The truth about my husband

I knew on february 14th that my husband was cheating on me. He was stuck at a hotel for those couple nights due to the weather, I came on over on the morning of the 14th just to surprise him, but when I texted him telling him that I was at the hotel and asking for his room number he for some reason couldn't text me back immediately. 5 minutes later and I see a women walking out to her car, a woman who I recognized and a woman who i knew was trouble. Seconds later and my husband gave me his room number, and when I arrived in the room I found my husband taking a shower.
That woman was one of his old girlfriends from high school, a woman who was recently divorced and a woman who would occasionally call my husband for some support, something I never did like. I told my husband months ago that she needed to find some female group for support, but he told me that he wanted to make sure that she was going to be okay.
Last week I finally had the guts to ask him if he was cheating on me, and he finally admitted that he was. He cried and gave me a few dozen different apologies, and all I could do was tell him to leave.
So as of right now my husband has switched truck driving jobs, he has gone from a local 9 to 5 job to a long-haul 48-State job that will keep him away from the house for a while.
We have three children, the oldest is our daughter who is 14, and as of right now none of them realize what is going on.
Yesterday my husband sent me an email telling me the truth, and that he has been seeing her since November. He was at a hotel in Portland on one of those nights, and that woman lives in Portland as well, no doubt that was the night they hooked up.
Been married for 16 years!!! He is the father of my 3 children, he was the man that I fell in love with back when I was 19. And here he is almost 46 and he is cheating on me with an old high school girlfriend who is a year older than him and has 3 children of her own.
Part of me wants to cheat on him as well, I got this small part of me that feels like i'm gonna feel better knowing that I did the same to him.
And now I am honestly wondering how much of our marriage is even real? Back in August of 2021 is when we found ourselves with an unplanned pregnancy, and my husband slowly convinced me to have an abortion, something that I was against, and now i'm asking myself if he wanted me to have that abortion because he was already with another woman?
I'm lost. I can keep typing but what's the point?!?!

4 comments posted: Thursday, March 27th, 2025