So. Its been four years since my ex husband left me for another woman. One year since I've been divorced.
In the last four years I have blossomed and discovered so much about myself. I am about to get my BA, will have my masters and two teaching credentials in another 3 years. I am surrounded by people who care and support me.
I won't lie, dating is hard. My relationship with my ex ruined sexual intimacy for me, so any future relationships won't have that aspect. However, the person I did date for about 2 years was absolutely incredible. They showed me so much of what a healthy relationship was. Although we didn't work out, we are now best friends. He's super supportive and is always there.
I won't lie. Occasionally I check up on my ex. Why? I am terrified he'll move closer to me again, and its not something I want. It terrifies me. However, I also get some giggles at watching his life implode. He told all his friends he cheated because I was holding him.back and I was the reason for all the problems. Its lively to see how wrong he was and it shows everyone that he was the problem in his own life.
I do miss him sometimes. But we were together for over 10 years. It makes sense. I'm missing what we had in the beginning. I know I'm better off now tho.
Just thought I'd share since it's been years since yall helped me out.