Need some help! My brain is telling me to put the app back on my husbands phone, but dont think my heart can handle it.
Been with my husband for 17 years.8 years ago I thought he was cheating. I put a hidden app on his phone that would allow me to turn on his microphone and record. I recorded him having sex with someone in his car at work.I Still have not figured out who it was. But people at his work new that it happened. Almost like agging him on. I was gonna leave him and take the kids But I just couldn't do it. I chose to stay for all the things that he had done right. And not end it over the 1 thing he did wrong. I decided at the time That it wasn't worth Ending my marriage over Because we have 3 children. We recently moved to a new state. And he got a new job. And I really wanna put the app back on his phone. But a huge part of me is telling me not to because even if I know I don't think I'll do anything about it. He has no idea that I know. Or that I still have the recordings. I want to tell him that I know But I don't think it would do any good other than getting the truth out. To be honest I don't think that I want him to know I know, I just want him to tell me who it was. Having the burden of knowing this secret makes me question everything he tells me. I was able to shove it aside for so long, but the move is Recreating All of the thoughts and feelings in my heart and my mind. I feel like it is tearing my soul apart. I know they say about 65% of women stay married after their husbands cheat, but how do they cope? What things do they do to help when all the feeling coming crashing in like waves and you can't stop them?
26 comments posted: Monday, January 30th, 2023
