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GraceLove posted 9/9/2018 19:11 PM

I went into a health store the other day. It was a shop that I had frequented very regularly and had gotten to know the salesclerk.

At the time, I was married with large boils and pimples on my face, eating-disordered thin, depressed among other things. Just plain unhealthy.

That was 2 years ago.

When she saw me she couldn't believe how much my face had cleared! (I'm also at a good weight). She was happy for me and somewhat intrigued, so I told her how I did it.

" I'm getting divorced!". (lots of smiling and laughing)

We high-fived each other.

Ahhhh...as hellish as this experience has been, there are perks and it is soooooo nice to be reminded of where I was and where I am now.

minusone posted 9/10/2018 05:10 AM

You have come a long way.... finding your power... using it and moving on.

(((GL))) You go girl!!

WhoTheBleep posted 9/10/2018 06:10 AM

Wow, this is a great story, GraceLove. It seems the horror going on inside my body and mind, affected you on the outside as well. So happy you are getting out of a truly unhealthy situation! As am I.

Yaaaay!!!!

Heart posted 9/10/2018 06:36 AM

Yay!

Chrysalis123 posted 9/10/2018 06:54 AM

Good for you!!!

traicionada posted 9/10/2018 10:38 AM

In the bumpy road towards healing, it is easy to forget how far we have come; thus, I am glad the salesclerk reminded you that you are moving on the right direction

EvenKeel posted 9/10/2018 15:29 PM

Stress manifests in many ways!

I have a condition that definitely gets worse whenever I am overwhelmed.

Like you, it was amazing what my D did for my condition

You go girl!~

GraceLove posted 9/10/2018 23:04 PM

Thanks for the encouragement everyone. I really appreciate it.

I had just had a 'moment' where for some ridiculous reason I wanted to phone him and let him have it. (He FINALLY re-directed his mail after over a year). The fact that he wouldn't do this before triggered me.

AND I have been in NC since December, (since my DD wedding day). Only contact is through the lawyers.

I reaaaalllly don't want to break my beautiful NC, I've worked so hard to re-direct the anger. Yet there are these moments where I think: "will it really hurt do just let it out?" It's such a temptation and one I have been able to overcome so far.
Anyways, just had to get that out for now.

yuvas posted 9/11/2018 16:03 PM

Don’t! Maybe your interaction with the salesclerk was meant to be a positive reminder on why NC is important for you.

That’s such a great story!

GraceLove posted 9/11/2018 18:33 PM

Thanks yuvas. I know I shouldn't break my pact with myself. I will not contact him.

lilies21 posted 9/12/2018 08:30 AM

Way to go, GraceLove!

(((GraceLove)))

BearlyBreathing posted 9/12/2018 21:43 PM

Yay Gracelove!!

TrustGone posted 9/14/2018 09:30 AM

You go girl!!! I am always happy to hear when someone is doing as good as you!!!