brokenness, and I'll bring mine

'Cause love can heal what hurt divides

And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest

If we're honest

It would change our lives

It would set us free

It's what we need to be

So bring your brokenness and I'll bring mine

'Cause love can heal what hurt divides

And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest

If we're honest

If we're honest

Tiredsoul that would've been my choice. This spoke to to me in volumes too...for a while. But gave up...eventually.

You tell all the boys no

Makes you feel good yeah

I know you're out of my league

But that won't scare me away oh no

You've carried on so long

You couldn't stop if you tried it

You've built your wall so high

That no one could climb it

But I'm gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful

Would you let me see beneath your perfect

Take it off now girl, take it off now girl

I wanna see inside

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight

You let all the girls go

Makes you feel good, don't it?

Behind your Broadway show

I heard a voice say please don't hurt me

You've carried on so long

You couldn't stop if you tried it

You've built your wall so high

That no one could climb it

But I'm gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful

Would you let me…

"One Night" by Picture This

Late night texts to lyrics from songs

Trying your best to right your wrongs

I know that you're hoping

I'll be a little upset, a little bit drunk

That I'm not lying in bed next to someone

I know that you're wondering

How did we end up here, feels like were strangers

Remember when it used to feel like we were dangerous

Maybe you shouldn't have gone there that night

Maybe you should have told a little less lies

Maybe you shouldn't have gone and ruined my life

For one night, for one night

Maybe you shouldn't have took your lips off mine

Put them on his and thought that you'd be fine

Maybe you shouldn't have gone and ruined my life

For one night, for one night.

it's on the radio now....I've had to start listening to news talk....it's been 2 years since dday...we have been doing great. But what he did, ...it's always there....I forgave him. but it's a scar. healed, but still a Shiney piece of flesh that has meaning.....

Ugh. Related topic- Heard one of my favorite, most inspiring and emotional songs of my adult life- “Heroes” by David Bowie.

Then got curious about the exact meaning behind it, and found this:

“I always said it was a couple of lovers by the Wall that prompted the idea for Heroes,” Bowie told Classic Rock in 2015. “Actually, it was [Bowie producer] Tony Visconti and his girlfriend. Tony was married at the time, so I couldn’t talk about it. But I can now say that the lovers were Tony and a German girl [Antonia Maass] that he’d met while we were in Berlin. I think possibly his marriage was in the last few months. And it was very touching because I could see that Tony was very much in love with this girl, and it was that relationship which sort of motivated the song.”

Barf. Don’t know if I can hear it again.

I never thought a song from a Disney movie would have so much meaning in my life, but when I heard this from Frozen 2, wow. I was sitting in the theater with my daughter watching this cute movie and Bam! It was like tunnel vision just focusing on each word Anna sung.

"The Next Right Thing"

I've seen dark before, but not like this

This is cold, this is empty, this is numb

The life I knew is over, the lights are out

Hello, darkness, I'm ready to succumb

I follow you around, I always have

But you've gone to a place I cannot find

This grief has a gravity, it pulls me down

But a tiny voice whispers in my mind

You are lost, hope is gone

But you must go on

And do the next right thing

Can there be a day beyond this night?

I don't know anymore what is true

I can't find my direction, I'm all alone

The only star that guided me was you

How to rise from the floor?

But it's not you I'm rising for

Just do the next right thing

Take a step, step again

It is all that I can to do

The next right thing

I won't look too far ahead

It's too much for me to take

But break it down to this next breath, this next step

This next choice is one that I can make

So I'll walk through this night

Stumbling blindly toward the light

And do the next right thing

And, with it done, what comes then?

When it's clear that everything will never be the same again

Then I'll make the choice to hear that voice

And do the next right thing

Just Give Me A Reason by Pink and FUN

Right from the start

You were a thief, you stole my heart

And I your willing victim

I let you see the parts of me, that weren't all that pretty

And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh

Things you never say to me oh oh

Tell me that you've had enough

Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand

Where all of this is coming from

I thought that we were fine (Oh we had everything)

Your head is running wild again

My dear we still have everythin'

And it's all in your mind (Yeah but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh

You used to lie so close to me oh oh

There's nothing more than empty sheets between our love, our love

Oh our love, our love

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

I never stop, you're still written in the scars on my heart

You're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Oh tear ducts and rust

I'll fix it for us

We're collecting dust, but our love's enough

You're holding it in

You're pouring a drink

No nothing is as bad as it seems

We'll come clean

Just give me a reason just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

Oh we can learn to love again

Oh we can learn to love again oh oh

Oh that we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

She likes adventure with security

And more than one man can provide

She planned adventure feeling sure that he

Would not be home 'til after five

He turned on the lights and turned them off again

And said the one thing he could say

All these years, where have I been?

Well, I've been down the road to work and home again

And I'm still here, until I'm gone

Don't you rub it in too hard that I've been wrong

All these years

She said, "You're not the man you used to be"

And he said, "Neither is this guy"

She said, "There's some things you refuse to see

But I guess sometimes so do I"

She made no excuse why she was lying there

She said the one thing she could say

All these years, what have I done

I've made your supper and your daughter and your son

Still I'm here and still confused

But I can finally see how much I stand to lose

All these years