Triggered & Flooding
Just wanted to talk to people who understand what I'm truly feeling today, I've been doing so well recently with getting on with my life & concentrating on myself, pretty much a soft 180 really. But today when I woke I could feel that dark cloud above me and am just flooded with all the old thoughts of the physical aspects of the affair, I'm sat at work with my heart racing & the shakes, trying not to cry & desperately trying to concentrate on my work & distract my brain from the mind movies. What I don't understand is why this has suddenly happened, I usually deal with triggers quite well (driving past certain places they visited & TV shows about affairs etc) but I can't seem to shake this today. My husband sleeps in separate bedroom so I told him I didn't wish to speak to him this morning so that worked well for me.
I feel so fucking lonely, even though I'm amongst friends. Just wanted to reach out really, just to say hi! I think about everybody else who uses these forums quite a lot, even though I don't know you, I feel sad knowing other people feel the same as me and we are forced to just get on with it.
8 comments posted: Friday, April 28th, 2023
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