fear and forgiveness
There have been different concerns at different times that have been foremost in my mind over the last 17 months. Concerns that, at the time, are more worrisome than others for me. In the beginning it was just trying to stay alive, then it was the decision to go or stay. Now I have so much fear of getting hurt again. I would like to forgive him but feel that if I do it will in some way prevent me from being on guard to detect any inconsistencies or prevent any more hurt. He has not given me any reason to not trust him. Maybe fear and forgiveness have nothing to do with each other. Maybe the fear has to resolve before forgiveness has to take place. Will the fear always be there preventing any forgiveness? Does the fear ever go away? Do our hearts ever escape the chains and bars and walls around them? I'm just in fear of this fear. I would welcome any thoughts, lessons learned. Thanks so much.
27 comments posted: Friday, November 6th, 2020