She wants a baby
Hey all,
First time posting here, I didn't realise this forum existed until recently.
It's been a year since dday, I still feel like a shell of my former self but we have managed to reconcile, although now we have hit a dead end.
She desperately wants to have a baby. Before dday I was ready, but now I can't even stomach the thought. I still don't love her the same, given time I'm not sure that I ever will.
Its not that I don't want kids, I definitely do! its just I cant envision having kids with her anymore.
The crux probably is the way in which she cheated.
For some backstory (yet to fill out my profile), I believe her when she says that the relationship never got physical although the messages were pretty disgusting, it was more than just your average sexting even if it was just fantasy.
There was an entire plan or "story" suggested by her, how AP should get her pregnant, pretend it was mine and stay close friends and babysit etc. After that they set a date to do the deed but she backed out.
So yeah, that probably messed me up the most, especially as during this time she introduced AP and we all started spending time together.
Maybe this is it for us, I'm struggling to see a way forwards.
50 comments posted: Friday, June 2nd, 2023
