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Canít sleep. Ever. Thanks WS!

ItsNotFair posted 7/8/2019 01:09 AM

My husband dozed off around 8 pm this evening..must be nice. Iím awake trying hard to distract myself with anything so I can fall asleep, but still canít manage to get rid of the aching pain in my chest and the tears that always come around this time of night. I am so sad, but also feeling a little like F THIS. You (WS) SUCK. Your former AP SUCKS. And I donít know why Iím wasting all this time and energy over shitty ass people who SUCK. My feelings have been all over the place for awhile, but sadly I feel part of me staying is because Iím a stay at home mom with three kids- two who arenít even in school yet- and I have no desire to be on welfare or just constantly broke and never seeing my kids because my husband decided to act like a POS. Sometimes I just want to say F it and worry entirely about myself and my kids. Why am I pushing myself so hard here when Iím not the one who cheated?!? He wants to go to an outdoor concert type thing next weekend, which pre affair would have been great, but now I have no desire to do that with him. So I donít think I will! Truly Iím embarrassed to be out with him and it gives me extreme anxiety, so I donít know why I need to put myself through that. And I donít give a shit if it makes him feel bad. I canít decide if Iím more angry with myself for marrying a man with such low self esteem that he would cheat on me to feel better about himself temporarily OR that him and his druggie whore have caused me this much pain that I now have to work through. Either way, I picked him, so my f*cking bad.

pearlamici posted 7/8/2019 01:20 AM

Hi Its I haven't read all your posts but don't be angry with yourself - and don't do anything you don't feel like doing. Make plans for yourself or you and your kids next weekend and let him cater (or not) to your feelings. Going to read your back story now. (obviously I don't sleep that great either.)

destroyed1 posted 7/8/2019 05:13 AM


Melatonin helps .... some.

Your dr might be able to give you something to help you sleep.

but still canít manage to get rid of the aching pain in my chest

That is possibly anxiety building up. You want to go to the dr before that becomes a bigger problem.

ibonnie posted 7/8/2019 06:27 AM

My husband dozed off around 8 pm this evening..must be nice.†

Isn't that the worst? How they can sleep so peacefully, with no problems, meanwhile we toss and turn and just... can't.

ibonnie posted 7/8/2019 06:28 AM

My husband dozed off around 8 pm this evening..must be nice.†

Isn't that the worst? How they can sleep so peacefully, with no problems, meanwhile we toss and turn and just... can't.

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