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Eric1964

WW always had a not-entirely negative attitude to affairs.Affair with ex-coworker, DDay1 2009-12-31; affair resumed almost immediately, DDay2 2010-06-11. Sex life poor. Possibly other affair(s) before 2009.

The School of Life

This is a web-based resource rather than a book, but the majority of it is written articles, so I thought it would be relevant here.

The organisation "The School of Life" is run by Swiss-born British philosopher Alain de Botton. There are many videos and articles which you can view for free on e.g. YouTube; I subscribe to the app, which has a large amount of content. The material is divided into categories such as "How To Know Yourself", "How To Heal From Trauma (parts 1, 2 and 3)", "The Secrets of Successful Relationships", and many, many others. There are articles on sex, relationships and affairs, as well as quite a lot of background about psychotherapy.

I'm using these materials as part of my affair journey (I'm a BH), to help me understand more about myself and my WW. The articles are quite gently written and are non-judgemental; they're probably not designed to help you confront the more unpleasant details of affairs, but they do help you to create a landscape of compassionate context - either for yourself or your partner.

Many of the articles relate to the way in which our childhood forms our character; for example, de Botton talks about attachment styles in some detail, and discusses the ways in which our more irrational behaviour can be linked to wounds we received when very young. In lots of the articles, he will give hypothetical, yet very specific, examples of the kinds of problems we face - the horror we feel at the way our partner eats, or how they embarrass us when they tell boring anecdotes at parties - and helps us to try to understand why these things bother us so much.

He talks about the importance of expressing oneself - through crying, screaming, dancing, listening to music - and tries to explain how and why some of us become very inhibited about such self-expression. He advocates for compassion for all people, whilst never losing sight of the fact that another's actions can hurt us deeply.

The articles vary in length: the shortest take about a minute to ready, whilst the longest are around half an hour - but the majority are about five minutes long. The videos are delightful, as they are accompanied by beautiful, quirky and imaginative animations; most of them are narrated by de Botton himself, and his voice is very easy to listen to.

A subscription gives you access to a huge amount of material - I got a special offer for £29.99 (GBP) for a year and I think the normal price is nearer £50, but I will seriously consider renewing when my subscription expires, as I think there's enough high-quality material to justify the price.

The School of Life will not solve your problems and, if you're in a similar situation to me, you'll still need therapy and difficult (very difficult!) conversations with your loved one, but I find that, reading a little each day is bolstering my confidence and giving me strength to take each step.

1 comment posted: Tuesday, October 29th, 2024

How much should you know about your WS's affair?

I've started tackling my feelings about my WW's affair, and talking to her about it. The affair is a long time ago and she is very vague about it: if I ask her basic specifics, such as, "Exactly how did it start?", "When you said you'd broken it off but it continued, how did that happen?" or, "How did the affair end?", she claims not to remember; if I mention something for which I have evidence, she says something like, "Well, that must be how it was, then," as if it were another person performing those actions.

My opinion at present is that the BS should know the basic facts of the affair: exactly how it started, how it ended, etc, but not necessarily the details of the sex. I know too much about the sex and not enough about the basic timeline.

What does the BS need to know, and why? What are the consequences of not knowing these aspects of the affair?

22 comments posted: Monday, October 28th, 2024

The paradox of reconciliation

The essential paradox of reconciliation is that the person with whom you need to work to obtain healing, is the person who hurt you.

I have a fantasy of leaving my current relationship, and starting a new romantic and sexual relationship from scratch. We wouldn't be two perfect people, but the hurts we'd suffered, and the hurts we may have inflicted on others, would not involve each other.

Trying to heal a relationship from within is the very archetype of pulling yourself up by your own bootstraps.

5 comments posted: Friday, October 4th, 2024

The aftermath of an affair: long-term.

This is the very short version: I'll update with more details later.

My wife started an affair with a colleague in October 2009. On New Year's Eve, the OM's wife knocked on our door and accused my wife of the affair. As she brought no evidence, I told her to go away, but I then found some texts and my wife admitted the affair and ended it.

Except she didn't, because the following June I received, in the post at work, an envelope containing printouts of messages between my wife and the OM - some of them highly sexual in content - proving the affair had continued until at least May.

Fourteen years later, I've been carrying this weight around. I have maybe three or four episodes of bleak depression a year, and am just coming out of one now.

We're still married. We never addressed the affair, and that's why I'm here now.

50 comments posted: Saturday, March 9th, 2024

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