H just found out about a child he didnt know he helped create when cheated on me
I stayed when he cheated and we worked through it then continued with getting married...but just this weekend he told me she reached out and sent photos saying the child is yours...H spent days giving me cold shoulder because he was in shock then finally told me. Since then I've been...I want to hit him. Hard. I want to hate her for flirting with him while on the job (and I hate that he even responded to her flirting). That little child is beautiful and reminds me of our own children. I want to work through it but can I really handle her being in our lives until the child turns 18? I'm angry. I havent expressed my anger to him I've been crying on and off whenever home alone without him or our children. I'm dying inside. I wanted to have more children with him and right now I'm so miserable that another woman mothered his child and even hid the child from him. I understand she was mad at him as she didn't know she was what they call a side chick. I get she maybe thought it was better I never knew the child DID exist. I'll love that child like my own if she allows it. Because that baby is INNOCENT. But I'm so angry that this situation is even happening. I want to stay and work it out but at the same time I want to throw him out and start anew. I'm just so angry he didn't have protected sex with another woman...I believed him when he said they didn't go that far back then and now I know I wasn't crazy for believing they did. I just want to go back to that time and left then because now I'm in too deep and don't want to leave when I know other women would. I may seem pathetic but I love this man and he's been crying and apologizing and trying to do his best but I just wish he never strayed. Thanks for reading my rant.
11 comments posted: Tuesday, April 18th, 2023
