A New life
I have taken "New Beginnings" to the extreme. I have moved over 3,000 miles, got a new job, a new dog, and working on a new house. I know I have to start over but right now it feels hard.
I never thought I would be divorced, moved out of my home town, and leave a job I thought I would have for 20 years. I was happy in my illusion of marriage. Even after D day he claimed he loved me and wanted to make it work.
This move and choices are finally in my control, but that only helps some. I am scared. I do not want to be brave or strong. I just want a chance at life again. Right now I am scared, and every night wake up wanting to call my husband (divorced) and say "Let's try again". Not that is even an option he has a fiance.
It has gotten better. I am at a point where I was out of the trama and could make some sound choices for myself. It is just hard, I am scared and alone.
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D-Day- 2 years ago
Divorce - 1 year
WH- 7+ affairs over 19 years.
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9 comments posted: Wednesday, October 28th, 2020
