Soooo cool how God works.....its easier to spot when you are not in the trenches and heat of the battle. Its one of the beauties of honest fellowship. I'm not saying my Small Group was dishonest....but the overall sense was one of either "It is what it is" or "be thankful for what you got". For the record, I agree with both of these but see them as partial truths.
We are all dealt things we'd rather not....."It is what it is". But I also believe we are to play the hand we are dealt....the parable of the 3 servants intrusted with a portion of the Masters fortune. Those servants that found the courage to DEAL with what they were handed were rewarded for their good stewardship. The one that acted in fear and did nothing (refused to risk ACTING with the hand he was dealt) received nothing.
We are all blessed...and absolutely should be thankful. But there is a sense of "minimizing" if one simply stops with "It is what it is"....a sense of resignation. Where is the JOY in that.
I sense in me a feeling of "Okay, this trial just got ramped up....I must be on the narrow path....just what is ahead for me!" followed by a smile. I am treating this as a sign the enemy senses something GOOD is being produced, and he ramps up his efforts to derail that JOY.
She once again reached out to my husband and I believe is bitter that he is not dropping everything to be with her and cannot understand that his priorities have to be split between his wife and existing child, along with the new child and her needs that she would like him to meet. I'm praying desperately for God to work in her heart and her life.
This is a classic example. Satan sees you BOTH growing through this trial....and not just get through it. He senses you both are risking your hearts once again (investing the blessings you have been given by real world actions that line up with God's words). You and your husband are mounting, with Gods help, a real resistance to satans efforts. Seeing as neither of you will stumble as easily as you may have before...its natural to go after and use the weakest link he can. In this case that weak link is the OW. If I were fighting you two, I would enlist the same tactic. Remember, satan and sin are all about easy paths.
Want to really ramp up the battle? Continue doing what you are.....when you feel that resistance and are tempted to retreat, pray for others. I particularly like to pray for the atheists in our families. I'm not tempting the devil, I am taping into God and the restorative power Jesus bestows in each one of us who believe.
Satans not the only one noticing this growing strength in y'all....I see it too.
Oh......and what a powerful reminder you have to us with this.
I'm praying desperately for God to work in her heart and her life.
This is what is meant when we are called to pray for our enemies. You don't pray they continue to attack you....you pray that they may be convicted of their wrongful actions, and then choose right ones.
For the record.....I have been convicted that some of MY choices have been wrong. Its humbling, but I see more and more that God's corrective actions\convictions in my own life are done out of love and are designed to grow my love. Grow my love towards God, myself and others.
If this wasn't so dang painful, it is actually quite exciting.
I just love how so many of my "agreements" have been proven false.
When satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.
Thank God we are more then we were, thankful for the people we are today, excited and hopeful for the people we are growing into!