WW caught in EA May 17
DDay Mar 19 it was full PA
Struggling for R, but still trying.
Dead bedroom 3 yrs post dday
We have made it to over 3 years post DDay, and although we are still together, technically, we have devolved into almost roommates now. I know there have been alot of hurtful things we have both said to each other over the last few years, especially during arguments when her affair was brought up, but it now seems like there is very little connection anymore.
It took so much from me trying to battle with her to go NC, plus my health issues, some of which are very, very stress related, have almost destroyed my spirit in that now there is no fight left in me, I'm all used up. As for her the fight has gone from fighting me to keep her "friend" to now fighting me on almost anything I do at least once each day, from the simplest of things to big issues. And then she wonders why I don't feel particularly amorous last thing at night or any other time tbh. Though she will hardly ever instigate anything in the bedroom either. She will through out excuses like not feeling great, tiredness, or even say her sex drive is gone (quoting menopause).
I suppose the question I am asking is that is there any chance of recovery from this position, has anyone recovered from an almost stalemate of indifference by both the WS and the BS? I don't think either one of us wants to divorce but I don't think the situation as it stands can continue either.
20 comments posted: Wednesday, June 29th, 2022
Infidelity and your bodies response
I know there are plenty of studies regarding the impact of negative emotions on your bodies general wellbeing, but after today I thought I would share what has happened to me since my WW's first DDay.
DDay 1 may 2017, she refused NC even developed a serious "friendship" with the guy in front of me, by jan-18 I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis, which following several studies and my own personal experience is aggravated by stress.
DDay 2 mar-19, I had a big flare up of my UC requiring heavy dose steroids, probably didn't help us as it made me fairly belligerent and aggressive for a few weeks.
jun-19 we went on our previously arranged holiday TO near where the AP lived, when I came back I was given the news I had possible advanced prostate cancer. Luckily after alot of tests it was ONLY prostatitis, but still threw me for a loop.
Mar-20 lockdown commences, watching her chat so so much with the AP triggered another flare up.. At which point I was told I would have to go on immuno suppressive drugs to combat my UC. I have avoided these by making a radical change to my diet and exercise and have maintained my UC since then.
Then this morning, after a fairly stressful Xmas and new year, dealing with a recalcitrant WS I had chest pains and numbness and am now spending the weekend in hospital getting tested left right and centre for a suspected heart attack.. I am not overweight, exercise very regularly, eat well, and stress still gets to me..
So if ever you do struggle with life after infidelity.. Please, Please, please look after yourself first and foremost. And try anyway to not let the stress get to you.
21 comments posted: Saturday, January 15th, 2022