Feel like I forgave too easily
A few months ago, WW admitted to cheating on me. I had my suspicions but convinced myself otherwise (and he was very good at always having an excuse). This affair was 90% online, and they met up a few times.
Because I was suspicious, I had been grieving our relationship for a long time. So when the time came where he admitted it to me, I was less visibly upset than I expected. I was sad. I was betrayed. But I didn't express it for long enough.
After many conversations, we have reconciled. WW is aware that if it happens again, even so much as if I get a suspicion, I am out. I had issues standing up for myself, and have been tackling that in therapy.
Yet I am still wary. He hasn't done anything to make me think he's cheating again, but my brain can't stop thinking about it. I also feel like he got off too easy. I have trouble expressing anger, and feel like I gave in too soon. Like I had the right to be angry, didn't express it, and have now lost that chance.
I don't even have a question. Just wanted to share my feelings.
7 comments posted: Tuesday, February 21st, 2023
