Online affair
So sorry for long post:
So I found out just over a week ago on holiday with my 2 babies that my husband of 10 years, together for over 20. Has been talking to women sexually online (absolute filth). For 7 months......i am devastated to say the least. We have had our ups and downs, but the main factor is no sexual contact since forever!!!!! We hit a brick wall many moons ago, he has a major issue with showing love/affection but will show me this only during sex.I have practically begged in the past on my hands and knees for him to show me affection outside of the bedroom, even desperately tried on many occasions to talk,cuddle, touch, kiss without it having to lead to sex all the time, showing him what I wanted?.....but sex seemed to be the only time it felt real and true. This eventually turned in to resentment on my part and I pulled away, mainly for my own sanity as it upset me there was nothing beyond my bed. I knew I was sacrificing the relationship in many ways but continued to bury my head in the sand and stupidly became numb and accepted my lot whilst becoming so sexually frustrated and under appreciated in many many ways....the thing is he has always been a good person/father. Always treatment me well and our children are his everything. Everything else is spot on in our relationship we laugh and have both made a wonderful and fulfilled life with eachother....but the intimacy and sex.....nothing!!!!!!! I am at fault also of course for allowing things to slip so far, cock blocking(excuse the term)....but this....this online affair is all him!!!!! He has never opened up about anything when it comes to being intimate/effectionate. Even on my wedding day he told me I looked alright??? I mean come on....maximum effort here...but happily has sex and roles over once he is satisfied....I need more than that???? Am I being unreasonable????, I have questioned myself for being to needy for touch/love. I am so upset that after all we have been through over the years it has come to a seedy online affair...I stupidly looked at lots of the discussions he had with these women......some he was so emotionally involved with to the point that I can't believe he can say these things to strangers and not me???? All these years I wanted him to show me how he felt about me that didn't involve just sex....but can do this with random girls....I honestly am beside myself...I really feel destroyed and have no idea what to do? He is so heavily involved with family and friends who love him dearly...I am left to deal with this on my own. Do I just throw in the towel...or do I give things another go as he wants to? HELP
7 comments posted: Friday, November 4th, 2022
