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I sincerely apologize for the threadjacking, and for upsetting your BS. I'm realizing that I I tend to get caught up in exploring nuance and abstract ideas, and I should have been more mindful of the context and the fact that your thread wasn’t the right place for that kind of discussion. I'll try to be more mindful of that going forward. My intention was to improve the way WS are supported here, not to start debates or upset people. If you'd prefer that I don’t engage with your posts at all, I’ll respect that as well.

My BS continues to go through periods of sadness and anger. One minute he is good to have me around, the next he struggles to even look at me. I have been working on showing remorse, empathy and sitting with him in his pain. We have been working on how to have productive conversations. When heated we both know now space is needed to cool off then when ready we have our talks. My BS amazes me everyday and I know how truly lucky I am to even be in his presence. I do find myself very clingy and spend every waking moment I have him.

Emotional volatility is normal for BS at this stage as they process everything. So is being "clingy;" that's the hysterical bonding in action. Cooling off before having discussions is a really helpful and important skill, so I'm glad you guys can do that. That's something I could be doing better in my own relationship.

He asks me a question often that I truthfully cant answer. What can I offer him now that a new relationship could not?

I am personally of the opinion that everybody is replaceable. As nice as it is to think about having a single "soulmate" in the world and being lucky enough to end up with yours, I think the reality is that while a tiny percentage of the global population might be an pretty-near-optimal match for a given individual, there are so many humans on Earth that it mathematically works out to be a large number of compatible people. So what can you offer him that a new relationship couldn't? While you have inherent value as an individual separate to that which he feels you have, the answer to his question is probably "nothing that a new relationship couldn't provide," if we're being perfectly honest. That might be a discomforting thought. (Hopefully I am not doing the insensitive logicky thing again ... But it does beg a philosophical exploration, no?) But right now it's about whether he is emotionally attached to and invested in a relationship with you specifically, and whether he believes you can recover and change enough to become a safe partner for him to be with. Value is subjective and exists in relationships where people assign it.

A better set of questions for you both to answer would be:

-What do you want from your partner and your marriage?

-Are you able to give those things to each other (or rather, do you think you will be able to give them to each other eventually)?

-Are both of you willing to wait for the other to recover/heal/change?

And those don't need concrete answers right now or right away. They are meant to be explored and updated as needed over time.

Edited to add, I had chatGPT summarize it more cleanly:

A marriage is an ongoing system that only continues if both partners choose to participate in it. After betrayal, the betrayed partner evaluates whether continued participation is viable given their attachment, emotional capacity, and willingness to rebuild. The wayward partner’s task is not to prove their "relative value,"to the betrayed spouse, but to determine whether they genuinely want the relationship and whether they can become a safe partner through internal psychological work and sustained behavioral change. Each person is responsible for their own internal evaluation and commitment, but neither can control the final outcome independently.

[This message edited by GotTheMorbs at 5:26 AM, Tuesday, June 16th]

He asks me a question often that I truthfully cant answer. What can I offer him now that a new relationship could not?

And this is why in the end, no answer is ever as elegant as its question.

You already know it, or at least sense it. It’s in there.

But is difficult to find the words isn’t it?

The answer within the question is simple but I find that somehow people often struggle to " see it" not just speaking it.

It is nothing and everything.

Can you sense just why?

Have you taken ownership for your actions to your parents? Have you rewritten your marital history and villified your husband? If so, have you done or said anything to correct or repair that damage?

My wife had done things like that and she's put significant effort into correcting that. She has put a lot of effort into "setting the record straight" by owning her share in our problems. She made it known I wasn't the villain she portrayed me to be. That she had often been dishonest and always painted herself in a positive, innocent light while portraying me negatively. That doesn't "fix" years of treachery, but it has gone a long way toward repairing some of the damage. Your husband might really appreciate the effort.

Its the failing to respect the boundaries that are in place. My family is a boundary that I have struggled to keep. I need to keep my distance, do not share what is going on between my BS and I for both my BS and children. My parents who i have always been close with are not friends to my BS and I situation. I know and understand this is a requirement and though it is hard it needs to be done

I was super close to my father. I idolized him growing up. When he left my mom for his AP, I tried very hard to keep him as a part of my life. But his AP is a person who is…willing to do anything, let’s say, to get what she wants. She lies and manipulates and is vicious when angry. I kept inviting Dad to things alone, without her, but he declined (told me it was Sohpie’s Choice). So I had to cut him out of my life. We’ve been estranged for over a decade.

It’s sad and I wish it weren’t so. But my wife and I concluded that she was unsafe to expose our children to, and estrangement became the only option when dad declined to respect our boundaries.

I’m sorry that it came to that for you, but it can be done. I myself am not sorry for the choice I made, because I know why I did it. I wish I were still close to my dad, but my family and my kids come first.